• Published 8th Jun 2022
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What Am I? - LordOctavianStark



You never seem to feel like you belong in this world. Now you begin to find out why.

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The beast holds your muzzle in his claws and stares into your eyes for a moment before finally releasing you. He stands to his full height and takes a step back before pacing back and forth. His massive size amplified from your prone position. Causing fear to rise in your heart. “You shouldn't still be here. It should've worked. Why didn't it… Why?” It continued to ramble to itself incoherently. Finding it impossible to follow along with his verbose speech you roll yourself onto your stomach and push yourself into a seated position facing the apparition.

“What- what do you mean I shouldn't be here?” You ask as you shake the daze from your mind. The attempt was in vain. The creature somehow vanished from its position and reappeared in front of you almost immediately, as if teleporting like you had seen Luna do hundreds of times. This causes you to fling yourself back, his sudden appearance nearly scaring your soul from your body.

“I mean,” he pauses to take a step towards you. “That you shouldn't be in here.” He taps a finger to your skull. “The spell should've been broken and you should be gone. I should be back in control instead of this acid trip spirit guide you see.” Each word was punctuated by another tap against your skull.

You smack his claw away confused. He should be in control? You mull his words over until it clicks. “You, you were trying to kill me!?” You shouted with a voice laced in venom. You fling yourself into a standing position and spread your wings in a defensive stance. Crouching low you stare daggers at him.

“Yes, I should be in control. Jesus fucking Christ. No way I'm this fucking dense. How does he not get it yet!? Did they take away my common sense when they turned me into an abomination!?”

You brush off the fact that it seemed that he had read your thoughts and continued. “You certainly love to talk to yourself creature.” This causes him to fling his head in your direction with a scowl that could kill.

“Well, I have been locked in my own mind for SIX FUCKING YEARS! So yes, when you have no one else to talk to you tend to talk to yourself.” He shouted in pure anger, causing you to fold your ears back in response. “They took everything from me. My humanity, my body, my life, my own name, hell even my death. Then locked me away, as I watched some masquerade of myself go about life in my body!”

“Your body!? Just because you failed to do to me what the Nightmare did to Luna does not make my body yours!” You shot back. You knew Luna had sound dampening spells on her room but you pray that maybe she'd hear you and come to your aid.

The creature facepalmed with an exasperated sigh. “God you are stupid. You saw the memories did you not?” You remain silent but nod in response. “Don't you think it's strange that my memories and yours are together? That when you went through the history that should have been yours you found mine?” your eyes open in realization. Why were my memories with his? You think to yourself as you mull over it's meaning. “Don't even bother thinking of it. You're to dumb to piece it together obviously.”

Dread sets in. “You can hear my thoughts. What… what are you?” You say aloud. It wasn't a question, it was a statement of fact. The thing only hummed in response.

“Of course I can. I am you, and you are me. We,” he motions to himself then to you, “are human.”

Realization suddenly hits you. “You're not really here are you?” You ask as the implications of it finally sink in.

“Of course I am, I'm just not here physically.” He states then taps a claw to his own skull. “I'm up here.”

Your eyes widen. “By the Old Gods. I'm going insane.” your voice trembling as you say it.

“The ‘Old Gods’? They even have you worshiping their fake deities. Y'know, I prayed to a lot of gods in my life. But at least they were all gods of men.” He squats down to eye level with you. His posture becomes relaxed and it seems to ease some of your fears of him. “Look, I'm gonna level with you ‘Star’,” he uses his claws to make quotation marks around your name. “I've been locked away a long time, and my plan to get free didn't quite work. But you can still help me get back at the bastards that did this to me.” He finishes with a soft smile.

“And why the buck would I do that beast?” You ask, your tone dripping with hate.

The creature's smile then grew demented in nature. “Because, you are me. Listen closely and don't interrupt.” he stood from his squatted position and began to pace agian. “Six years ago the Princesses tried to do something horrible. They tried to take away my humanity. I couldn't accept this obviously, and took an out. I flung myself from the castle tower and committed suicide. Atleast, that was the plan. I laid in a dream, thinking ‘oh, fuck. I'm in a coma,’ well that was until you woke up. They had turned me into one of them and locked me away in your subconscious.”

Coming back to you, he looks down on you with pity. “You never crashed during a late night flight. You never lost your memory because of it. You are a version of me that had his memories stripped away until the barest bit of my personality remained. Then you were fed lie after lie. Your life is a sham and I truly am sorry you had to find out like this.”

You want to call him a liar, you wanted to rage against the story he had fabricated. But deep down, you knew it was no lie. You knew deep in your heart that this was the truth. “I destroyed the world as I knew it.” The words barely choked out as tears began to run down your cheeks.

“Pandora's Box, it's a bitch and a half.” The creature takes a step even closer and sits to the left side you. Letting you cry silently as your world came crashing down. All that you couldn't explain suddenly made sense. Every question that gnawed at you finally had an answer. It did not give you joy as you had hoped. It left you broken and hollow. After a few moments the human apparition draws your attention by bumping into your left side with his shoulder. “Hey, there is something that will make you feel better.” He says, staring forward.

“What's that?” You ask, no emotion in your voice. Your gaze still planted forward. Not looking at anything other than empty space.

Out of the corner of your eye you see him turn his face to you and you respond in kind. Looking into his eyes you can see a glee in them. His mouth cracks into a crooked smile before he speaks. “Revenge.”

Comments ( 23 )

Another one! Sweet!!

Violence is not the answer it is the question and the answer is "YES"

You shouldn't still be here. It should've worked. Why didn't it… Why?”

Mfw the Pony version of you became his own person and his brain too solid to overwrite

Bro you’re spoiling us with these! I love it!

I kinda want a chapter about the main six's perspective

I kinda wanna see how even after six years they have doubts on whether what they did was the right thing.

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That box gave my man BPD

It always leads to revenge isn't it? Most who go on a revenge quest never think about what happens after. Even if they somehow win, it'll be a hollow victory. The ponies will still hate humans. They'll be living on the run.

The only way I can see them living a truly happy life is utilising the magic of friendship to its fullest potential. If Changelings can be accepted in pony society like in the show, so can humans.

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I don’t know who the hell gave you dislike, but I agree with you, everything will go wrong and no one will have a real happy ending

Also, I have a theory that the trapped Anon is not the original Anon, not even close because, like with Star that is just a remnant that harmony removed from the original personality to make it more accepted by ponies, the enclosed Anon are the remnants that became conscious and called themselves Anon for the memories that I manage to keep, if it were after what happened I would be bitter and want revenge but I would probably be more worried about reversing the whole situation, this Anon 2 wants more revenge for all the loneliness he has suffered and, as his plan with many flaws barely worked and did not take into account this result, decides to choose the easiest

Being Harmony as it is, I am sure that Anon will have to accept what he became and Star will have to accept what he was so that they combine and be one being again, the result will be something truly chaotic, but if the harmony I accept Discord must also accept Anon Star ymus

11831632
They didn't want to be friends to begin with. They stole his identity, body, and memories away from him for the so called greater good. Instead of educating or reprimanding ponies for treating him harshly they destroyed his sense of self for selfish gain. Given that there's no indication that changelings are even part of pony society in this story or any other species it's safe to say the real phrase is "Friendship is Magic...only if you're a pony."

So revenge is indeed the answer

11831693
Revenge is an answer. But is it the right one? Only time will tell.

Comment posted by virtualGlimpse deleted February 22nd

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Don't forget, they didn't even let him die. They'd rather twist him into something he didn't want to be, rather than let him cease to be

Oh Yeah, It's All Coming Together

I really hope that Revenge won't be about killing them — that would be too good. Instant death for 6 years of torture isn't fair. There shall be no mercy for these hypocrites. Only suffering.
Gosh, I'm taking this too close to my heart, am I not?

Revenge sounds nice.

Revenge Sweet Revenge!

What a bunch of passive bitches in the comments. Those of you who want to 'except this change of once a man now horse', makes me want to take a slug hammer to a horse's head out of spite and practice.

this story is back, Nice!

ok I'm really happy this story is back sense it left off on a massive cliff hanger. so how will they take revenge? will there revenge just go to the princesses and the main 6 or all of pony kind?

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i agree and anon/star will be different form mlp villains because while mlp villains are "evil" they do not know evil like humans do. so i am exited to see where this will go.

I'm quite existed for the first bout of revenge that is going to be enacting in the chapters to come.

Y1R

Not to intrude or rush but theoretically when will the next chapter come out?

I imagine Anon's revenge will be causing an uprising by the non-ponies, causing a massive destruction of Equestria's "harmony."

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