Sweet Mother Celestia, that was a bad week.

So I have had one of my worst weeks in the last couple of years, (to be honest though not my worst week ever just in the last like 3 years). I am autistic slightly sorta (my doctors aren't good a quantifing things but yeah but when three of them are like you are probably somewhere on the scale yeah digression) and I have an inablity to emotionally seperate fiction from reality aka if stuff goes down in a book and a character dies that I had been attached to it hurts me as much as loosing a real life friend would. I, understandably so, avoid reading and watching anything where a character dies in it, but sometimes you mess up and do it anyway, as I did mid way through last week. I watched a video called "You only need Love?" which is a video exposing Homosexual abuse and bulling and the effects that it has on LGBTQ youth, and in it the main girl that the video focuses on ends up taking her life. so yeah, being homeless clinically depressed, having PTSD, on the autistic spectrum, and having a pretty bad social anxiety doesn't mix well with pretty hefty grief, oh and writers block because why the fudge not (I don't know If i can express how hard it has been to not swear worse than a sailor in this blog post, but it has) so yeah I have writen just under 300 words since thursday, which is a really bad delay in my intended speed this month. Oh but that isn't the end of my week, I said I was homeless which so far has manifested as couch surfing, thursday night I couldn't find a couch to sleep on so yeah Seattle is realatively mild but still sleeping out side is pretty horrid (especially when you get scared of every single noise anyone makes with in a block of you due to the PTSD), so yeah that sucked. And the cherry on the horrid sunday was that early this morning my Grandmother passed away. This isn't my first loss but doesn't mean it doesn't sting. We aren't certian which is why but it was either a heart attack or a clot issue (she had some genetic dieasease that caused her to clot easily). I don't know what else to say at this point save for I will get more of the story out as soon as words come to me, but I really don't know when that will be. Hopefully soon.

TL:DR: my grandma died and that is gonna cause book delays.