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My Final Friendship Report - HoneyQuill



Princess Twilight Sparkle writes her Mentor a letter a thousand years after her Coronation.

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My Final Friendship Report

Dear Princess Celestia,

My, it has been a long time since I’ve written you a letter, hasn’t it? Living together with you at the Castle means I never really needed to write to you, and besides, becoming a Princess was seen by many as a graduation from my Friendship studies, so I had nothing more to tell you.

But please don’t think that the lack of Friendship reports for the past years means that I’ve learned nothing. I’ve learned more than I ever thought I would. So here it is Princess. My final Friendship report.

When you first sent me to Ponyville, well, quite honestly I thought you were being ridiculous. At the time I’d never have said it, but that’s what I thought. I couldn’t understand it. My whole life had been plenty fulfilled before I had friends. My studies in Magic and the small amount of Companionship I received from the likes of Shining Armour, Cadence and of course Spike had kept me happy, and I didn’t need any more friends. In fact, I fully intended to check the preparations and then leave. Of course, now I know that you needed me to meet everypony in turn and grow a bond with them.
You were right. I needed them. Not just for the practical reasons, like combining to harness the Elements, but for me. I could have led my normal, mortal life as the star magic student of the Sun Princess. But thanks to them, I’m still alive over a thousand years after that day.

A thousand years, Huh? Feels like days. Immortality makes time feel like nothing. I still remember them all as being young and vibrant, rather than old and decrepit as they were towards the end. Does immortality also mean I can’t forget? I remember their goodbyes far too well.

First to go was Applejack. Severe injuries had stopped her from bucking, and that pretty much broke her. A passionate workhorse like her couldn’t survive just doing nothing. We were all sad when that happened – but even that taught me something. Her Element outlived her. Even as we gathered around to say farewell she was brutally honest, telling us that she didn’t know what was beyond her life, and she didn’t know if she’d ever see us again. She wouldn’t lie for the sake of settling our hearts will falsities.

Next was Pinkie Pie. Diabetes took her. Doctors told her to stop with the sweets, but she just wouldn’t. She carried on baking and tasting and throwing parties right up until the end. That taught me something, too. We didn’t have much chance to say goodbye to Pinkie, but even as the Ambulance took her away she was grinning from ear to ear. Laughter and cheer outlived the pony it embodied.

Fluttershy’s death was a bit more tragic. I suppose we should have predicted an accident like that. She’d always been frail, but living alone out of town with large animals? She just couldn’t keep up any more. The day she fell down the stairs shocked those of us who remained, and though we had no chance to tell her goodbye we later found out from Rainbow, who found her, that she was still comforting her animals right up to the end. Kindness prevailed.

I was getting scared at that point. Three of my friends were gone. I had known for a long time that I would outlive them, but why so soon? Time goes so quickly when you live forever – I wasn’t ready for goodbyes. Frightened, I begged for Rarity and Rainbow Dash to be moved to the castle, where they could be safe and looked after. It was several years after that we lost Rarity.

She’d become quite social in her life in Canterlot, but the parties had tired her out. She was too old to go to the races and spend hours on end sewing. Yet still she kept pushing it, spending days on end locked away in her Canterlot Boutique. When we found her it was too late, but we found two designs for the most regal dresses I’ve ever seen, and their half-finished forms. The scrawled note on the designs told us all we needed to know. Rarity had been making us gifts when she died. I don’t think I need to tell you what that says about her Generosity.

So that was it. I was left with one friend left, just Rainbow. I became, admittedly, protective, and spent every spare moment by her side. Even as she aged, far beyond the years of a normal pony, I was too scared for farewells. Alicorns don’t need sleep, as you well know, and I spent all my time by her bed, pleading silently. It took weeks of being bedridden for her to fade. Occasionally she would liven up for an hour or so, before collapsing again. My heart ached. I told her I didn’t want her to die. I cried. I begged her. And each time she smiled at me and promised she’d try. For your sake, Twilight, she told me. For your sake I’ll keep living. It worked for a while.
But even the Element of Loyalty couldn’t keep that promise.

You might be wondering what I learned from my friend’s deaths, Princess. I can imagine the conclusions that you came to.

Rarity’s Generosity, Rainbow’s Loyalty, Fluttershy’s Kindness, Pinkie’s laughter and Applejack’s Honesty. They all outlived them. I figure you read this and thought the same. The spirits of those ponies have outlived the bodies they inhabit. They’re not gone. They still live. I know that.

So why, Princess? Why don’t I feel any better?

Instead, I cry. It’s been a thousand years, but I still hurt. What’s more, I’m angry. Why didn’t Applejack fill my head with lies about heaven and pearly gates, so I could think she was going on? Why couldn’t Pinkie be solemn and soft at that most painful of times? Fluttershy’s final efforts should have been spent getting help, and maybe she’d not have died! Rarity’s final act of generosity was wasted! And even Rainbow’s determination and fierce loyalty couldn’t delay the inevitable.

And it’s not just them, either. I’ve seen generations of ponies born and die. I’ve seen them fight through life just to have it stolen away from them.

So that’s my lesson, Princess. That’s what I’ve learned.
If I love somepony I can’t get close to them. They’ll only die and give me a thousand years of agony. Eventually Equestria will end, and then there’ll be nopony. Yes, you’ll be there, but after a thousand years I barely know you anymore.
At first I loved being a Princess. I loved the responsibility, the joy, the overwhelming love I felt from everypony. Now, though, I wish you’d given me a chance to think about it.

I wish you’d told me the truth about this pain.
Because trust me, if I had known what this life would do to my heart I wouldn’t have taken it. I’d have said no, and chosen death’s sweet embrace. But nowadays, I don’t have that choice. I can’t die. I’m stuck, alone and empty forever.
The other day you came to me, Princess, for the first time in years, and you asked me for a Friendship Report.

Over the past thousand years I’ve learned a very important lesson about Friendship. It hurts. It can make you love more than you’ve ever loved before, and hate everything in the world. Friends will make you into something you’ve never thought possible – but if they leave, if you’re parted, then Friends can and will break you. Ultimately, it’s okay if you think it’s worth it.

I don’t think it was.

Yours,
Princess Twilight Sparkle.

Comments ( 47 )

What's this? A Twilight Alicorn story that talks about her being immortal and everybody dying that ISN'T JUST WHINY BITCHING BUT ACTUAL EMOTION AND HEART?!

YOU SIR CAN HAVE ALL MY FEELS

Also, couldn't she just talk to Luna or Cadence about it or something. This would be ever better if it where the start of a story where she learns to treasure the moments she has with loved ones and therefore, be able to cope with them all passing on.

But that's just me.

Great story my friend. For once I've found a Twilight Alicorn story I WANT to get featured.

Okay, I do have one tiny nitpick actually.

From the way the report is written, it seems that Applejack was an atheist.

Maybe it's just me, but I always figured that if they have a religion in Equestria (which they probably do) Applejack would probably be a strong devoted member. Her being so bent on tradition and all.

If anything her saying that she doesn't know if she'll meet them in any form of afterlife would be from her worrying that she was maybe not good enough or something.

But that's just me. Still a damn good story.

All of my feels. Their aching.

Idk. This is a decent story, but it still feels a little whiny. Twilight Sparkle had all of those wonderful adventures and enjoyed every moment with her friends until the very end and all she does afterwards is mope about it. I don't have those feels. I'm kinda just like :trixieshiftleft: you ungrateful bastard.

Seriously?, this is sort of a running thing and I don't like it. Written well but in all seriousness can we get some sort of ACTUAL lesson here?

Shouldn't the point be that Twilight would value her friendships even after all this?

As the old saying goes, "Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." Yet this fic came off as "Better I never made friends because then you can't be hurt."

This is why this needs a Tragedy tag and not a sad tag, with main character death and likely no happy to the ending Tragedy fits this fic far more than sad.

Heck I have a dark sad fic, and even that has it's fun and happy times and won't end it the main character dying or even be depressed unless it is needed to infer that they will grow beyond it and become a better pony because of it.

What little praise I have is in how the other five went and her reaction to it, but if this really is a final letter it should have been made in anger or Twilight should have realized how this experience helps her in the long run.

I don't really understand Twilight in this story to be fair.

I lost my grandpa who was like a second dad to me (Lived in the same house since I was 1) a year or so ago. And yes, it hurts like mad... For about a month. Mourning sucks, but it isn't like it continues forever, you move on with your life in the end and fill the vacuum with other things.

It makes it sound like Twilight has a severe problem with letting go and living in the past. Accentuating the negative if you will.

>> Agreed. I really don't see much change from the regular rabble of immortality fics.

Where's the lesson? meh, this story is about twilight being emo.
\Value your friendships. They are and were important.

oh god by the time i got to rainbow i was in tears good job dude not to many stories make me cry

2151572 well to be fair to this guy i know what it's like having the best of friends dying in your arms I was at the hospital some time in December.My friend had cancer he was only 14 and I was asked by phone to come to the hospital we shared his final moment's together even now I cry from the lost of my best friend even though when he was on his final moment's he told me to be strong for him I tried to keep that promise but everytime I did my emotions got the better of me .so be put in Twilight shoes living forever kids think it would be fun but its not.and if you were with the only friends you had and they were all dying im sure you would understand twilight in this story.

Well... haven't read a whole lot of alicorn Twilight fics (due to other things occupying time lately) as of yet, so this is one of the first, before and/or after the finale sweep, if not THE first. Anyway, it was an interesting premise, Celestia asking Twilight for a final friendship lesson report, but then it started to get kinda narcissistic. Kinda sad, even if not the first story I've read with Twilight acting in such a way *coughLettersFromaDisgruntledFriendshipStudentcough*. But I can understand if her first REAL friends that weren't her family passed and were true to themselves/their element, even if think she should know better, as friendship's what MADE her a princess and she even thanked her friends for it. :twilightangry2: But doubt we'll see a follow-up with Celestia comforting Twilight and reminding her that she doesn't have to be miserable forever, like 2151572 said, since loss can only hurt you if you LET it. :facehoof: So, I didn't entirely like this story, but I won't downvote it either. It was sad, but not entirely so, when Twilight gets angry midway or so through.

And one note about one line:

Rarity’s final act of generosity was wasted!

Should that be WASN'T wasted? Or was it wasted because she died trying to do it? Imagine it's probably the latter (if not something else), but wasn't sure and got confused by vagueness of it, compared to the rest about when Twilight bitches about how her friends couldn't be untrue to themselves/their Elements right before they died. Confused as well by when Twilight says it's been YEARS when it'd be more accurate probably to say like centuries, if the last time she herself did a friendship report was before her ascension. //dl.dropbox.com/u/31471793/FiMFiction/emoticons/sillyfilly_Twilight_Sparkle.png Not to mention, surprised that she would go so far as to move Rainbow and Rarity to Canterlot and that would just agree, though not sure if implied the other three died pretty young in their lives, rather than old like Rarity and Rainbow Dash, at least. And finally, this line:

She wouldn’t lie for the sake of settling our hearts will falsities.

WITH falsities.

Anyway, I'm done, sorry for the rambling/rant. :twilightblush:

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twilight, you were just getting mad at your friends at the end, :fluttercry: I mean whats that about, you should always treasure and :heart: the times you spent together

Did you intend to brutally murder my feels? It hurts. More than eating after two day's with nothing but a muffin. That say's alot. I need to go the ER an have my feel's replaced.

dude. you just slashed my feels to death with a cheese knife, revived them, incinerated them, then took the ashes and turned them into a sculpture of them and then put that up a a shotgun range. then you took all the little bits, melted them, then made a sword out of them, which you brutally killed the feels of others with. then, you broke it, sent the peices to opposite ends of space, and had a super nova of a star compltly decimate them. thanks alot.:fluttercry:

Pinkie Pie died of diabetus?:applejackconfused:

So far, this is one of the best "Twicorn" fics I've read yet. I liked how Twilight looks back on how she witnessed the demise of her friends and how she misses them. But then you throw a curveball by showing Twilight, in the end, wishing that she was never given immortality. I can't blame her for such feelings, seeing how well Twi's friends mean to her. Still I would love a follow-up where Celestia (or Shining Armor, or Cadence) talks with Twilight and helps her deal with the loss of her friends.

As for me, even though I find some interesting possibilities in Twilight being an alicorn (especially if she remains in Ponyville, instead of the palace, and continues to be the lovable egghead we know and love), my hope is that her transformation into an alicorn did not make her immortal, like Celestia, because Twi without her friends is like waffles without syrup! But that's just me.

Anyway, good one-shot:facehoof:

Friendship is a powerful medicine that cures even the most damgaging wounds,illness' ,and pain. however like all things to much well form it to a poison of which pain is eternal. So I ask this, "how much is to much?". The answer is simple, one. :pinkiesad2:

I enjoyed this deeply. good work. :twilightsmile:

Friendship is a double edged blade. It can heal you and protect you but at the same time it can hurt you. Whether or not you are ready to face that hurt I can tell you that what comes before is usally well worth it. Make friends, but be ready for all good things must come to an end. Therefore I live everyday with my friends as though it where their last. And since most are in our Military it might very well be. But I will continue live on and enjoy the Now and the Memories that come from it.:rainbowdetermined2:

meh

fav well deserved:fluttercry:

Who Wants to Live Forever Twilicorn Fanfic #18. I wonder how long it'll take before this premise gets beaten into the ground.

Every time I read a story like this, I quote Blindside.
"I'd rather die in love than stay alive numb."

First ooffs, well writen story. Next, here it is, I don't care if somepony else said it, but I'll explain too. Now then, ponies don't die. There was Starsworld the bearded, that doesn't count cause he's past always has been, sense this is Equestria, yeah. Well whatever if that isn't good enough for you then here. Fluttershy, dying from falling down stairs. Watch an episode of MLP FIM to explain that one. Next Pinkie Pie. She dies from sorry I don't know how to spell that but still, you think she'd've gotten it by now. But honestly they're ponies, they live.:facehoof:

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It wouldn't be Shining Armor though. He likely died long ago. Although, I think that would make Candace the right person to help Twilight. Such shared pain would bring them together.

Twilight hates friendship.

I refuse to cry. I will not cry. I refuse to cry. I will not cry. I refuse to cry. I will not cry. I refuse to cry. I will not cry...

... and this version of Twilight flunked her studies of friendship.

Completely. And utterly.

So that is what Twilight ultimately learnt? "Friendship is worthless, nothing has value, death is the only truth"?

Technically, the story is good, the characterization is excellent. The problem is just that this version of Twilight is repulsive and ultimately, deeply selfish. Frankly, this is the kind of path to lead to Discord/Tirek-style madness, where hatred is all that the character knows. She already made the step of dismissing friendship as worthless already. Just give her a taste of power, now that all she cares about is herself, and she'll be ready to be Sombra 2. In fact... maybe Sombra started out the same way, outliving friends and then deciding that because losing friends make him feel bad, only gorging himself on making others as miserable as he is was worth doing.

I mean... seriously? She had entire lifetimes of friendship... and all she retained of her friends, the only thing she can remember from them, the only thing she is willing to learn from them is "I want them with me and because they can't do so anymore it invalidate everything we ever did"? She then looked at all those new ponies, all those who could bring her new friendships, so much to learn, so much to experience, how she could teach them how her friends were, perpetuate old memories as well as create new legacies... and then she dismiss them just because they aren't eternal?

Rainbow Dash fought with old age and the inevitability of death for her sake out of sheer loyalty despite her body being physically pushed past the state where it should have broken and Twilight is so utterly ungrateful in the end as to consider it all worthless? If this setting has an afterlife, I can picture Rainbow Dash wondering why she bothered resisting death for so long if Twilight was just going to not only collapse in a ball of wangst forever after her death but outright declare their friendship was a lie.

Her sadness is genuine and rather noticeably palpable in the text. However... frankly, if I was to write what was Celestia's response to this letter? It would be disappointment. Disappointment for Twilight having flunked decisively and completely her study in friendship.

In the end... well-writen story. Too bad that by the end of the story, I felt more like punching her in the face and yelling at her that her friends would be ashamed of her than to hug her.

I like these stories, I don't agree with them. Immortality changes nothing about your friends deaths. Whether you live to 90 or 100,000 they'll die. You'll still be hurt by it. No Immortality is never a curse when it comes to friends, only a blessing. As you get to have many through the years, meeting people you otherwise never would have met.

I can't take it! I'm going to cry! And, there I go. :fluttercry::fluttershbad::pinkiesad2::raritydespair::raritycry:

I still loved, it, though. Even though at Rainbow Dash's part I literally started sobbing.

Wait...what about Spike? And did Rainbow become a Wonderbolt?

twilight, you whiny little emo. have you learned nothing? you still have your fellow allicorns, who you should treasure like family. they are here to support you. stop moping around. this report should be burned at the earliest opportunity. maybe you should become an eternal wanderer, coming into ponies lives only to leave at some point, never to return.

Why am I reading so many sad stuff today? My feels can't handle it all!
:fluttershysad::fluttercry::raritycry::raritydespair:

I know this was supposed to break my "feels" meter, but for some reason, I feel nothing. :pinkiesad2:

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ! I CANT STOP CRYING! FUCKKKKKKK :raritycry:

I've read a lot of feelsie type stories today. I stayed strong, but this finally threw me off. The tears came.

I am depressed:ajbemused:

Y u do this to me author?:ajsleepy:

This whole chapter Was just....Well...I'll just leave this here...

I feel bad for laughing at the diabetes part...

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As the old saying goes, "Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

And that saying was sarcastic. The modern usage is a complete corruption of its meaning.

7616678 it may havery been sarcastic but to me it's no less true my mother's father left her as a child but one day they met again and her father had changed he died a few years later however in those few years we all made alot of happy memories.
It hurt to see him gone but I think it would have been worse to have never met him before his passing to always wonder what could have been.
Everyone sees life differently......

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