I swear to god there's so much that I wanna do. So much that I feel called to do. So much I wanna write, for one thing. But my whole life has been tainted by trauma.

I wanna write a long OctaScratch fic about trauma recovery, but it's a bit of a paradox, because I need to recover enough from my trauma to be able to write, and writing is one of the things that'll help me recover from trauma. Chicken, meet egg.

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I just watched first and last episode (available free on youtube).
This made me realize that there are consumers for any kind of content.

That is it for now.

Chapter 7 of I Love the Smell of Friendship in the Morning has been posted!

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Personal trauma recently led me to delete my old account. This cost me my major work, numerous friends, several stories I was in the process of writing.

Now I am trying to move house, yet again.

I may have a new job lined up, which would be nice.

In the meantime, I need story inspiration.

It's been a while since I've actually... written anything like this, so I hope you can forgive in advance. This is going to be rambly.

So... at this time, as I type this, it's just shy of midnight. An hour and a half from now, it'll be two months exactly from when the fire broke out at my old apartment complex. I'm still glad I got out, don't get me wrong. But Darkness, do I have regrets.

Trauma's a bitch that way, you see.

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Does anyone know where I can find a great fanfiction here about trauma and how to slowly face it? I'm trying to write one myself, but I need something for inspiration to help me.

Well I'm up to almost 11 pages in chapter 6 and it's very difficult to get Cozy Glow to just accept that this is what's best for her. I mean, I'm giving her another mommy! The thing I never got! So I can't imagine what the problem is? Then again, I should probably look within for my answer? I mean, I'm transgender! I never really got the chance to be a "daughter" you know? So in a way, I guess I intend to vicariously live this through this adorable Pegasus filly? Well it seems like a good idea?

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Chapter 4 of Smell of Friendship has been released!

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I'm suddenly reminded of the time where my parents (in)directly said I'd be dead to them if I were trans-

"If you were to be trans, then we'd have to put an obituary out for Tyrel, and then put out a birth announcement for Felicity. We'd have to take pictures of you in a diaper to put in the paper, Is that what you want?"

I shook my head.

"Because that's what you're asking us to do."

Ughhh

Rating Scale:

12/10—a complete masterpiece; flawless and outstanding
11/10—Excellent, near-perfect film

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Tiny Teaser for those who wants it.

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I made a new group inspired by most recent story!

http://www.fimfiction.net/group/211053/ptsd-wont-stop-me

PTSD Won't Stop Me is a group for those who are looking for stories where characters who have suffered from traumatic experiences find the strength to overcome and succeed.

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Well everyone, we made it to the end of Act I. I'm genuinely curious as to what everyone thinks of the story so far.

The Dead by Sunset series has become a lot nearer and dearer to my heart than I expected, and I fully expect it to become one of my longest fics alongside Featherfall. I'm sure there are a lot of readers interested in seeing how all of the drama that's been built up here plays out, and I wanted to show a little of my thought processes that brought much of this story about.

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Trigger Warning: the following is an in-depth, candid article about emotional trauma and the resulting suicidal ideation, written by someone with severe C-PTSD.

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Working on the next chapter of Substitute obviously, and had a few ideas that I actually wrote down so I don't lose them from my horrid memory. I think it will go well, and I can't wait till this is finished. This chapter at least. The story still has another arc at least.

In other news, though; I've started a secondary thing for Cost.

Kink 1: Depression is No Match for a Donut...or Twenty.

Taken directly from Trick Question's personal blog post...

Sex with kids is dangerous, traumatic, and unethical. Nopony currently on Fimfiction is advocating for this.

Bullying is bad. Most people who reacted to PC did so appropriately; criticism is not bullying. There was still plenty of bullying.

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I've mainly noticed this after writing particularly emotional scenes, like a flashback I just wrote for chapter 15. ((I wrote 3 or 4 chapters ahead, and edit the next one to be posted as I go)) It can be emotionally draining to write some scenes, especially thoughts involving traumas that the characters experienced. It can be kinda rough! I can't even imagine how hard it'd be to write a story like Murky Number Seven or Pink Eyes, with how dark those stories can get at times. It's honestly super

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