Honestly....I haven't fully processed today yet....I've called my Grandaddies and my Papa. I've texted my sister's main BD earlier. I even called an old friend who was more like a pseudo step-father to me growing up (he didn't answer, yet I suppose he'll call back later). I've given my "uncle" his gift. Yet the one person I haven't contacted yet today....I can't...and I can never do so again....like I said, I haven't fully processed today yet. However for some reason these two Disney songs

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i am writing again, just slowly. i don't want to push myself too hard, but i think i have come to a point in my grief where my creativity is coming back. in the land of dreams and pony 2.0 are still on hiatus right now, as i am working on a new story that should have the first chapter out soon. it may end up being a one shot, i'm not sure yet.

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my ability to write comes and goes swiftly. there are days when i'm feeling good enough to write, and then a family member will come along and decide, "hey, let's fuck up coyote's day spectacularly enough she won't want to create for a week." since i don't feel like coughing up the details, all you need to know is that since my grandpa died some of my family has decided to retcon the nature of my existence.

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as luck would have it, i've managed to push out the first chapter of a new story: the devil you know. it's a daybreaker fic, and i'm excited about exploring the concept of a no-holds-barred villain who does whatever she wants to achieve her own ends.

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So I have had one of my worst weeks in the last couple of years, (to be honest though not my worst week ever just in the last like 3 years). I am autistic slightly sorta (my doctors aren't good a quantifing things but yeah but when three of them are like you are probably somewhere on the scale yeah digression) and I have an inablity to emotionally seperate fiction from reality aka if stuff goes down in a book and a character dies that I had been attached to it hurts me as much as loosing a

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It's been a while since I've actually... written anything like this, so I hope you can forgive in advance. This is going to be rambly.

So... at this time, as I type this, it's just shy of midnight. An hour and a half from now, it'll be two months exactly from when the fire broke out at my old apartment complex. I'm still glad I got out, don't get me wrong. But Darkness, do I have regrets.

Trauma's a bitch that way, you see.

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I got a text from my mother today shortly after my shift started. Was told my father was slipping and would not be with us much longer. This was unexpected, yet not surprising. I had received a similar message a month ago.

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It's been 10 days since my brother died and 6 since we laid him to rest at the foot of a willow tree near a shady stream. I find myself both functional and numb. I can act, react, and do things, but anything beyond the basics is like trying to push fog with your hands. Something happens but not much. I find myself staring at a computer screen and feeling... nothing.

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Life update. Sharing this sort of thing on here seems strange to me. Not that I haven’t shared this sort of thing before, but I’ve been away from the site and writing for this fandom for so long and generally not writing blogs that it just surprises me. But here I am, drafting it. Whether I post it, I haven’t decided.

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I don’t like talking about my problems. Not in any great detail at least. I do not take pleasure in looking like I’m fishing for sympathy. But when life kicks you to the curb, you want to pull up a stool at your favorite pub and just vent with the bartender.

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So there are still stories to tell from the Shimmering Heart verse...

Sunset Shimmer - Six Friends One Heart - Side Stories

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So released another story a few dates ago...

Sunset Shimmer - Six Friends One Heart

As I mentioned in the Author's notes in the prologue, this story reflects my own in many ways.

A few years after MLP came out, I suffered from an illness that left me paralyzed from the chest down.

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We are but 7 months into this year and I have lost two of the people who I held most near to my heart. A recent incident has led me to take therapy and grief counseling and yet I'm still struggling to hold on to any positive memory.
It is with a heavy heart that I must tell you all that all my stories are being put on hiatus until I can get myself straight in the head.
I will be checking FiMFiction periodically so I'm not disappearing.
Thank you for understanding,
Stan

I am right about that right? He's a guy? I haven't felt the need to confirm it so I've only been assuming that's true. I could very well be wrong but I'm going with my instincts here. Anyway, I've friended him on Discord (which you should totally do, you can find his name on a blog) and every now and then we have a short convo. I have also recently joined the fimfiction discord server, which you should also totally join cause...I don't know really but whatever.

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You made me do this... I know I watched it and I could easily punked out but I'm a man. And I so regret being one. I watched Boku No Pico and I regret it so... oh so much... I can hear the sounds. IT WON'T GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!! THE DOG TOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE WAS THREE OF THEM!!!!!!!!!! THREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So...it happened. My mom finally passed away in hospice today. I...like I said, my relationship with her was complicated. For much of my life, she was not a very good parent, did things that really hurt me. But later in life, there were moments where she was there for me when I needed her the most, loved me when I needed it the most, and that means something, at least, and despite all the bad, I’m still crying at her loss.

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So if you've been following my blog for awhile, you've probably caught wind that I've been working on a sort of "final edit" of "Grief is the Price We Pay." To clarify, this edit would leave the core plot of the story mostly unchanged (so yes, the ending and the events concerning it would remain largely the same), however, it would:

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So I've been thinking about "Grief is the Price We Pay" lately.

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Today's post is brought to you by the third Jojo, mister I-feel-no-pain badass Jotaro himself. (That image needs to be Rainbow Dash, mmf.)

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