Since the Alicorn Amulet incident, Trixie suffers of nightmares. After some time she finally yielded and decided to get to the one pony who can help her. And so she returns to Ponyville, the place her nightmares began, not knowing that she has bigger problems than simple nightmares.

The dark tag is for two or three chapters that handle nightmares or past events with mentions of death. Those chapters will be marked with [D]

Twilight Sparkle regrets a lot of decisions. Not spending more time with her family. Wasting away in a library rather than being out making friends, among other things. But when she can she attempts to make right what she feels she has done wrong.

And an opportunity to do that has presented itself.

When her friends return from Manehatten having encountered a former enemy, Twilight sets off in search of somepony Great and Powerful, to do what she feels she should have done a long time ago.

Sometimes though, the damage done can't be repaired, mistakes aren't forgiven, and the opportunity passes by.

Takes place after Season 4.

The Great and Powerful Trixie grew up having it all: loving family, supportive friends, and an unbeatable magic show. That’s what she tells herself, at least.

There is a time in The Great and Powerful Trixie’s past that she would prefer to not remember. A time when she knew only one spell. A time when she lived in a backwater town. A time when she went by a different name…

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The original version of the story took 9th place in The Writeoff Association's April 2015 contest, "Great Expectations"

Trixie had made mistakes. Trixie had lied. Still, nopony had expected it to send Celestia into a rage. But nopony but Celestia understood the true importance to Equestria of trust.

Reading by AShadowOfCygnus here.
Reading by obabscribbler here.

My pride has been killing me ever since I started down this path, and I have helped it along all the way. With every decision I've made, with every boast I've shouted, with every crime I've committed, it's strangled me more and more, it's cut out the foal my parents once knew and the mare that I could have been. Maybe, if things had gone differently, I could have been useful with my life, I could have helped somepony. Maybe I could have been truly great.

Now, though, it's too late. I can't take back any of the decisions I've made, I can't rewind time and warn myself of how I was destined to fail, of how I was poisoning my mind with fruitless hopes and vain reasoning. All I have left is this paper on which I can jot down my final thoughts, this pen with which I can make a record of my sins. As pitiful as it is, this is all I can do to redeem myself. This is my only way to atone...

Cover art by AFL316.

Proofread by BloodLord and seeker9709.

Featured on March 20th, 2014 Thanks guys!
Thanks to Captain Bron3y for doing a dramatic reading.

"When I die, nopony will say ‘it’s a shame’ or ‘I’ll miss her’. They’ll say ‘good riddance’

But even so, at least they know who I am. What really scares me is that when I die, nopony will remember me at all. I’m just a nameless face. An unmarked grave. At my funeral, will anypony cry?"

When Trixie takes her own life, she sends her final letter to the closest thing she's ever had to a friend.

[Author's Note: I'm sorry the description is so darn terrible. They're harder to write than the story! Thanks to Princess-Glitzy for figuring out whom the cover art belongs to!]

19/3/14 - Oooh! I see myself on the popular stories list! It may not be very high up, but yay! EDIT: Eeek! It made third place! Oh my gosh! You guys! It made first place on the Popular Stories list. Not sure that will last long, but hooray! Yes, I know it has no real significance!

20/3/14 - Oh my goodness! I feel like I'm accepting an Oscar or something. It was such a wonderful surprise to log on and see people congratulating me on getting featured, even if I did miss its time in the spotlight. This is an honour I never thought I'd have the privilege to accept.

I wish to feel alive.

That is my only and greatest wish.

I wish to feel alive...

And die like that.

((if this had a theme song it would be this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_2tKFBZ2ki4))
NOW WITH AUDIO READING! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9qAkrplMQ_g.

Friendship is magic, but it doesn't always win the day.

Twilight Sparkle knows this...

Queen Chrysalis knows this as well.

Edits by Scarheart, MaddiePink5, Kildeez

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WE GOT A GOOD AUDIO READING! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=av4qrFmvkFs&t=87s