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trying to see how many ways i can hurt applejack, apparently Ko-Fi | Pronouns

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Hey, this is what I wanted the story we never speak of to actually be.

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great minds think alike i guess

This was really resonant, well done!

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Thank you for saying that :)

Not my usual fare. And I can't tell you what made me read it. Won't tell you. I hope that it is 'just' a story.

This is the coward’s way out.

I hate this branding so much.
It's the consensus of the majority that decides what is right, and what is wrong. And it's so damn presumptuous and hypocritical. All those speeches about free will, right out the window. Who is to decide when enough is enough? Who claims the right to decide how much one has to endure? If shying away from pain makes you a coward, does enduring it make you brave? Because that sentiment certainly doesn't feel right. Taking that last step - if it even is the last - means facing down one's own inhibitions, social stigma, guilty conscience and every hurdle society can throw in the way. And that is supposed to be cowardice.

I'm going to stop here. I meant no offense to anyone. I just felt the need to say something.

Save travels, Rainbow.

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i feel like its certainly a very fine line to tread. though in rainbow dashs pov, she would probably think its cowardly. i cant be certain if thats how i fully meant it here. its been almost a year since i wrote it and while i remember why i did i cant remember exactly what i was feeling. but what i said before is true, at least to me. tough thing to talk about. thanks for your comment

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What fic is that?

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Hurt, but it being a story I never speak of is a bit of a joke in regards to my profile.

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Calling suicide the "coward’s way out" is certainly NEVER helpful when dealing with someone who may be considering it.

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Calling suicide the "coward’s way out" is certainly NEVER helpful when dealing with someone who may be considering it.

If you want to talk about suicide and suicide prevention around here, you're supposed to be a lot more dramatic than just giving a bit of realistic advice like you're doing.
:trollestia:

My usual horsewords recommendation about suicide is the somewhat low key https://www.fimfiction.net/story/386111/the-choices-we-make . It's even suitable for people who are thinking about doing it.

Author, are you okay?

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I dont know how to answer this

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That's okay, take your time :pinkiesmile:

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Haha. I mean, I’m pretty much the same as usual. Maybe some people wouldn’t consider that okay, but for me it’s just how I’ve been for years. I have bad days, and rest assured this was written during a bad day. Currently, though? Not optimal, but could be worse, so I guess it’s okay.

Thank you for asking :)

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I hate this branding so much.
It's the consensus of the majority that decides what is right, and what is wrong. And it's so damn presumptuous and hypocritical. All those speeches about free will, right out the window. Who is to decide when enough is enough? Who claims the right to decide how much one has to endure? If shying away from pain makes you a coward, does enduring it make you brave? Because that sentiment certainly doesn't feel right. Taking that last step - if it even is the last - means facing down one's own inhibitions, social stigma, guilty conscience and every hurdle society can throw in the way. And that is supposed to be cowardice.

Where do I begin with this... Okay, so AJ's views on suicide aren't necessarily what is reflected in this story. It's sort of the thing where you can apply certain standards to others that you are just... unable to apply to yourself. Like you tell your friends that they deserve the world and that they don't deserve the shit they're going through mentally, but you might apply the same standards to yourself. That's just how it is.

Now, I've known AJ for a while and I can say that he wasn't saying that he believes suicide is selfish, it was just the way dash felt in the fic, and I think that as someone who has been suicidal for a while now, I can relate to the way dash felt. She felt that way about herself at that moment, it wasn't about others that have committed suicide. Her sense of self-worth was just that shit, that she felt that she didn't even deserve to commit suicide. If you don't like the story and can't understand that it is from the character's POV and that it might be relatable to some people and the way that they personally feel (even though it isn't something you feel towards yourself) then good for you. Just don't read his shit. Good day.

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Okay, so AJ's views on suicide aren't necessarily what is reflected in this story.

I... know? I read and reread my comment several times and cannot find any point at which I might have implied otherwise. It certainly was not intended.

Now, I've known AJ for a while and I can say that he wasn't saying that he believes suicide is selfish, it was just the way dash felt in the fic, and I think that as someone who has been suicidal for a while now, I can relate to the way dash felt. She felt that way about herself at that moment, it wasn't about others that have committed suicide. Her sense of self-worth was just that shit, that she felt that she didn't even deserve to commit suicide.

I don't know the author personally and I am not about to speculate about his believes. Especially not based on his work, since that would do him a disservice, I feel. Writing is a way to express oneself in whichever way one sees fit. I am well aware that it does not necessarily represent his own opinions. It is fiction, after all.
My comment was written with the topic in general in mind. And a certain mindset/opinion prevalent in a lot of people.

If you don't like the story and can't understand that it is from the character's POV and that it might be relatable to some people and the way that they personally feel (even though it isn't something you feel towards yourself) then good for you. Just don't read his shit. Good day.

Was this hostility necessary?
I have no qualms with the story on a technical level. He is a talented writer. And neither do I have any issues understanding. I would never call his work 'shit', as you do for whatever reason. When he replied to my comment, he was quite polite. He did not seem offended at all, despite it being a difficult topic to discuss. I liked that. Because of that, it confuses me even more why you apparently see such a need to... defend him. There has been no attack.

Huk

Damn... Dash's words in this one hit way too close to home. It was a very realistic way of portraying the mindset.

A very good little thing.

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Thanks for the comment. I honestly wrote this on a whim one night, trying to kinda just throw all my feelings down as something tangible. Glad it makes sense to someone other than me (though at the same time, sorry it hits close to home)

Huk

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Oh, believe me, it makes a lot of sense. Thankfully, it's not relevant anymore... at least for now. I hope writing this helped you to clear your mind :twilightsmile:.

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Yeah you know, I guess you could say that :) Thanks

This... wow. You've done it yet again. You must stop sending those onion ninjas. Do you know how difficult it is to get them out?!

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I mean, it sounds like something some suicidal people would think. Heck, that's what I thought when I was attempted. Of course, that's not something you should ever say to a suicidal person.

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This fic is amazing. Shame that Mono doesn't write horsewords anymore.

I've been going on somewhat of a commenting spree so don't be surprised if you get 100 notifications (jk... mostly)

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Haha wow! More comments! Hope you don’t mind me replying to all of them. I didn’t ever even plan to upload this, so I was quite surprised with the reception it got. Some would say that cutting onions is my specialty, I think they’re too kind. But the ninjas? Yeah, hard to get rid of em. Thanks :)

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I enjoy seeing responses to my comments! I'm making a habit of leaving comments on every worthwhile story I see, to get me into the flow of writing. Its more difficult on a tablet though, so I end up scrunitizing the hecc out of them lol. I'm gonna read every single one of your stories so expect your notifications to be spammed! And sending onion ninjas when I've got the sniffles? That's a low blow :trixieshiftleft:

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Thats great! I really should leave more comments when I read. I’m really bad about that. I get what you mean, though, I write a lot of my stories on my phone and it’s a bit of a hassle. And uh, every story? Hoo… Some aren’t that great I’ll warn you in advance haha!
Onion ninjas take no prisoners!

That, “See you soon.” Definitely hit me in the feels. With several of my friends dealing with mental health issues, two of which have come dangerously close to suicide themselves, and that I listen to a band that focuses purely on mental health, I can definitely say that I know what Dash is going through as mentioned in her suicide note. I have written several stories with mental health themes, some involving suicide, but I’ve never actually considered taking my own life unless something really bad happens. I guess you could call me sick in the head a bit, but I’m one of the kindest people you would ever meet, that’s the honest truth. Well done with this story, it made the suicide note seem believable.

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Thanks so much for the in depth comment. I hope you never get to the point of considering suicide :)

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