Suicide · 3:44pm February 1st
I think I'm done with life now. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, no matter what I believe in, no matter what I chose, someone is always unhappy with me.
I experienced the worst time while on FiMfiction between December and February. To the point where I actually don't want to live anymore. I'm trapped in a body I hate and what's worse is that there's people who I trusted who smeared my gender dysphoria as "delusional". Well good for fucking you, those who pushed me to this; you won. You have blood on your hands and you're getting one less trans person to deal with.
I can't keep living like this. I already failed. I failed finishing my stories. I failed trying to be someone society and religion kept telling me to be. Telling me "you can't be a trans woman, because that's against the Bible" and "you can't love men; that's abominable". People from a religious background have brought me down to the ground and finished me off. Is that what you wanted? Is that what you were looking for? Well, I hope so. Didn't you want one less trans girl to deal with? Well good for you, because you've won.
I'll be taking me life late this evening. I can't stand it anymore. If my life is sinful, then what is the point of living?
I hope you at least enjoyed reading me content. But I feel if this is what religious people want, then they can have it. Because I've been defeated and finished. I wish all of you a blessed life ahead of you. I hope you find happiness in whatever you do. If you're not hurting anyone, then I cannot judge. That is what I believe in.
God bless you all.
Please, dont! I am here for you
Don't do it. Think about your friends and family? How do you think they'll feel?
Don't do it!
Refuse to be defined by sadness! Reach for the light!
Please, I'm begging you, don't do it. Take some time to calm down. You haven't failed in anything, and even if you did, people have no fucking right to judge you for it. Your life is yours, not theirs.
Reach out to your friends, your allies, anyone you're comfortable to talk to. Even me, if you want. I'm @hawthornbunny on Discord.
Those who choose hatred over love have failed to comprehend the message their religion was meant to deliver. Whatever they serve, it is no God worth worshiping. I hope you rethink this in the time you've given yourself.
Please don't do this! You have so much to live for!
Don't give up!
And don't let anyone who against you win!
You have to stay strong!
Please don't!
Please don't >< you're amazing and wonderful beautiful for who YOU are, not the person other people will try to claim or force you to be, please stay, there's a lot of ponies to support you <3
I don't know if I'm too late to comment on the subject if you're even still alive to read this.
But I'll say this as someone who's also been struggling with suicidal thoughts for the past few years. I know it's easy to get sucked in to that temptation to give up. To lose hope that your life will get any better because the immediate future looks bleak.
But you can't give up like that. You can't let the people that hate you for who you are win. There is always a chance to turn your life around when you still have the time. If you go through what you're about to do, you lose that chance forever. You owe it to yourself. You owe it to the people who love you to still keep going even if the odds are against you.
I know the bigots reared their ugly head to call you delusional when you came out. But I also remember plenty of others coming in to support you, I was one of them if you still remember the DM I sent you awhile back.
I know life can be tiring. But you can't afford to give up when you still have that chance.
Please, don't do this, this isn't the way! This will just let them win, you have so much more to live for, and this isn't the way!
Don't do this, please! You do have people who care for you and will miss you.
Anyone who hates you because of "religion" is not worth it. They have chosen hate over love and they are not worth listening to.
Talk to someone. Please. Anyone. You matter, and don't let anyone make you think otherwise.
No, please. Like take some time to calm down, think about this. Call your local hotline, just call someone to talk to, anyone who you feel comfortable with.
Don't let them win. You are better then them whoever they may be. You are stronger then you may think and you are not alone talking with others can help also you can file a complaint with admin of the sight about what was said or that your info was illegally given out with false information about you. By law they have to act from what I know. Don't give in! Cause they will have won. I may not always know what or how to word thing's. But God Bless You .
I sent you a DM. I will try to talk with you the best I can.
I don't know you. I haven't been on FimFic much at all lately, I've never spoke to you, and I can't begin to think I know what you're going through.
But I also know you're not alone. Their is only so much that can be done online. This is a time professional help and consulting is needed. For matters of mind and well as faith. And their is NO shame in it. Nor is their any shame in any life that has never done harm to another. Those people around you? They got a lot to answer for, and by my belief they will have to. But you? You do not. Please, for what a stranger's words are worth. Don't let the people who would miss you, have met you, and could meet you one day be hurt.
Their ARE people who know what you're going through, don't let that insanity born of such pain tell you otherwise. That you are some kind of mistake. That you are the one at fault here and somehow, in some way, this makes it better. It's easy to consider taking a human life when you make that life seem inhuman, subhuman, lesser. Do this and you're buying into what those monsters are selling.
This won't shock, hurt, or get back at anyone. They will rationalize it as being right, they will have nobody around to tell them how wrong they are. They will take it as vindication the "enemy" took their family member away.
I am not an authority here. Wanna talk on matters of faith one day if that be a factor? Sure. Let's. Other people could help more than I? I'll do my best to help you reach them. Need a new life away from such terrible wretches that attacked you like this? I'll do all I can. Because that's what a decent person does, and it's what my faith compels me to do.
Just like that which tells me their is NOTHING wrong with you.
https://988lifeline.org/?utm_source=google&utm_medium=web&utm_campaign=onebox
PLEASE seek professional help. Suicide is NEVER going to help anything. Not you. Not the people around you. Not vindication once it is all done.
DON'T.
These people, they don't rule your life, you are so much bigger and stronger than they ever could dream of being.
You are not worthless. You are not wrong. You belong in this world as much as anyone else, and nobody is right to say otherwise.
Please. Don't do this. Please.
Muffin, don’t. Please, we’re all here for you!
We don’t want you to go, please!
This is why BradyBunch needs to be removed from this site, but these folks aren't doing their job. People, please mass report! 😤
Please don't do this, TMM!
Don't listen to what those hater fuckers say! You are better and an amazing writer! Why I bet you can continue making great stories! Just ignore the haters and you'll be golden man!!
Please don't take your life.
I only found out about ya but please, this isn't the solution.
Your life is precious
There are people that can help you.
Don't give in to those awful thoughts.
Trust me, suicide is not going to make things better for anyone. These assholes who hate and harass people for being LGBTQA+ are toxic, and they will never find the antidote that they don't deserve. Please, don't do this. I would recommend getting some help. I've been in a mental hospital before, and each time, I felt so much better after being discharged.
Please hang in there.
I am trans as well and I know how it hurts. It feels like my religion, parents and some friends suddenly turned on me, like now I don't matter to them. I hope every day for that to change, but in the meantime, I try to find some meaning and hang on. There are people out there who make life worth living, if you look for them, I promise. 
If you're reading this DO NOT DO IT. It's not worth giving up over this.
Don't do it! Do not let those societal constructs win.
You are loved and appreciated by the ones who accept you for who and what you are. Life is hard and oftentimes unfair, but that is exactly why you should show life, society and religion that you're boss!
That you're not beaten down by the words of the people who try to pull you down due to their own life being miserable.
Seek comfort in the knowledge that you are much better than they are simply because you are showing yourself to the world for who you really are. For being loved and appreciated by friends and family, first and foremost. Think and remember that there are many people who are or have been in your shoes; who are sharing your hardship.
And remember all the support that you have gained as well. I know that seeing the positive things in life sometimes seems impossible. And it takes time to appreciate one's own life again after there has been a lot of time spent on focusing on the negative aspects of it all. But it will get better again, eventually! Believe in yourself!
So, once more, please do not do this. For your own sake, and the sake of others. For your future to figure out more about yourself and work with that. To appreciate life and to form new, happy memories!
Others are saying it too, but please don't let some haters' talk of "sin" make you want to take your own life. Pretty much everybody have committed some kind of sin (especially pride, envy, or wrath) so odds are, they aren't much better when it comes to being sinless. Hell, many that are that strongly against gay people or transsexuality just personally don't like it and use God and the Bible as a cheap excuse to condone it.
Hey it’s never worth giving up on life, you will always have people supporting you here, people like you and it will always get better, no matter how hard it feels.
Also please I don’t know what country you are in but call this number
0800 543 354
It is my country’s suicide helpline
Just please don’t do it, there are people here that enjoy your work and don’t want to see you go, try your best to ignore the shit heads, you can do this.
Why waste your life by ending it?
Have you experienced the warmth of another body on your side?
No lover since you are singel? Bordello are a option.
Every traveld in foreign lands?
Have you ever a pet? I love the dog of my brother, that dog is sooo fluffy ♡!
How about doing some fun activities like paintball or airsoft?
Perhaps go car racing is more your style?
I enjoyed it a lot here in german racing halls.
Ever enjoyed two lover at once?
You be surprised how easy it is for a one night stand with two people.
Hey... Did you know there are parties that focus on things like games?
You be surprised how fun it can be to just chill with some people that share the same hobbies like you.
You say in this blog and i quote:
》I think I'm done with life now. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, no matter what I believe in, no matter what I chose, someone is always unhappy with me. 《
♡
What about the people that do like you?
Seriously, what about them?
What about the people you never met but would be delighted to meet you?
Ever traveled to Bronycon? Fuck... That was a shitload of fun!
Don't focus on the people that dislike you, why even care?
They - don't like - you.
Go for the people that like you, maybe even more than that.
Personally i swing both ways
Might as well have one night of soft or hard sex before the end
Germany is a great place to visit, give me a call ♡
👍
Who knows? It might become more than a one night stand
Don’t do it!
Keep on living and prove to those who say otherwise wrong!
Be the better PERSON!
So you're going to hurt those who do care about you just to end your own pain.
That's what I'm hearing every time I hear about someone considering suicide.
It's always the same story, people have pushed you down to the point where you can't go any lower.
Alternatively, you could ignore the nay-sayers, and see it the way I do.
Once you hit rock bottom.
The only way to go is up.
Don’t let some assholes drive you to taking your own life. There is plenty worth living for! As people have said, there’s also been so many people that support you and stand by you.
Please Dont
Many often look at the negative and forget the positive.
Those fools shall remain unhappy do not join them in sorrow and look for others in simular situations,
They can assist you in these dark time.
this is a test if you succeed the pain will leave, if you fail it shall be the last thing you know.
Believe me, there were so MANY times I considered doing the same thing… but I realized that if I did, I wouldn’t be able to experience what the future had to offer, nor what awaited me at the end of my life. To take your life early, you’ll deny yourself an opportunity to live it at its most fullest. And if you think that nobody will miss you, think again. PLENTY of your loved ones like family, friends, and even genuine fans will be more hurt than relieved that you would die and at such a young age. It will affect them in the worst ways possible.
Love and compassion can do more than justice. Taking pity on and forgiving others can undo a world of hurt.
Please don't go through with this. For one thing, its self-murder. For another, there are people who do care about you; do you want them to go through the same pain you're feeling?
Most of all, there is a God who has died for you and for your sin, and for that of all people. If we turn to Him, we will be rescued from any evil, including depression and (self) torment.
It's a spiritual war, not one with rifles, cannons, and standards. The latter might be easier (in a way) to fight, but that's not the battleground the Enemy has chosen. The devil wants you to finish yourself. Don't give into him; refuse to do it.
I've been tempted to commit suicide myself during the previous several months (admittedly due to boredom/cabin fever rather than abuse). Say no to the urge to do it, keep saying no, keep holding on until the clouds part and the sun shines again, and it will. It has for me.
May God grant you triumph over all evils that come against you. God bless and please stay safe. May Christ light your way!
Please. Muffin. If you're still here and seeing this. Please. Don't do it.
I know you probably don't know who I am or remember me if we've interacted but please. If you are reading this.
Don't kill yourself.
You are worth so much more. You shine brighter than any darkness can cast around you.
Some people suck absolute ass. Misinterpreting their religion either out of ignorance or bigotry.
But there's so much more good to this world. So much that absolutely outweighs the bad. So much good exists in this world.
I've struggled with my own battle and thoughts. And let me tell you I know how hard it can be to have the strength to keep going.
Just please. Please don't do it. From one struggling person to another. Life is worth living, I promise you
Don't do it! You have so much to live for!
Muffin, please for the love of Christ almighty, do not go through with this!
There are people here who care about you more than you realize, and if you take your life over what some jackasses say about you, then you're just letting them win.
We all care about you, and we want to make sure that you know that.
So please, stay strong, and stay alive.
NO! You can’t do this!
You still have so much to live for, even if you can’t see it right now. Please don't throw your life away like this. You're better than that, and everyone else here thinks so too.
Heya, long time no see... but what's more important than re-meeting is seeing you still live. There's already dozens of people coming in here, showing that people here care for you and love you, who still trust you not just for the stories but who you are and who you can be for as long as you live... why should you care for those who kept harassing you? Why prioritize them and take their word over this army of friends who, at the very least, desire your presence, look forward to your next story, and just enjoying your company and talk? More than just your life, letting the enemy win means validating their methods of bullying as a way to killing trans people one by one on this site and beyond... but with you, that weapon can be rendered null now.
It'll sting hard if you go through with this. There's all of us and more rooting for you to call a prevention hotline, to talk to anyone here... to take a step back, re-assess, and to get to the next day. And then the next and the next, growing stronger and bouncing back...
I honestly don't know what else I can do, Muffin. Well, other than praying that Jesus will guide you in His love, grave, and mercy away from the darkness of death.
PLEASE DON'T!!! WE'RE HERE FOR YOU!!!
Please don't do it! I'm so sorry for all you're going through, but there is still so much good for you to live for. You deserve to live and as who you are. You are not delusional. You are not sinful. I'm Catholic and I say there is nothing wrong with being trans or liking someone of the same gender. I hate that people take teachings of love and acceptance and use them toward hate. You are worth more than any of them and you are beautiful the way you are. I accept you.
Don't do it! There is more to life than you see and think!
I have no idea who you are, but I read the post, and...
Fuck, don't kill yourself because some religious nuts don't like your life choices.
I have nothing against trans or gay people, nor do I have anything against religious people, but you can't let the ones who are religious to THAT extreme let you down.
I'm sure there are still lots of things you could do with your life.
Stay positive!
Please don’t give up! Don’t take your life away, I don’t know you or what pain you’re going through right now but suicide is not the answer and many people will agree with me on that. Please rethink your decision before you a make a choice you’ll regret their are people on here that care about you and accept you for who you are, that is what friendship is here to look after each and be there for them in their darkest hour. I will pray for you.
Despite what a lot of religious people say they’re wrong about one thing: no matter what or who you are God loves you just the way you are. Those people should accept you regardless of gender and be nice to you instead of speaking death they’re not following gods words of “love your neighbor as you love yourself” if they’re talking bad at you.
Don’t do it!! It’s not worth taking your life! You’ll just hurt the others around you!
I don't know if you'll see this message and I hope you do. Let me start by honestly stating that I may not understand everything you have experienced nor know you, IRL. But for what a fellow pony-words fan's words are worth, DON'T LET THE APPLE-HOLES WIN. I can't remember who said it but I remember reading somewhere that the best revenge against the haters is to succeed.
People like BradyBunch and other such people are fear-based who are perpetually terrified of what they don't understand and what they don't control. Even if you and every other Gay, Trans, Bi, Poly, Disabled, Etc person magically vanished one day, those fear-based people would STILL find something to hate. They will NEVER be satisfied or content.
As of right now, dozens of people have posted messages of love and support on your post. We are also mass reporting BradyBunch and others of that ilk.
With many
Please seek the help you need and get that sweet revenge against these people by living your best life.
Thereʼs not much I can say that hadnʼt already been said, but please. Donʼt go through with it. Please, dear. Donʼt.
Just because a couple of self-righteous jackasses tell you God doesn't like you doesn't make it true.
NO! DON'T DO IT! PLEASE DO NOT DO IT!!! :( :( :(