Leave a Light On

by AuroraDawn

If You've Lost Your Way

There was a knocking at the door, and it was the timid, unsure nature of the sound that had immediately woken Applejack. Had it been a heavy pounding or an urgent rapping, she would have slowly opened her eyes and sighed deeply before crawling out from under her covers. But it was quiet, low enough that any other sleeping pony would have had no idea it was there. Years ago it wouldn’t have even gotten so much as a snore out of Applejack.

Life has a way of changing ponies, though.

There came a second set of knocks, just as light as before but seasoned with a slight increase in frequency, and Applejack had to hold herself back from racing down the stairs and waking everyone else up. She made it to the door as soon as she could, and right as a third knock began, she pulled it open. Immediately the scene she had resigned herself to expecting appeared before her. Two ponies were outside her door; one with red, wet eyes and a quivering muzzle, the other unconscious and stiff.

The first was that cellist earth pony, Applejack realized. What was her name again? Octavia, that was it. The other was her marefriend, that white unicorn that lived with her and was the largest source of noise complaints in the town.

Octavia was crying, trying to speak through panic and fear. Applejack said nothing, letting the pony get out what she needed to say.

“I’m dreadfully sorry, I know it’s so late, my friend, she’s… well, it’s been, and… I know I should probably take her to the hospital but when I started bringing her there she got mad and started yelling, and I don’t want anypony to see her like this, and… I don’t know what to do, I need…”

She stopped, closed her eyes, and took a deep breath while squeezing Vinyl closer to herself. “Your porch light was on, and it was the only one I could see. Can you help?”

Applejack walked out the door, muttering nothing more than a silent “mmhmm” while she ducked under Vinyl’s other leg, easing Octavia’s burden. They passed through the doorway and into the foyer, and Applejack spoke again. “Just over to this room here, onto the couch. Do you know what’s wrong with ’er?”

“I, uhm, well, I came home from a concert tonight and she was stumbling and slurring, her legs didn’t seem to move right. I- well, I might have gotten mad at her. She’s been getting worse and worse these last few months…”

Octavia and Applejack gently set Vinyl down on the couch, where the unicorn twisted and shifted with strange, jerky movements. She mumbled something, and then there was a long, drawn out moment where she didn’t breath.

Octavia let out a little worried cry and brought her hooves to her mouth, watching alongside Applejack who had started to move towards the unicorn. When at last Vinyl rasped in a hoarse breath and her chest started rising and falling again, Octavia sighed, and Applejack saw a shudder of slight relief run through her.

“We, uh… we fought,” Octavia continued. “She stormed into our room, and then she was quiet. I felt bad, and after an hour I went to apologize, but she wasn’t responding. When I went in I found her just like this, drifting in and out, not breathing right, and I… well, I, I’m—”

“It ain’t your fault, hon. She’s gone and done it to herself, nothing you can be blamed for.”

“But I—”

“I ain’t saying nothing about her choices in life. I’m here ta help, but I’ll need your help too, and we’d best get the guilt out of the way.”

“... Okay. Thank you, Applejack.”

Applejack wandered off to a cupboard in the corner of the living room and came back with a stained and patchy woolen blanket which she draped over Vinyl. She then put a hoof around Octavia’s withers and gently guided her away from the couch to a chair closer to the fireplace. Octavia let herself be pulled away, never pulling her gaze away from her marefriend.

With a flick of her head Applejack lit a match and spat it onto the coals in the fireplace. A few quick puffs of air from her were enough for the kindling already set up to catch, and a minute later there was a small crackling fire. Satisfied, Applejack walked over to the rocking chair opposite Octavia, and then sat.

“Still never got what it was outta ya,” she said.

“Uh… She’s had bad anxiety, and it’s gotten worse as she’s gotten more well-known. She was drinking to cope, but it became a real problem for her. To try and cut back on the alcohol she saw a doctor and got a prescription.”

Applejack grunted. “I take it it wasn’t for any herbal tea and quiet music.”

“No.” Octavia sighed, shaking her head. “I don’t know what it was called. They’re little white dusty things, rectangular. So do you know what to do?”

One of Vinyl’s eyes opened, and she furtively tried to fight off the light blanket on top of her. There was a moment of slurred curses and mumblings, before she gave up, gasped another breath, and drifted away again.

“Just the pills?” Applejack asked, her tone clearly indicating she already knew Octavia’s answer.

“She didn’t drink as often as before, but she didn’t stop,” Octavia replied. “That hurts to say aloud,” she muttered, dropping her head. “I hate seeing her like this, what’s become of her. I love her dearly, Applejack. I don’t want her to suffer like this.” She sniffed, and there was another dreadful minute of absolute silence while Vinyl struggled to breath. “You won’t tell anypony you’ve seen her like this?”

Applejack rubbed her muzzle, thinking. “I ain’t gonna say I’ll never tell a soul. I won’t go blabberin’ about town how I seen her tonight o’course, but this girl needs a doctor. Mixing pills and booze ain’t something I’m prepared to cure.”

“I know I need to get her to a hospital, I just… Vinyl always mentioned how so many of her idols were exposed as addicts, and how fast everypony turned against them. I don’t… I don’t want to be the pony that does that to her.”

Applejack nodded, turning to Octavia to find the earth pony was still staring at the ground, crying. “Tea?”

“Please.”

The next hour passed painfully slow for both of them. Applejack had set up a kettle over the small fire, and the moment it started to whistle she pulled it off and poured them both a cup. Neither of them spoke while they drank and watched Vinyl shiver and grumble meaningless, soupy words, and when the cups had been drained and gone cold, Applejack stood up and repeated the process.

Eventually, Octavia broke the silence.

“I must thank you for helping her— us. Helping us. I know we’re not close friends. I wouldn’t have blamed you if you just told us to go straight to the hospital.”

“Well, I am still tellin’ you to get to the hospital, but I know sometimes that can feel like the wrong option. I won’t let judgement live under this roof. You’re free to take all the time here you need, though when the sun rises and the family gets up, be prepared for Apple Bloom to be curious.”

“Right. Of course.”

“It’s probably best we wait until Big Mac gets up, actually. He can help you get Vinyl here to the ER, her objections be damned. He can carry her in one of the apple carts, keepin’ her from view. No scandals for ya.”

“That would be lovely. Thank you. I still don’t… well, I mean to say, I’m still very grateful you’re helping. You didn’t have to, and I genuinely appreciate it.”

Applejack’s eyes went cold, staring hard off into the distance. Octavia noticed this change and recoiled in her chair.

“Did I say something wrong?”

Applejack shook her head and blinked, coming back to reality.

“Nah, you’re fine, sugar. Well, you are wrong about something. I do need to help. Everyone here in Ponyville are my friends, in some form or ’nother. So long as I can help it, I won’t lose another friend to drugs. She might need medical attention that I can’t give, but the last thing she needs is no attention. And that, that I can help with.” Her lip was trembling, and she looked away from Vinyl, staring at the wall under the staircase that was lined with faded photographs and paintings.

Octavia opened her mouth to speak, but closed it soon after, opting instead to set her cup down and stand up from her seat. She crossed the living room quietly and tapped Applejack on the shoulder, startling her. With a weak smile Octavia reached her forelegs out, offering a hug, which Applejack quickly accepted. This time, it was the farmer’s turn to sniffle.

“Somepony close?” Octavia asked, patting Applejack’s back.

“Somepony I shoulda been closer to.” They broke, and Octavia sat down on the floor next to Applejack’s seat. “I knew they were getting inta things they ought not to. I looked down on them, rolled my eyes, wondering why they couldn’t just work hard and face their issues head on like I did.”

Vinyl moaned and rolled over, squeezing the blankets close to herself. The gaps between her fits of apnea had started to widen, and Octavia managed a small smile.

“One night, there came a knock at the door,” Applejack continued, speaking more to herself than Octavia. “Quiet thing, hardly noticeable. I was shocked I even woke up to it. But I ignored it. Figured if it were urgent they’d start poundin’ and hollerin’, and then I rolled over and went back to sleep.” She dropped her head and exhaled slow. It felt like she was breathing out molasses. “Found out a few days later that they had overdosed. Found under the bridge outside of town, curled up in the fetal position. Scared and alone,” Applejack choked, holding back her own tears.

“Oh, Applejack, I’m so sorry.”

“It- it weren’t my fault. I know. Like I told ya, we can’t be blamed for the choices others make. But I coulda helped. I coulda opened that door and brought them in and let them stay warm and know that I was here for ‘em, and maybe if they had known I loved them they’d be more willing to get the proper help they needed.”

The sun started to peek through the kitchen windows, and a stray ray found itself on Vinyl’s forehead, causing her to groan and wrap her forehooves around her eyes. Octavia couldn’t help herself, and she giggled quietly, prompting the corner of Applejack’s mouth to curve up in the start of a smile.

“Well, since then, I leave that porch light on every night, and always answer that door. No matter who it is or what they want.”

There were a couple thumps from the floor above, and Applejack shook her head.

“That’s well and enough about me, though. Come on now, hon, let’s get Vinyl into one of the carts in the barn. I’ll explain it all to Big Mac once he’s down, and he’ll take you two to the hospital.”

Comments

[applejackofalltrades]

FUCK there are real tears in my eyes wtf wtfw tf

wow i wow FUCK

[ObamaPrism]

Damn it
You made me cry harder than the last episode of MLP

[Aldon]

Bruh! the feels

Short but heavy. Amazing work!

[Yoshifan30]

Oh man that was pretty heavy stuff man 😢

[BuffaloBrony]

Yep, I know this one too...

My parents have a similar story - only it was a car accident "down the road a ways"...
They had just moved into their house in deep farm country - about 10 miles to the nearest decent sized town, about 3 dozen miles to the nearest city. The farm was on a fairly major thoroughfair, but otherwise? Complete middle of nowhere...

Of course - they had their young family in this new house, middle of nowhere, didn't know who was knocking in the middle of the night, etc. They didn't answer... Turns out it was a survivor from a car crash about three quarters of a mile up the road. Sadly, there had also been a fatality...

So yeah, until they moved out of that house; they ALWAYS kept the porch light on, and answered the door no matter the hour...
...and yes, more than one storm-tossed survivor wound up sleeping in the front room.

The only request they ever made was "don't thank us. Just pay it forward and help someone else"

[AuroraDawn]

10724996

Living in a rural area myself, it’s the type of story that everyone at least knows someone else who went through it. You gotta look out for your fellow man when you’re so far away from help, and sometimes we learn these lessons with a heavy hand of guilt -_-

[MoonlightRift]

Ouch. Short but brilliant.

[coto616]

Bruh!!

[Arcane_Sigil]

As someone who's been there before, in both situations that Applejack described and is in, this hits hard.

A friend of mine was your typical "druggy". Snuck pills from his grandparents, did pot, smoked, drank, anything he could do to get that high. He called me real late one night asking if he could come over for a minute. He was trying to quit and his dad, a drinker, wasn't helping. It wasn't until about... the tenth time he called that I finally answered my phone. I'd gotten up to go to the bathroom and came back to my phone vibrating on my bedside table. Checked the CID, saw it was him, let it ring figured he'd leave a voice message. One of those phones that tells you how many voice mails you have. I have nine. He might have called more before and not left messages but at the time I didn't care. It was one of those old phones that you pay for the minutes on, and all I could figure was he was wasting my minutes by butt dialing me while he was on a bender. He didn't leave a voice mail, just immediately called again. I answered, he said he needed someone to talk to, I told him it was 3am, everyone's asleep and I had work in the morning. If it's that important, he can call me in the morning or come see me at work. Hung up. Next day, nothing. I call his phone, voice mail. I leave a pretty mean voicemail, the gist of which was if he was going to waste my minutes by calling a dozen or more times and then not answering his damn phone when I call him, then I don't want to know what it was about. About an hour later, his phone calls me. It's his mom. He OD'd. They couldn't bring him out of it.

I'll stop my little story there because the other one is pretty similar to AJ's situation in this fic, only it was a girl and her big brother instead of a pair of mares. Big Brother was the party freak, girl was my friend who wanted to get help.

[silverthorn]

This is a really good story.

[Loki]

Good story, but just for further reference: If dyspnea manifests in a person with suspected overdose, you head to the ER immediately, better yet let the ambulance come to you.

[TheAlienBrony22]

This was a real tear jerker, like... wow.

I'm actually surprised this exists, and I really want more of this type of story... The tears are so prominent, this makes me wanna cry.

[fanreader999999]

Hits hard.

[BoJack Horseman]

10726469
Yeah I was about to say, you really don't want to wait until Big Mac wakes up. She should have went and got him up as soon as she convinced Octavia to bring Vinyl to the hospital. That shit can be the difference between life and death.

I've known a few people who have overdosed who I wished I could have helped more so the story hit hard though. (I know my BoJack persona might make it seem like I'm role playing but I'm actually serious.)

[WhispersInTheDark]

Wow. Applejack is a good friend, esp because she's willing to be such for ponies she hardly knows. This was a wonderful story, and thank you for writing it.

[TheOneAJ]

This story was beautiful! The reading by fire rain really brought all the emotions to front as well 😭

[Skyshy]

Like one thing that kind of bothers me is that it was never mentioned who AJ lost, and it bothers me because my first thought was rainbow Dash keystone in the show having addiction decided I really hope you intent wasn't it to be rainbow Dash but I also don't know if we're supposed to infer who the pony was

[AuroraDawn]

11102296
Not Dash. My intention was to keep to canon, and not kill off any named characters.

[Skyshy]

11102360
Thank you for clarifying that because I am not good with major character death at all especially for sure I really like and My Little pony is my current special interest

[ibanix]

10726469
As an EMT, I approve of this message.

[PresentPerfect]

11102360
I had kind of been anticipating/hoping it was one or both of her parents c_c