Today I lost another friend to unexpected illness. That is two in as many weeks.
I am tired. I am sick myself. I am watching two family members suffer as they go to hospitals and emergency rooms on and off. I cannot take care of those I care about, and can barely take care of myself. And in the end, I am ultimately helpless to all of it.

I am so, so tired of feeling beaten down by death and loss.

Do me a favor. None of you fuckers die over the next few weeks. Just put it off a little.

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Hey everyone if you are reading any of my stories then you might have to wait a much longer time than anticipated.
I'm sorry.
The thing is, one of my parents just died and I need to have some time to get over it.
I will still be working on my stories but they will be updated every once in a while.
I am sorry.
Truthfully,
Deserter Balanc

So, aside from the issues my editor is dealing with, I've lots yet another pet. Just an FYI the following might be a bit graphic

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Found by Julian ... who likes biology...and related (or not very related) fields ....

https://jayrockin.tumblr.com/tagged/tiny-sapient-ungulates/

Today as news from my Sister that Joy has passed away.
She has fought bravely through her ordeal.
May her family find some sense of peace and clarity in this troubling and heartbreaking time.

Stepped on the scale this morning, and discovered that I dropped my tenth pound!

I have to keep telling myself that as I fight a craving for peanut butter cups.

Was running errands early today.

Passed by a Memorial service held for a poor family who had lost a loved one.

It got me thinking about someone in my life who I had lost, how life just moves forward without skipping a beat.

Oi, I tried my best to wear a smile today, but overall I really just felt drained.

It's nearing that time of year again, when I just felt the pressure of my loss the worst.

Each day feels like a Time Bomb.

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Really... wow.

In under two days, "Prismatic Symphony" has skyrocketed to being my second most popular fic, and also has the best like-to-dislike ratio of any of my fics. Considering this was just a quick thing that I did to *ahem* spite Kodeake, that is truly amazing. I just, really don't know what to say.

Over 300 views in less than 2 days... man...

I'm in shock... Jeez...

Brohoof /)

hey persons,
I have gotten back on my feet and am writing a third chapter, I was definitely bummed out that I lost my near complete chapter, but I am now writing the third chapter all over again. I won't give a time frame but it will be out soon enough.

Thank you for your patience,
Oali24,

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Sorry if you don't want dieting blogs, but I motivate myself by telling others.

Today marks two weeks of no soda, and I'm starting intermittent fasting today.

Here's to a better me in 2023.

Hello again.

This is a followup to my previous blogpost where I detailed my immediate reäction to a sudden and (yet somehow not) total loss of my data to a hard drive crash.

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My friends, I received the following message from the brother of one of my first and biggest fans on fimfiction.net:

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Today is a really freaking good day.

After two 24-hour fasts and one 26-hour fast this week, I decided to do my weigh-in a day early.

I'm glad I did.

Six more pounds down, for a total of 23 over the past four weeks.

I'm down to 280.

Celebrated with some chili and added in some of Sauce #4 from the Hot Ones box.

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I don't usually mention things about my personal life, as I prefer to keep my FIMFiction blog strictly for my writing, but this one may have some impact on posting schedules. My cat, who's been with my husband and I for five years, just died today. It was sudden, unexpected. We'd known she had a heart condition, but we were treating it. She was precious to us, because we can't have children. Our cat was the closest thing we'll ever have to having a child of our own, and losing her so suddenly

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You will regret this.

So true... I'm Cancer. If I lost anyone... a friend, my lover, anyone at all... I'd regret it. I already have for a few of my friends that I lost.

When I started this intermittent fasting journey, I was at 303 lbs. That's not absolutely huge because of my height of 6'4, but still needed to get under control. I stopped posting updates about my progress a few weeks back because I came to my first plateau at 280 lbs, and that frustratingly persisted for three weeks.

Luckily, I pushed through it, and last week, weighed in at 277, and just this morning before a late (and lite) breakfast, I came in at 274.

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