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Oct
4th
2016

Pattern Broken :yay: · 6:40pm Oct 4th, 2016

Treatment starts tomorrow.

Sep
23rd
2016

Shocking News :V · 11:23pm Sep 23rd, 2016

I've been under observation for almost three days after checking myself into the ER here locally, and now I am finally back home again. :ajsleepy:

Upshot is that I'm going to be starting the ECT treatments immediately (next Wednesday or Friday).


This is probably closer to accurate than you'd expect.

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Oct
5th
2016

Awake · 6:45pm Oct 5th, 2016

So, I'm back. No memory loss, not much tiredness, nothing notable (apart from a little emotional breakdown afterwards while still struggling to breathe again post-procedure). It was simpler than going to the dentist, truth be told. If it's this easy I might not need to take as much time off work as I'd been planning.

Oh, one more thing. I woke up in the middle of the procedure.

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Apr
9th
2017

When Drafting, Never Forget the Summary · 11:28pm Apr 9th, 2017

I have about twenty stories going at once, but I'm grading this weekend. The semester's nearly over, however, so I'm probably going to publish a bunch of stories at roughly the same time. In all likelihood, I'll start doing this in a week or two, so be patient. :twilightsmile:

That said, I have a little mystery to solve. :pinkiegasp:

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Oct
12th
2016

Writing Plans! · 12:50am Oct 12th, 2016

A lot of things have been happening to my body and brain, and so far it has mostly been ordeals without a clear resolution (low response means we had to try a new anesthetic that hurts like fire going in, might be changing electrode placement which could lead to memory loss, the vein the anesthetic went in when I woke up during the procedure is hardened and itchy now, and so on). But I'm in good medical hooves, and expect that things will turn around eventually.

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Oct
2nd
2016

Update, Side A · 10:51pm Oct 2nd, 2016

Things were delayed a few more days, but it's all clear now. My first electroshock treatment commences tomorrow at 9:30 am EDT (less than fifteen hours away).


Yeah, it's probably not going to shut me up either.

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Nov
20th
2016

How to Deal with Mistakes · 1:33am Nov 20th, 2016

I made a mistake today. It was a tiny mistake, but it feels like a humongous one. :raritycry:

Learning to put mistakes in perspective is something I'm still learning how to do, since finishing my course of electroconvulsive therapy.


This silly pony helps me in so many ways.

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Dec
8th
2015

Project: SPECTRA · 8:20am Dec 8th, 2015

Okay this is fucking insane.. Completely stupid-batshit-insane. The prospect of undertaking this massive fucking idea in my head is scary.
I think that means I'm doing something right.
I'm talking about Fallout: Equestria levels of goddamn.

For the past 2-3 years, I've been sorta visualizing-cooking an amazing internal universe inside my head. Every fucking day I think about it. And every fucking day they're screaming to get the hell out.

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Jul
28th
2016

Delayden · 11:16pm Jul 28th, 2016

I'm looking into convulsive therapy, where they shock your brain to make you spasm and for some reason it also makes you not sad all the time anymore. It has the highest success rate of any depression treatment, but you tend to lose some short-term memories as you do it, so it's obviously not a first resort.

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Oct
3rd
2016

Side Derp · 12:23pm Oct 3rd, 2016

Okay, so apparently the ECT doctor is still conferring with the doctor who installed my neurostim implant so it will be safe to proceed. That means no zap today.

In all likelihood the zap will be Wednesday morning. I'll post about it after it happens.

EDIT: Zomg they're still not sure about doing it with the implant in place and now they have to talk to the manufacturer! Earliest will be Friday and even then I don't know. :facehoof:

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Dec
25th
2016

Happy Hearth's Warming Eve! · 8:00am Dec 25th, 2016

Happy pony holiday because EVERYTHING MUST BE PONI :flutterrage:


Dammit, Hasbro. Your ships are all wrong!
(Well, except RainbowPie. Pink goes with everything.)

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Dec
13th
2016

Mood, and Medium-Sized Changes · 7:27pm Dec 13th, 2016

ECT has failed. :raritycry: It worked wonders while it was happening, but a week after my last treatment I began to slip. Now a little over a month later, I'm right back where I started. :fluttershysad:

I am now embarking on about seven different medications at once to see what happens. One of these is lithium, which is likely to help me. Keep your hooves crossed, fillies and colts. :applejackunsure: Now, what's next? Oh, right.

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