I Can Confirm I Am Ok · 1:58pm February 4th
I'm honestly surprised I'm still here, but I am. I realised what I'd be leaving behind and it would have been the worst mistake imaginable. Granted, I'm still not 100%, but I'm now in the care of my family for the duration of the weekend and this coming week, where I will be monitored at all times. I am just grateful that at least I am still here. My parents spoke with me this morning after hearing what was going through my head and reminded me that they loved me dearly no matter what and that I was their daughter who they were very proud of. I left my apartment in the city to head to my parents and we spent some time together after I told them what I was going to do.
I can only deeply apologise for the fear I caused when I posted my recent blog. But I was deadly serious and that was meant to be the last thing I would share before I "did it". I was heading to the location where I would end my life when my phone pinged and it wasn't just any message that I was expecting.
It was from a very good and close friend. Could I say "girlfriend"? We have a close bond together and we met in October 2022 when I was visiting the US. I fell in love with this beautiful, smart, funny and kind girl. She's in my heart forever, especially after she sent that message that stopped me. She is the kindest and most beautiful person you could ever meet. I owe her a lot for that. If she's reading this, then you are my angel, and thank you.
I know that it was the worst mistake imaginable, but I was generally serious and my mind was set. I was going to go ahead with what I posted. If it wasn't for my friend, I wouldn't be here. I knew that I needed to seek the help I required.
My wish is that I ask everyone who has been affected by this to be respectful and kind to one another. That is what I believe the world should be. As for those who led me down this serious path... at this moment, I have no words to say. It'll take a lot of healing, and it won't be for the short term. You nearly made me take my own life and to say that I am deeply hurt and disappointed in what you led me to is a complete understatement. But I don't want revenge or any of that crap. I want to be the better woman.
I do believe today is the last day at Harmony Con and a lot of my friends are out there now enjoying themselves. I love you all and I hope you had an amazing time. Thank you all for the support. I've been reading all your messages, which made me realise even more what hole I would have left in this world. So thank you.
May God be with you all.
Anastasia.
glad to hear you're fine (hug)
Good to hear you're doing better 🤗
I'm so glad you are doing well.
its not much from someone you dont know but i am glad you are still here with us.
It's wonderful to hear from you again and I'm so happy you're getting support from your family.
Please take care and take things at your own pace.
It's great to see you still be here with us Muffin!
Just remember to keep your chin up and know everything will be alright
*exhales*
I have been holding my breath for nearly three days.
Glad to hear you're okay! I wish you the best of luck with healing.
Thank you for being alive! No matter what the world may lack, there is always love
I am relieved to hear that you're starting to feel better. Pay no attention to those who caused this situation to begin. They do not deserve your time of day, thoughts, or energy.
Stay strong, Muffin
I’m so happy to see you’re doing alright and that you’re still with us!
Please, take all the time you need to rest and take care of yourself. Everyone here is rooting for you and will always support you no matter what.
I'm so glad to hear you're doing better. We're all here for you. Stay safe!
BTW, thats a really beautiful name
No words needs be wasted on fools. Your life is the priority here and the best way to prove them wrong is to live it. God bless you for doing so :)
*sighs in relief*
I'm happy to hear you're okay. And I'm glad your girlfriend was there for you when you needed it. And I'm glad your parents have also made sure you're okay.
Your happiness is important to all of us, and we're happy you're still here. Just know we are all here for you whenever you need us, Ana. We love you.
See you later! And Hopefully you'll become better day by day! Each day is a new day for sunshine and rainbows for you to see in the sky of the world and in the smile of your friends!
It’s great knowing that you’re alright!
Glad to hear from you and wonderful that your family is supporting you.
It's a new dawn after a storm; sail into it with everything you're worth. And you survived the night so that's worth a lot.
Kind of how I saw it after my own .. brush a long time ago.
I'm glad you're still with us. Reach out, talk, know you're not alone; you are cared for as a part of this community and as a person and you are stronger than the circumstances that have brought you were you are. <3 You've got this.
You're recovering, you're doing better than a few days ago, and that's already a win in anyone's book. Keep staying safe, and may you have a good time at the convention!
"HUGS"
I'm so glad that you're doing alright. Never forget that you have family and friends that are here for you, no matter what
This makes me so happy beyond any words that can properly describe it. I wish you the best in your journey of healing
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It's great to hear that you're okay. There's a community here that will support you if you ever feel like things are getting too hard. Never feel like you can't reach out.
Always remember, if you're ever feeling down, or need a shoulder to lean on or an ear to hear, we your friends and your family will always have your back and will help you no matter what.
We’re all so happy to know that you’re okay. Really. It means a lot that you’re still with us. All I can say is that although it may take time to fully recover, the journey is worth it and things do get better. Keep fighting and don’t give up.
I’m happy that you are alright
I'm so glad you're okay, and hope you get better every day!
It’s great to hear from you, Muffin! Glad you’re alright!
I’m glad your okay, if you need to talk or vent, don’t hesitate to PM me.
Flip a metaphorical Feather at those who gave you grief in the first place. They don't deserve your energy or attention.
Stay strong and safe, I may not be one of your close friends but I was sorely worried when your blog popped up in my feed. Sending what good vibes I can offer
I am glad to hear that you're fine and that you're doing better.
Glad you're okay! Take all the time you need to feel better!
I can't believe the people I followed would do something to you. They seriously need to be exposed for what they did to you.
It's good to hear you're doing better. :)
I was going to post this on your previous blog post, but then I saw this blog. I'm relieved to hear that you will be with others and are doing better.
I'm sending a DM with a few things in it. I was hoping on having it ready sooner however, it took way longer than I anticipated to get ready.
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I second that heavily
Just learned about what happened and am only sort of caught up.
Stay strong
I am glad your okay and I sure things will get better.
Thank goodness you're okay. That's all that matters. If you need anything, please don't hesitate to ask.
Thank goodness you're okay. We're here to lend an ear if you need to air your grievances.
I'm really glad you're okay. You're doing a great thing standing your ground.
So glad that you stop what you were going to do, and receive the help you need.
Glad your ok Muffin, god bless you and your close friend *hugs hugs hugs*, there is song i think you'll like called 'Better Than Us', its catchy
I’m really happy to hear that your ok, I wish you good luck on the long road of recovery
Thank goodness your safe. I'll pray for your recovery. Please know you're not alone and have friends who care about you. I hope you get better. *hugs*
Glad to know you're doing OK, Ana.
I’m glad you’re OK, I currently have a lot of hate on my back because people don’t believe I’m actually disabled.
Also, because of the stories I post I get a whole lot of hate about it, so I know what you’re going through, with the hate at least I’ve never even considered to take my own life and I’m not going to because I know I’m better than the haters are, most of those people who hated on you, are probably insecure man children who live in their mothers basement.
Glad you’re still here. All of us are. I’ll be following you so I can make sure you’re still okay in the days ahead. If you ever feel like getting a semicolon tattoo, be my guest! It’ll show that you fought your inner demons and came out on top! Here’s a song from the band that I mentioned in your last post. I hope it’ll help you recover a little faster knowing there are bands out there spreading the word about mental health.
Stay safe and keep moving forward my friend. Don’t let anyone tell you what can’t do or be. Your life is precious and I know that Life is indeed hard, but never forget that there are people who love you dearly.
I’m glad you are okay, and doing well. Take care of yourself and keep going. Don’t EVER let people full of hate get to you because they will win if you let them. Don’t give them that satisfaction and tell them to fuck off.
Hope you are doing well