Spike has always felt like an outsider in his own group of friends. And after learning what happened to Stygian, Spike realizes how dangerous he could be to his friends in the future. This leads him down a very dark thought spiral: he should kill himself before he ever even has the chance of hurting anyone else.
Prereading and editing by Soge and Fluttershy
Criticism of “Just a Thought” by Chinchillax’s inner critics:
What is WRONG with you!?
—My conscious
You really shouldn’t put your mental health problems on parade for everyone to see.
—My anxiety
You really should learn to write someday.
—My inner editor
Chapters (10)
Well, this is the most depressing thing I've ever read on Fimfiction. Good job.
I guess.
Quite enjoyable to read.
Does this version of Spike have OCD? This sounds remarkably like the more depressive loops I've had.
And also
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huh...ok. Not a great feeling, but ok.
...ok...now I'm getting a tad uncomfortable.
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I really don't know what to call what Spike is going through. The story is mostly based on personal experience, and I've been diagnosed with high functioning anxiety, so that's what I would think to call it.
It could very well be OCD though.
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Yeah... it's gonna get worse before it gets better.
I hope you stick it out until the ending though. Given Spike's situation, I feel like the ending is as optimistic as it could be.
Thanks for reading it. (And I love your avatar. It's perfect for this story
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Nah, I'm in for the ride now! Can't wait to see what happens yet.
He can not do that because they'll be searching him and hoping for really long time. The way to go is to make his interest in magic public knowledge (he has evidence from Celestia that it would be met with positive response) and self-destruct relatively openly in a way that they would rationalize it as blatant stupidity. He just need a way to make bird shut up.
My first though was "Fluttershy?!"
That was an interesting read. Good job on the writing, hope you have the support and love you need to keep on living!
Yeah, very-very honest!
I feel such claims about potential events in future light cone are kinda not okay.
This whole dragon magic is an interesting concept even though the use of it in the story isn’t exactly a good thing.
Chapter 9 is a lovely chapter, I consider it my favorite one!
Lovely story! Also, I’m glad Spike didn’t die at the end!
I enjoyed this story a lot. Great job!
I'm glad I stumbled upon this fic. I don't think I'm able to say anything constructive about it. Spike's suicide attempts are a joy to read... which sounds weird considering I like Spike as a character quite a lot...
Probably the joy came from me imagining being in his situation.And Key was on fire here! I really liked his portrayal, loyalty, support, trust, overall thinking, and so. I could read about him portrayed this way all year long, it's very sweet. Not only thanks to that, the fic elevated from "good" to "one of my favourites".
You know what? Surprisingly a good read. Keep it up :)
I've always liked lines from the sisters like this. It really shows how immortality lends a different perspective to them and how they experience things.
I'm surprised this has as little attention (and character tags) when it's such a well-crafted story. I struggle with things often enough, and this story hit a lot of points I won't quite dredge up in this comment, but were all pretty accurate. I worry that my cat wouldn't know what happened to me and that no one will take care of her, for one thing.
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Thanks, that means a lot.
I'm kind of terrified to "advertise" this story at all. It's so... suicidal. Though... that's just the sort of thing that people going through a rough time might get help by reading. It's a conundrum.
I'm glad it resonated with you.
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It’s suicidal yes, but it’s still well written and genuine. That separates it from a lot of other stories that try to touch on the topic.
Okay...
So this hit home several times. This story made me feel very low as I read through his lows, but at the same time I feel better for having read it. Thank you for writing this.
I thought this was going to be about spike feeling like he doesn't belong and his friends don't care about him, but it seems like his friends really do care about him and treat him well, and the only reason he's suicidal is because of his weird delusion about becoming a villain
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wow same
I feel like the story just lost all its stakes
beautiful story, not what i was expecting but quite beautiful. Key is so cool
Excellently written.