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ferret


Investigative wordsmith leaving no idea unexplored and no shoe unsniffed.

For the love of Celestia

Look at how many favorites I have. I am a two bit fave whore. Stop thanking me just because I faved your story. It doesn't even mean I liked it! Just that I may be interested in updates for now. There is no reason to thank me for a fave. It's complete lunacy!

Thank me for my "amazing" commenting ability or for writing "so many" inspiring stories. But for the love of Celestia please, no thanks for a fave. It just makes me feel bad, for not having anything else to give you that you feel worth mentioning.

You can find all of my stories in-progess, including a bunch of ones not published here, on my website. I have a "real" blog there, too.
You can email me directly fimferret2, at critter.cloudns.org if you want.
My PGP key is rsa2048/7427625CBD42FE2E (0204 264A A8AB 68E3 876D 67DA 7427 625C BD42 FE2E) or here.
I also am available on Tox, usually, at
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Some of us need snuggles, dammit!

Get over here and I will snuggle the fluff outta you.

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Ah, I'm sorry you've been having such a rough time of it, and that I don't know of any good ways I have to help (beyond what little I'm already, I hope at least, doing).
I continue to be glad you've got the RPG, and good luck to you in general.

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Yeah I'm not really an introvert myself, so I kind of start losing track of reality when it's just me sitting around all the time.

Some of us need snuggles, dammit!

When I let go of the idea that time had passed, it came down to a simple realization that if it was important to me.

Yeah, that's really true. I guess that's what I mean when I tell people I feel like everything I do is pointless, but I do it anyway just because I've got nothing better to do. Even if we never finish our great works, all we really need to do is make sure we don't have any better ideas. Then we'll know that even if we fail, then it would have been worse if we didn't try.

I have a collection of MLP music that I often hear when driving. If I think about any of it for long, I start crying.

Well sure, it's just that one song in particular hit me pretty hard. Nobody ever... brought me soup to comfort me when I felt low.

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Being an introvert, I am prone not to trust the purity of people’s intentions unless we share a common interest, so I can’t help much on the idea of “meeting people”, however, if you hope to find people of similar interests, I recommend going to conventions. Brony cons have probably faded away, but there are brony meets at other conventions, specifically, Furry conventions. Of course, it might be a while before cons are open. I’ve been doing a lot of my socializing in VR. I’ve never met one of my best friends in person but in VR we have watched movies together, spent a lot of time exploring virtual worlds, and just hanging out.

I keep meaning to come back here, but I also keep worrying that I went and disappeared for like... half a year? A whole year? If I start posting here again, how many people's hopes am I gonna get up, only to lose myself again for another five months not being able to publish shit? My brain's telling me "Wait until you're ready to be consistent before you return," and I'm like "Shut up, brain! If I do that I'll never return in a million years!" But my brain's really stubborn about it, so uh... sorry.

A week or two ago an author published a new chapter to a story. The last chapter before that was published in 2015. When I read it, I didn’t feel the difference of five years. I felt the same joy that I did from when I first started readying it.

I know what it is like to be burdened by weight of all the time that has passed. Years ago, I started archiving books that hadn’t received a digital copy. I started building a book scanner from designs I found online. I must have worked on it for over three years, but never finished it. The time spent building it weighed on me because it made me feel lazy and dishonest to myself. I was also unhappy with its imperfections which in turn pushed me away from continuing its construction. I had to make a choice: be crushed by how long it was taking me to make the machine or be crushed by the idea of losing so many works to time... That’s what it felt like anyway, but actually those were results of the same belief that it wasn’t going to get done.

When I let go of the idea that time had passed, it came down to a simple realization that if it was important to me, I will do it, but pitying myself for not doing it felt like a falsehood planted in my mind by someone who wanted me to fail. My performance of making the machine was not consistent, but when others come across one of my scans, their experiences are not going to be brought down by the time it has taken me to get this thing in order.

It is important to turn your thoughts away from fear and focus on the joy of creating. During a TED talk one person said he may only have fifteen minutes a day of free time since becoming a parent, but whenever he had a moment, instead of worrying about how little time he had or if he would have enough, he would simply do the project he wanted to do for however long he could do it.

Seriously, how many people cried like a baby during the song in Rainbow Roadtrip?

I have a collection of MLP music that I often hear when driving. If I think about any of it for long, I start crying.

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Thanks so much... sorry I haven't been around. Problem is I have had no friends I can go visit, or anyone to have a relationship with or anything, since... like... 2004. So I sometimes get deluded into thinking I can do anything about that, and fimfiction.net is not going to really help with that much at all, since we're all about fantasy and ponies and anon and stuff. I've been trying places like the Fediverse and Scuttlebutt and places that aren't giant centralized behomoths just waiting for something horrible to happen like fimfiction. Unfortunately the only person I found nearby uh, blocked me, and also has some sort of horrible degenerative disease. The other 100,000 people in this city only use Facebook or something, I guess. I don't know.

I keep meaning to come back here, but I also keep worrying that I went and disappeared for like... half a year? A whole year? If I start posting here again, how many people's hopes am I gonna get up, only to lose myself again for another five months not being able to publish shit? My brain's telling me "Wait until you're ready to be consistent before you return," and I'm like "Shut up, brain! If I do that I'll never return in a million years!" But my brain's really stubborn about it, so uh... sorry.

My friend in the U.K. has been dragging me out of my pit of confusion and despair on a weekly basis, if you're interested. He's been editing and republishing Our RTC Roleplaying Campaign. He's also been commissioning art, and sending freaking presents like a total madman, so basically he's about 3000x more awesome than I. It's also the first collaboration I've been allowed to participate in, so... yeah that's what I've been doing for the last year, when not busy rocking in the corner drowning in the existential angst of a dead community.

Seriously, how many people cried like a baby during the song in Rainbow Roadtrip? I need help. :facehoof:

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The following concepts are overused, ineffective, unappreciated or spoiled.

  1. Impossible odds.
    ...except if the characters can overcome them.
  2. Amnesia.
  3. Ultraviolence.
  4. Court Politics.
  5. "I can totally make people like this unpopular concept."
  6. Remarking in your story how “random” it is.
  7. Chapters that are unrelated prompt based minifics.
  8. Human finding a baby pony in a box.
  9. Human in Ponyland.
  10. Pony story without any actual ponies.
  11. Alicorn OC.
  12. Zombie Outbreak.
  13. Vampires.
  14. A mysterious new pony comes to Ponyville.
  15. Any variants on the phrase "So, what do we do now?"
  16. The kooky life of [insert name here]
  17. Multiple personalities.
  18. Infinite multiverse.
  19. So-and-so loves such-and-such but will it work out??? (unless it doesn't)
  20. Writing or drawing based cutie marks.
  21. Crossovers with non-stories (card-games, vidya, etc)
  22. Vidya.
  23. Everyone loves/hates/gives all the attention to an OC
  24. In the story summary:

    1. who is paired with whom
    2. “not your ordinary”
    3. a mysterious stranger
    4. "this is my first fic"
    5. telling us to read on
      especially to “find out”

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