• Published 7th Nov 2014
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Forever and Again - Nyronus



As Twilight draws towards the end of her life, Celestia shares with her a theory about death, life, and magic.

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Of Magic

The room Celestia shared with Twilight was a cosy one. A wide bed for the two of them, shelves for their favorite books, two low, wide desks, always tidy, and fireplace with a kettle hanging eternally over it, always ready to provide fresh tea. This room was a haven of theirs, it was where they came when the long day ended to just be with one another. Sometimes laughing, sometimes playing, sometimes crying, but mostly to just enjoy the silence with each other. More so since Celestia and the entire board of the Royal Academy had convinced Twilight to retire. Free of work Twilight had spent many a night propped up on the pillows of the bed, reading some book or another, muttering to herself, in joy when it was one of her favorite pulps, and in frustration when it was another journal of articles filled with papers she felt she could have written better.

Celestia’s pen came to a halt as she looked up. Something was wrong.

Twilight looked hollow. Her face was slack, her eyes empty of focus, the wrinkles around them far more pronounced than they had ever been since they appeared.

“Celestia?” Twilight finally whispered, after what seemed like forever.

“Yes dear?”

“What… what will you do when I-” a hitch “-die?” Tears began falling down her cheeks. She began shuddering and letting out tiny silent sobs.

Celestia was moving before her pen hit the desk, and into the bed sweeping Twilight into an embrace. Twilight curled into her wife and began sobbing in earnest.

“I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry.”

“Shhhh. Shhh. It’s alright. It’s alright. Shh.”

“You don’t deserve this. You don’t deserve to hear the fears of a dying old mare. I’m sorry. So sorry.”

“Shhh. It’s alright, it’s alright. I’m here. I promise I’m here. It’s alright.”

They went back and forth for some time, Twilight shuddering in Celestia’s grasp while Celestia cooed and held her tight. Slowly the sobbing and moaning turned to breathing, and then finally calm.

“I’m sorry.” She said, her voice a little raw, half smiling as she did so.

“And for the thousandth time it’s alright.” Celestia planted a kiss on Twilight’s forehead, smiling. “Now, what’s wrong?”

“It’s... nothing,” Twilight said, somewhat bashful.

Celestia met the statement with a level stare and a quirked eyebrow. After a moment, Twilight turned away. There was a long moment before she began, her voice tired and shaking.

“I… I’m growing old Celestia. I know we talked about this-but I just… sometimes, when I have too much time on my hooves, thoughts come to me. I wonder… I wonder if I will be forgotten. I wonder what it will be like for you, not just to see me get crows feet and grey hairs, but to watch me waste away.” Her expression tightened as her voice picked up speed, babbling now. “I wonder if I will be anything other than a note in a history book to you-a stained glass window to pass and go ‘Ah, that was my wife’ until enough heroes come and go to take my place in the hall and-I’m sorry, I’m better than this, I-”

Celestia reached out and gently put a hoof on Twilight’s muzzle before leaning forward to kiss her on the forehead.

“Shh.” She said, smiling softly.

“I’m being silly.” Twilight moaned, trying to smile as she cried. Celestia kissed her softly on the lips for a moment.

“You’ve done a lot in your life, and neither death nor love are easy subjects to consider. I think you’re entitled to be a little silly at this point.”

Twilight chuckled at that, her the tears still flowing. She curled into Celestia’s barrel, nesting in there like a bird. Celestia held her for some time. Eventually, Twilight shuddered, and then relaxed, the tears finally stopping.

“What would you do if you didn’t have a worrisome old nag like me to take up your time?” Twilight chuckled.

“A lot.”

Twilight kicked her. Celestia snorted. They both smiled.

They laid together like this for a time, Twilight curled tightly against Celestia, while Celestia stared off into space, smiling as she ran her hoof through Twilight’s mane.

“Twilight, do you want to know what I think about death?”

“Hmmm?” Twilight looked up from her little nest, curious.

“I’ve seen a lot of it, you know. It sort of comes with the territory.”

Twilight snorted.

“I don’t like discussing this. Some ponies would find it… stranger, or fanciful, but... I don’t think things truly die Twilight. Or, if they can, it's really hard to do so.”

Twilight frowned slightly, watching Celestia intently.

“We’re more than just our bodies, we’re also-”

“-Magic.” Twilight’s finished.

“Right,” Celestia grinned. “Magic. It's in every living creature. It’s what separates us from the rocks and the stars, giving us our will, and as we know Twilight magic-”

“-neither begins nor ends. It simply changes.” Twilight fell into the familiar litany in lock step with Celestia. The two paused for a moment, and then broke into giggles.

“That’s right. Only I don’t think magic can be a pony for so long and just forget it. I think, when the magic spark of life happens again, the old memories of the ponies that it was before can come back, and I think, as much as you’ve felt, and lived Twilight?” Celestia stared into Twilight’s eyes. “You’ll come back one day, to live a life again.”

Twilight’s eyes burned with fascination, relief, joy, hope, and love. She was crying again.

“And even if it doesn’t?” Celestia went on, grabbing Twilight’s hoof. “Parts of you will live on forever. If nothing else, in here-” Celestia brought Twilight’s hoof to her own forehead, “-and here,” down to her chest. “And even then Twilight? If I were somehow to be cursed to forget and my heart turned cold? As much as you’ve touched me, I don’t think the magic inside me could ever forget you either. So even when the sun burns out and life leaves Equestria, some part of the universe will always remember Twilight Sparkle and what a wonderful mare she was, worthy of the love of the sun and moon and the light of friendship over the world.” Celestia was crying now too, her eyes burning with memory and love. She smiled down at Twilight.

“You’re just saying this to make me feel better,” Twilight sobbed and laughed. Celestia gave a fey smile.

“You said that the last time I told you all of this.”

“But you never told me-” Twilight stopped short as her eyes went wide with understanding. There was a moment of shocked stillness, and then Twilight laughed and hugged Celestia with all of her might. Celestia returned the favor.

“Even if you are lying,” Twilight said, “Thank you.”

“Each life is a miracle. While a pony is here, every choice they make shapes the future, leaving countless other miracles in their wake.” Celestia pulled Twilight in tighter. “No pony leaves the world truly untouched, and I could not be happier that while you were here this time one of those things you shaped was… well, me.” Smiling, she loosened her grip and curled around Twilight. The two then relaxed, laying next to each other in content silence.

“Thank you,” Twilight said after some time.

“Well, what was I to do?” Celestia said, eyes closed and grinning. “Let your sobbing keep me up all night?”

Twilight kicked her again.

Comments ( 38 )

Well done, and more touching than I thought it'd be going into it.

My only comment? You misspelled "Celestia" in the beginning of the chapter. Otherwise, excellent job.

Comment posted by Joshiplier deleted Nov 7th, 2014

Nice little story, and it was well written. Good job! :twilightsmile:


5238293 how did that get an upvote?
Dude, it's a one-shot. It's meant to be short. And at least the guy took the time to write the thing. If you want it to be done with "more effort", then write one yourself. Don't put shit on the people who go out of their way to entertain us. :facehoof:

5238478 how was that not negative?

5238538 yeah, but when you say "more effort", it sounds like you think they didn't spend long enough on the fic, or that they didn't do a good enough job.

I dunno. :applejackconfused:

I feel like this story might have been better if the ending had implied this was a different, previous Twilight, rather than the present one.

5238691

Huh, that's actually an interesting idea. Although that sort of got touched upon with Celestia's joke.

“You said that the last time I told you all of this.”

5238720
Admittedly, that is a really brilliant way to end a conversation about immortality, and I really love it and am sad I did not come up with it first, because it really is a thing of beauty.

5238470 As the one upvote, I'd like to explain why I supported his opinion: I quite thoroughly enjoyed this story, and gave it an upvote of my own because the concept was very, very cool. That said, I felt like the very, very cool concept could have been explored and expanded upon further to improve the story even more. An example of how to do that would be 5238691 this idea (EDIT: Having said that, I did quite like the subtle nods to that idea throughout). "Could have been" does not mean "story was bad because this was not so". More a lament that such a great thought was not fully developed.

However, that said, I did quite like the idea and the execution regardless.

Not bad, chief.

I do like the sort of 'reincarnation' angle you gave.

~Skeeter The Lurker

Excellent, just excellent! Good ending, totally unexpected.

not a fan of Celestia x Twi but I liked the story anyway. *upvote*

Good job, that was very touching. Keep up the good work.:pinkiehappy:

From hell, to you, and back again,
Soto Konoha, Fort Impression On Everypony

Congratulations on earning the first favorite I ever gave on this site!

Review time:
Short little Slice of Life fics like this have a way of capturing parts of a subject, in this case the relationship between Twilight and Celestia, in a way that longer stories can't seem to manage. This story in particular does an excellent job of showing the essence of both characters involved. Twilight's worry that she might be a burden is very characteristic of her, as is Celestia's response. I particularly enjoyed the concept of reincarnation touched on. If there is a pony who would know, it would be Celestia or Luna. Her comment on Twilight's reaction last time was very telling. It could mean that twilight has asked this before, or that she had asked in a previous incarnation. Both are probably true, knowing Twilight. Subtle things like this are what give stories their believability and their power.

Very well done.

-Radiant Dusk

New headcanon--with every new life she adds a star to the same starburst pattern. The reason she gained a sixth star in her cutie mark was because becoming an alicorn served as a form of instantaneous death and reincarnation.

The idea of a love lasting multiple lifetimes has always appealed to me.

i really like this story hope to read a sequel

5238550 What are you talking about in this comment?

5238176 What is the name of the guy in your avatar?

5417987 fuck if I know. I can't remember when I wrote those. :twilightoops:

5417991
Doesn't have a name that I'm aware of, as he isn't a character. Drawn by someone on DeviantArt.

I almost cried, damn feelings.
Nice story, also a good ending :twilightsmile:

Celestia cooed and help her tight.

held

Good story. Good read:pinkiesmile:

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Danke Schoen.

Cute, tugs on the heart. We all question what will happen after we die. Read the other one before this one, and both are amazing.

Thanks. :pinkiehappy:

>Or, if they can, its really hard to do so
>Its in every living creature
y u no apostrofee

I wrote a review of this story! It can be found here.

I'm glad i finally got round to reading this story. It's something i've tried myself in 'till we meet again", but I think you did it better :twilightsmile:

And for whatever reason, this story isn't mentioned anywhere around here...

9475124

I'm not sure what exactly what the issue is. This story came first, and TD's was, pretty explicitly, a spiritual sequel. He even asked my permission. I've also acknowledged this elsewhere. Is there anything else you need cleared up?

9475143
I apologize for not making it clear - my intention was not that there was a "problem". I don't expect anyone to time-travel, either. :-)

I just thought it might be a good thing to have it linked here somewhere, and I figured the comments wouldn't be a bad place to do it.

If that was out of line, I apologize.

9475186

Alright. Tone in text and all that. Glad it was cleared up, then.

9475198
Hey, I've nothing against you. :) In fact, I enjoyed the short quite a bit. Not sure if there's a longer story in there, seeing as the entire premise is practically blown wide open by the two shorts, but... It was nice. Short little tearjerker. :)

9475289

Thanks. Glad you enjoyed it. Sorry for any trouble.

9475647
I was the one to inadvertently trot on your hooves, so please don't apologize. :-)

I will admit to being quite new here, and despite the fact that I haven't yet gotten the proper "hang" of this place, I'm already actively commenting. Perhaps I should reel myself in, actually.

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