Goodbye, Mom · 4:51pm Jun 15th, 2023
So...it happened. My mom finally passed away in hospice today. I...like I said, my relationship with her was complicated. For much of my life, she was not a very good parent, did things that really hurt me. But later in life, there were moments where she was there for me when I needed her the most, loved me when I needed it the most, and that means something, at least, and despite all the bad, I’m still crying at her loss.
It’s really unfair. She should have lived longer than this. She was going to hit 70 this year. Average lifespan is 75. She was on dialysis but her kidneys weren’t totally shot, there had been no talk of it failing to work. Unless my mom wasn’t telling me. But I didn’t get any hint that that might be the case.
Losing her is a massive shift for me. I’d been taking care of her for a very long time, and now...I’m not. Still have the dog to take care of. And I have a ton of things to clean up, over time. But it’ll just be me now.
Goodbye, Mom. Till we meet again.
I understand the feeling of losing a parent, you have my deepest condolences.
I lost my Dad who was an abusive jerk and abandoned me when I was 5. I found I wasn't grieving for him exactly but grieving for the Dad I should have had. It helped a lot when I realized that. I am guessing it is something similar in your case. My condolences to you.
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Thank you, and I’m sorry you went through that. You have my condolences, too.