Everything has ground to a halt lately because depression.

I'm going back to intravenous ketamine treatments. Who knows what damage it does to my brain, but it's the only thing that works. Stories and updates will follow once my mood improves.

Hey everyone its me and well my latest wish....Is to DIE!!! Iv fianlyl found out I have been dealing with Emotional abuse all my life for 26 Years (that's how old I am now) and im at my limit. Just This week I Finally Tried to committee Suicide by Gnawing on my Wrist while Sitting in a Corner Silently Crying "Their IS NO Hope " I CAT TAKE THIS ANY MORE My Mother Is STRAGNLING ME AND WONT GIVE ME A LIFE MY GRANDFATHER IS JSUT IGNORING IT AND NOT DOING ANYTHIGN EVEN NOW JUST TODAY HE SAID IM JUST

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I don't know her that well, but she has two accounts, Mensonge Singer (which represents her darker side) and Script Singer. She is constantly struggling with suicide and suicidal thoughts. As of now, it seems that nothing has helped her to overcome them.

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I'm gonna make a story soon. Not my 100 follower story, no.
Just some other story. Just something I might not publish, though it should only be a one-shot, so I should get it out. It'll be pretty depressing, and involves the main conflict pony vs. self, as a little hint to it.
Sorry my stories are so depressing but, now it seems that they fit me more than ever.

Uh... I'd like to know what kind of story you guys would like for my 100 follower story~

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Okay so first off I wanna apologize for making so many posts today. Not in the best state rn, I didn't get to take my anti-depressants this morning so I've been super depressed all day, not to mention my hormone crap has been playing on me and driving me insane, and making me freaking question again, and now we're kinda back to square one. I wanna say thank you to all the people who've stuck by me, and I hope I can try and be a person I can be comfortable with again.

Ugh. I'm in a few jams—and depression ain't helpin' any.

Mission of Mercy is either complete, or it isn't complete. This all depends on whether I want it to have a sad ending or a less-sad ending, and I can't decide. I like the less-sad ending better, but it loses some of the punch of the story. On the other hoof, it might add something to the message. Arrrrghlghlblagragl!

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That feeling you get when you have a story completed, proofread, edited, and generally have pulled together a consensus it's ready to publish, ready to send out into the world to be seen and read by the anonymous masses...

Then you sit down with the doc open in one tab, the web form open in another, and start getting ready to copy it over, chapter by chapter...

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Science-fiction horror story coming up. It's a one-shot.

Genre(s): Alternate Universe, Dark, Horror, Sci-Fi
Rating: Teen (for violent themes)
Title: 'Unlimited'
Plot: Princess Twilight Sparkle, fearing the rise of a new villain, uses the time travel spell once again to return to the desolate landscape she came across in her stand-off with Starlight Glimmer. Her mission: to gather any evidence she can pointing to the evil that succeeded in destroying Equestria.

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Treatment starts tomorrow.

more personal things after the break.

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Chapter 6 of A Dragon's Depression is now up! No more 'it's getting done', 'I'm working on it' or 'it will be up soon.

IT'S UP NOW!!! https://www.fimfiction.net/story/84711/6/a-dragons-depression/chapter-6---getting-caught

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This blog I wrote on April 7th, 2016 that was posted on the group's forum: Anti-Depression Ponies. At the time, I wrote this in order to give those that are depressed a lesson from the past by the one icon that I admire: Ludwig van Beethoven. In this blog, I wrote a response letter to his now famous suicide note that he wrote back in 1802 when it became clear that he was going deaf. From here, I'll sharing with you guys

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I'm recovering from surgery, and I'm tired... but not just physically.

With ya, Ponkus.

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BronyCon 2018 was fun, which requires some explanation.

I enjoyed the convention, though I was coming down off of narcotics for pain and dealing with an unstable mood. Without too much boring detail, my mood is currently a big question mark: I'm off of two meds and one experimental treatment, and looking forward to another experimental treatment possibly in the near future.

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The camera slowly panned in on two figures. One, a tall human elder in a black monk’s robe. The other, a white earth pony whose black mane was streaked with gold. Answering some unseen cue, the human began to speak.

“Hello. I’m Friar Jacques de Charette from the apparently popular web-series A 14^th Century Friar in Celestia’s Court.”

“And I’m First Lieutenant Morning Song from the same series.”

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To all those who read this, I owe you an apology. Originally I thought I was just going to lose a week trying to catch up with things, however, more shit popped up.

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For being so absent.

I've been dealing with inner demons as of late.

I'm not sure I've shared this openly or not. But I suffer from Bipolar Manic Depression, I have most of my life.

It's this black tar in my life which in many ways, has stunted my growth as a person.

I'm not as open with others as I wish I could be, I'm very introverted to a limit , I just seem to sink into nothingness.

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