It is possible that by the end of this week I will no longer have a job (or at least have a better idea if I will be keeping it or not). Despite my hard efforts, according to my supervisor I am not meeting the minimum standard quota with my work and that I have this next week to turn it around.

The problem is, that I've actually been doing my best and striving to improve, yet despite that my work hasn't been improving.

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To all those who read this, I owe you an apology. Originally I thought I was just going to lose a week trying to catch up with things, however, more shit popped up.

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For being so absent.

I've been dealing with inner demons as of late.

I'm not sure I've shared this openly or not. But I suffer from Bipolar Manic Depression, I have most of my life.

It's this black tar in my life which in many ways, has stunted my growth as a person.

I'm not as open with others as I wish I could be, I'm very introverted to a limit , I just seem to sink into nothingness.

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So, if you have been following me, you'll know we had some plumbing issues at the house, and while I wish I had better news, this is the news I got. It's kind of mostly suck, but with slight good news, and an eventual place where things will be good for a long time.

Our pipe broke in the basement, and while they thought they could fix that altogether, it turnt out to be worse then they thought.

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Hello, all of you.

For those who have been following me for any length of time, you've come to know that I have my fair share of issues. The biggest issue has been my health, and I've been relatively open about most of those problems. The second largest issue I've rarely discussed has been my occupation and dealing with the compensation due to my ongoing condition.

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Maria and Emily share a strong sisterly bond. Maria rescues Emily from an animal attack at the beginning of the series, and they fight together with Maria's brother Brandon against a serial killer on Emily's ninth birthday, which happens to fall on Halloween. It's heavily implied Emily suffers from PTSD as a result, but her natural childhood ability to bounce back quickly helps stave it off. This picture is part of the third short story leading up to a longer fourth one. The third takes place a

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I have a tendency to depart when I've overstayed my welcome. I do this in all sorts of places: real life, webcomic forums, social media connections, etc. This is partly because I feel like I'm either unwelcome, or might be welcome when I shouldn't be.

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Sometimes I find myself so provoked to type out my thoughts, it becomes a compulsion. I'm not saying that with any kind of jest--I really do enter these weird "binge and purge" cycles (as my therapist calls it) to indulge in projects, large or small. It usually starts out innocent. A kind of a, "Hey, this would be fun to do!" kind of thing. Then the pressure steadily builds, and I suffer thought interference to an extreme level. I'll be doing something only to stop and start doing that thing

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Right... so it turns out, I have a problem; my grammar, has got incredibly worse after not writing for ages, I can't seem to word things quite easily, which has slowed me down, and I don't take any criticism well (because I take things to heart too much). I know there are groups out there, but would anyone who is reading this be able to look over my everything in my story (keeping in mind my soft heart) and just push me in the right direction with my grammar and any other mistakes I have made.

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is kind of the range of thoughts I'm having atm. roller coaster day. I think I just gotta channel some inner-Japanese spunk and remember to:

all over the place chatter below (including personal stuff, game talk, and a small steaming pile of political poo)

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Angst. And music. But also angst.

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This is not a happy post. It's not fun for me to write. And I'm well aware that this will probably not be read, which is fine.

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Three days off every week. Sleep through the first day. The next two days I wake in six hour segments before the tiredness kicks in and I go sleep for another eight hours, spend another six hours awake until my energy wears down again, exhausted by nothing, back to bed. The last night/day/morning, whatever I call it, stay awake too long, desperate to accomplish something on my extended weekend. Jujitsu begins two hours before my overnight shift at Good Burger. I miss it, as usual.

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Like the title said, today's my 25th birthday. An entire quarter of century I've been on this world... and what do I have to show for it?

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I honestly don't remember if I've talked about this before, in a previous blog, but just in case I haven't, I felt that I ought to disclose the fact that I am still struggling with a feeling of inadequacy when it comes to writing.

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Can anybody talk to me? I hit the wall Friday night... I don't care if I'm under age, my boyfriend is lost in the cold because he can't grow up nor think reasonably and I need to drown myself in alcohol.... I'll drink a nasty bottle of beer!! I DON'T CARE!!! Just please, can someone make this fear and depression go the hell away!? I'm serious!! ... Help...

Hello, everyone!

For an update on things going on in my life, click below!

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I tried to come up with some clever rhyme on the spot, but I really am pressed for time. White rabbit is fucking with me today.

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I've had to rewrite the chapter I am writing for the third, or maybe fourth time. The tone changed horribly, and I have shocked at it and myself. My story has never had violence before, and twice I have written the chapter with brutal content. Now to have it in stories is fine, but here it would be introducing Godzilla to the Teletubbies (except that sounds like a GREAT idea). Everyone watching would be like "where did That come from?"

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IN WHICH I WATCH THINGS GOOD & BAD
Okay, so I've been writing again and decided to take a break and blog. One thing I wanted to mention above the fold is that I double-dipped on Toradora! last week, finally buying its Blurays. Why? English dub. And it's pretty damn good. Just goes to show how far a good script can take you. More blahblah below!

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