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Snow Quill

Just a bat, sometimes writes, sometimes draws


It’s been so long since that day. Since I’ve had to live a lie. Of course, living a lie is what changelings are all about aren’t we? But this lie is different. 

I’m different. I want to change but I can’t. 

And everyone will hate me if they find out. 


Written for the second Quills and Sofas Anonymous Contest!

Many thanks to Mushroom for proofreading the final draft for me and for everyone in Quills who commented!

Cover art by me! If you are a writer and would like cover art, send me a PM!

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Comments ( 7 )

Stargell needs to understand and accept that they are reformed. They might not have went "Rainbow Bug" like the rest of the hive, but they don't want to cause harm anymore. They wants to embrace FALK, so that is all the more sign they really need to understand that they are reformed. Hopefully they can come clean to Trixie and she can help them see that.

I'm using they/them because the characters gender is left ambiguous.

I purposely left their gender ambiguous, it’s one of the fun things with changelings lol.

And yes, I very much agree. At this point, Star is doing pretty much everything an ‘unreformed’ changeling wouldn’t do, but they aren’t able to recognize it. The main themes of the story that I was trying to portray was social anxiety and imposter syndrome, both things I very much struggle with personally (spoilered cause…spoilers XD)

Thanks so much for leaving a comment and I hope you enjoyed the story!

I did. I wouldn't mind a sequel with Stargell meeting Trixie, but if you don't think it's necessary, you don't have to write it.

First person... hmmm pretty good.

I thought in the contest that this was such a clever idea to discuss a changeling character. Having them having to hide as a reformed changeling was such a creative and clever idea. Doesn't hurt that the writing is absolutely belting too! You should be very proud of this one!

I like this idea. I'd also like a sequel to explore it more. Great job, Snow.

I love others.

I am kind to others and they are kind to me.

Don’t be suspicious, just be friendly.

Don’t let them see what you really are.

oof, what a set of thoughts to always try to keep in one’s head

They smiled happily in response and for a moment I felt bad I had forgotten their name, but it didn’t matter as long as they didn’t realize it.

oof, relatable situation

As it was, I had to convince myself that my bright colors weren’t slipping off like paint and that I was still, to everyone’s eyes, a normal changeling.

and this is such a cool idea! an “unreformed” Changeling trying to hold the form of a “reformed” one

Why wasn’t I able to transform like them? Why was I stuck instead in the image of one everyone now hated? Why-


You would think pretending to be reformed would be easy, but it was incredibly difficult keeping the new shapes and colors my brethren had transformed into.

yeah the colors are quite loud, aren’t they

“Howdy Stargell, you okay? Spike noticed you weren’t in class.”

great choice to have the Element of Honesty here

I blink and I’m standing at the door, Applejack staring at me with increasing worry through the crack. “Star, what’s going on? You started staring off into space and breathing funny.”

aww! that definitely did sound too harsh to be Applejack for real

“Star, I really think you should see the nurse. And Trixie.”

it will never not be a trip that this sentence makes sense at the School of Friendship now

It’s okay, today was… Unsuccessful, but that’s okay. Just breathe and remember FALK. Maybe talking to Guidance Counselor Trixie will help, if anyone knows what it’s like to not fit in and be judged for your past, it should be her.

now that would be a conversation to see! especially given Trixie’s very scared reaction to Changelings we saw in “To Where And Back Again”. and this is such a great concept for a character study of someone in a world where outside appearance is supposed to somehow magically reflect an internal state. the insecurity and guilt! great stuff

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