When Dash went to the Cutie Mark Crusader clubhouse to see if anypony was around she found something she wasn't expecting at all. It was a note from Scootaloo, detailing some of her past and her inner anguish. Scootaloo had been holding back far more pain than anypony knew and one way or another, she was going to end it at Ghastly Gorge.
My first attempt at a sadfic, inspired by my own feelings of depression and worthlessness. I decided to write my feelings out instead of wallowing in self pity. It was also written at 2AM so forgive any mistakes. I did proof read it but you can never be too careful. Decided to rate it teen for the suicidal subject matter.
Sequel can be found here!
Chapters (2)
It's got potential. Keep it up!
Heh, reading this while listening to "Song of the Night" by MandoPony made me want to shed a tear, mood was appropriate if nothing else...
Why is that Scootaloo always kills herself?
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Shes very, very depressed. You're right though that she is the one who always gets this kind of treatment. It fits her though given that she doesn't really have anyone besides the CMC there for her. If you take those away, then she has nothing.
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Thank you very much guys
2451532 I suppose.
I'm quite a fan of the scootaglect and scootabuse stories, involving her as a homeless, or living in the CMC club house, or some other tragic event leaving her either, family less or with a set of horrible parents that, well, show her 'ruff luff', and this story goes same, I'm a fan of it. Keep up the work on it, go scootabuse!
(in a good way)
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I'm actually not a big fan of Scootabuse. I used to be but then it really got to me and I started feeling really bad for her. But I think at this point it's quite clear that she probably is a poor, dejected, and crippled orphan. Poor thing
2451810 Doesn't stop me from liking stuff
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It's just one way the show changed my perspective on a lot of things really. The old me would have loved Scootabuse. I did actually. Now I'm all for happy endings and sappy fluff. It's hard to write that when depressed though 
Each to their own
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THERE IS ONLY ONE THING WRONG. YOU CAN'T BREAK A PINKIE PROMISE. NO ONE BREAKS A PINKIE PROMISE.
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She's not going to break the Pinkie Promise. Nopony breaks a Pinkie Promise
Except Applejack but there were extenuating circumstances. She was technically correct that she didn't break the promise.
Man I get this, I mean I think we've all been there, where we think we're no good enough or we have to stay strong and no one cares and there's no point. I understand this in my own personal sense and, well, anyone who has been in this kind of situation will know that it's hard to come back from even if it's "all over" it doesn't feel like that. Anyway, I hope you're able to finish this as I'm quite curious as to what will happen to Scootaloo.
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I'll put it up tomorrow. Writing this fic actually did help me get out all of my emotions and help me recover a little bit, so I'm pleased to say I'm doing better personally. Thanks for reading and I hope you'll enjoy the second part. I'm already contemplating writing an alternate ending, but if I do it will remain a definite alternate ending, and I'll post the *real* ending first.
Fun fact: The story took so long to be approved (16 hours) that I actually finished writing the second half while I was waiting
2452768 Huh that is a fun fact. Well anyway, in that case, I look forward to reading and it's good that writing has helped you recover from whatever has happened to you, all the best man.
dude...
/hate
it when i read a sad story that i can relate to, i have spent many a night lying awake wondering, "why the hell am i even here, no one seems to give a crap about me." 
these bring back sad memories, but it comforts me in knowing that other people know what I've been through and can relate with me, i love the brony/pegasister fandom for that exact reason too.
, or the series as a whole. i hope everyone who reads this gets something out of it, and, smile at a stranger, you just may make their day.
's to everyone and don't let ANYONE make you think you are worthless.
the feels right now.
i love
all of us are connected in ways beyond our imaginations, but in this group we are all connected by something we love, whether it be for the animation, one particular character
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That was one of the points of all of this, and definitely the point of the second half (which I'm about to submit 
) Thank you very much for that.
That may be the greatest comment I have ever gotten.
Great story! Well written and nice emotion
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Thank you very much
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s to you and stay strong
thanks, now THAT is the nicest reply to a comment i have ever gotten
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I suppose one of the greatest things about this fandom is that somepony will always be there if I need it, and much like Scootaloo, I don't need to be alone anymore.
I'll try
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well, as long as the fandom exists, and even after that, there really always will be somepony there. I have found that when I'm feeling depressed, if i just go and talk to my cat, i feel better. Animals have that effect, they don't care what you look like or what you like, they will still love you and listen, no matter what is going on.
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, had an idea, it would be cool if you added a chapter involving Dash teaching Scoots to fly. even if you don't my compliments on writing a great story.
oh
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Although my cat is pretty awesome for that. It kinda makes up for the way she sleeps on me and keeps me in bed because I'm so nice I hate moving and knocking her off 
Don't get me started on cats or we'll be here forever....FOREVER
I might add that chapter, or maybe even a sequel where everypony in the note learns how much she was hurting. I like how the first fic I was going to ever write has been on the back burner so long that I've written three other fics and am now contemplating a sequel 
And I'm the same with other people
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my cat and could talk about her endlessly!
totally have to agree on not talking about cats or we'll be here forever thing, i love
*upvotes for the happy ending*
Also, this reminds me of a quote from my favourite show.
"Never forget,
Someone, somewhere, is fighting for you.
And as long as she is, you are never alone."
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But I don't see the other one much because he sleeps all day in my dads room. 
I have two
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Even the guy who brought up endless Scootabuse didn't downvote it.
People are upvoting for the happy ending? I am incredibly surprised this story not only has forty upvotes now but still not a single downvote
There is absolutely nothing wrong with a happy ending and never let anyone tell you otherwise. Also I think you did a good job with capturing what it truly feels like to be hopeless. Scoots is at that point where you have gotten so bad you deliberately blind your self to the positives. She has two amazing friends (and depending on if this comes after sleepless in ponyville) a pretty much adoptive big sister, and yet in her depression and self loathing shes overlooked or downright twisted them into negatives, this is an all too common thing for people suffering from depression. So in short good work!
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I've been in that place myself so I know how it feels and I'm glad I got everything across how I wanted to 
Thank you
Amazing
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OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSH *FANGASM*
Seriously I take that as pretty high praise
Thanks for reading and I'm glad you enjoyed it 
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That was pretty sweet, most of the stories of Scootaloo I read end up with her dead, or still an orphan, or with what ever set of parents she has, but this one implements the happiness of a family, Rainbow Dash, to her life. But I've read alot of Scootaloo stories, so it wasn't a first, but it's still a good story,
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I try to write stories that I've not read before, so it's not something I've come across, but I know there's plenty of it. I did recently read a story where Scoots died myself, and I don't think I could do that
Thank you. If I can please someone who's read a lot of similar stories it's definitely a plus for me
Well I got around to reading this now, and I gotta say, I loved it. There's nothing wrong with a happy ending, I enjoy grimdarks and such however, a nice hopeful story is always good to read especially when the message is as good as the one you gave. Also, you're right about letting people in because, whenever you feel upset you see people pushing others away and just becoming sadder and sadder and eventually it'll either end with a smile or frown and I for one (as I'm sure everyone else here can agree with) hope for the first. We've all been there where it feels where we're nothing but as you said we just need to remember that no matter what, we are something amazing. Once more, great story.
"Sometimes it's what is NOT said that matters."
Everyone assumes, and no one asks. I hope you can make it through the hard time and find someone to confide in. Or at least find a outlet like you did here. Good luck to you.
I much perfer happy endings to endings with somepony dead or dying.
Thank you for writing this.
Loved this!
I cant feel sorry for her because she's being quite a, for lack of better terms, collosal bitch. But it was well written for a 2am brainstorm coping story so i can dig that, just not hitting home with me.
I cant feel sorry for her because she's being quite a, for lack of better terms, collosal bitch. But it was well written for a 2am brainstorm coping story so i can dig that, just not hitting home with me.
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Thank you very much and I'm glad that message got across
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I'm doing better thank you but I'm still not fully out of it. I'm working on something major that has to be just right and it seems I can't get it right. Thank you for reading it. Writers are nothing without readers.
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Thanks
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Well I can't please everypony all of the time. I've been in the state she's in myself and it can lead to anger like that. She became so lost and blind in her own reality that she couldn't see things for how they really were. Eventually the walls crumbled and she started to see what was really happening. She was a bitch but she thought it was justified
2459952 Its fine. Poor little scoots, she is my favorite crusader, and she needs more love.
Why would there be a down vote on an unhappy ending?
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lol
that's EXACTLY what my cat is doing right now, sleeping in her cat bed, which is on my bed.
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this has nothing to do with your comment but i LOVE you user pic!
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I'll admit when I first came across Scootabuse I did like some of it, but then I did start to think "Why would you do that? She's so cute and sweet." Scootalove is best love.
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I could just see it happening. People will downvote if the story doesn't go how they think it should, and they'll see it as a bad story.
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One of my cats has a cat bed but it's outside. She used to sleep outside a lot so when the weather got cold we got her a bed. Now she stays indoors
But if that's the case, then why do one at all when you already established the ending? 2461536
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Hmm? Why would they read when I've already established the ending you mean? There was always the chance that Dash wouldn't make it in time.
True. I suppose to people like me who believe in the multi-verse, you can't have a happy ending all the time. 2462347