The End of an Era That Never Was · 7:56pm Dec 4th, 2018
Howdy, folks! FIrst and foremost, as always, Adorable Applejack:
Now then. I've been thinking on the best way to do this. SHould I wax poetically? Should I engage in a huge nostalgic trip and fellate myself? Or should I just rip off the bandaid?
Point blank, I have completely lost my drive to write fanfics. I just... don't enjoy writing anymore. I get no pleasure from trying to write. Hell, things are so blocked up, it almost physically hurts. But more than that, I hardly read anymore, either. I can't remember the last time I completely read a fic. And since we aren't farting eastward these days, I feel my drive to read fading.
You can imagine the pain this causes me. Fanfic has given me so much. I've made the best friends I have outside the military. Hell, the only friends I have outside the military. I've been on stages, on podcasts, on TV, all because I once decided to try and spin a tale. And Now I just... don't care anymore. Like so many other things in my life, I've just... lost interest.
But the worst part? I still have ideas. Oh, God, do I have ideas. Cute shippy ideas, epic, dark adventure ideas, philosophical ideas, ideas for days! And I so badly want to tell them, both because I feel they are good ideas, and to sate my desperate need for approval. But the process to get those ideas out is just too painful.
So, the overall point of this is to formally announce that I am cancelling both Eye of the Beholder and Princess Twilight Takes A Walk. There will be no further updates, unless something extremely drastic changes. But! I won't just leave you hanging. If there is enough call for it, I will post my notes, so you can see where the stories would have gone if I didn't completely suck at life.
Now, don't read too much into this. I'm not "leaving the fandom" or anything silly like that. I still watch and highly enjoy the show, and I'm not leaving the site, either. I still have friends here, and I won't abandon them. And who knows, maybe some stories will spark my interest enough to read them.
I realize this may make people stop following me, and I am ready for that. But despite what I said in this blog, one thing remains the same: I fucking love you all. Every single one of you who chose to click that little button because you thought my stories were neat or liked what I have to say. And if you'll have me, I'll do my best to entertain through blogs and streaming. Until nest we meet, stay safe, stay free, and stay metal! Jake The Army Guy out!
Hey, that's alright man. Maybe that drive will come back, maybe it won't. (I like to consider myself sorta an optimist) But hey, if it's what you consider the best for you that's fine.
(...Funny note, I thought this post was going to be about Tumblr's demise since everyone else is making remarks about it nowadays)
Sorry to hear that. Here's hoping you rediscover the spark. Thanks for sticking around.
*hugs*
I'm sad to hear you lost your drive, but I understand. Maybe it'll come back, maybe it won't, but good luck to you and whatever you may do in the future.
One thing I must ask though, does this mean Bachelor Auction is dead? To be honest, that was one of the first few i ever read and enjoyed, will there be a post detailing the final chapter at the very least? I know you are not the host of the story, but you are 1/2 of the collaborators.
Maybe I could help? Help you work through things to bring these ideas to life?
(the one issue might be that best pony is applejack)
Good luck man
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Cap U and I are hopeful we can power through it together.
Y'know, I really feel this. And then I wrote a chapter and a story. >.> Anything's possible, man, but don't force what ain't comin'.
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That's good to hear!
Well I hope all goes well, and again, wish you luck on your future endeavors, whatever they may be.
Y'know, if you really don't think you'll continue with some of your stories (though I'm sure we're all hoping you might), what you could do is put them up for 'adoption' if you think there's anyone out here you can trust to finish them the way you intended since you have your notes written down. Admins can move stories from one user's account to another if both agree to it.
I adopted a story from a friend of mine, and it seems to be working nicely (not linking to it 'cause that's just a dick move). Just a thought you could consider.
I ain't here for "the-guy-who-writes-me-stories."
I'm here for Jake.
We love you too, Jake! Stay fresh and stay metal!
I don't think I've read any of your stuff and I still follow you. Just stay you.
Our interests change in time. I just posted a story after a seven month hiatus and only then because I entered a contest to force myself to do so. In terms of reading, I only have about ninety stories favorited, and most haven't updated in year(s). I don't even remember the last time I visited the front page.
Are you still interested in writing in general? I bet you could be a hell of an original fiction author.
I can empathize, with how my ability to write seems to have completely dried up and died. I still edit the 4th longest fic on the site, and I read new fics all the time.
My dude, who actually believes you're putting out a chapter at this point? This is about as shocking as Ricky Martin announcing that he's gay. We're glad you're on the same page as the rest of us.
I took a two-year hiatus from writing because I was dealing with a lot of those same feelings. I thought I would never come back to writing ever again -- it hurt too much. But eventually, the pain passed.
Don't give up hope, and even if you never come back to writing, we still like you. You'd better be at the next Bronycon.
Shit happens man. Just glad you're sticking around brother.
People hit dips all the time. Do not worry: this too, shall fade.
You do what you think is best. That's all you owe to anyone here. Best of luck to you in all your endeavours
Welcome to the ambivalent side. It's whatever.
Keep thinking about those ideas.
They may, later, coalesce into something you feel like writing, when you are in a mental place where you feel like writing again. Pony or not.
If not, hey, they're still useful to keep your creative juices flowing. Never stop (day)dreaming.
Honestly, I had a feeling this would eventually happen. I'm just glad you're not abandoning us all entirely. You've brought too much joy to this place to leave now.
Once a pony fag, always a pony fag after all.
Jake, I don't want you to get angry, but my own life story has a lot more in common with your own than you'd ever think... YOU GOTItTA PUT UP WITH THE PAIN! It hurts to get up everyday... but I still do it... It hurts to draw and write down my ideas, but I GRIT MY TEETH and do it... YOU GOTTA SAY "FUCK YOU," TO THE PAIN AND GO FORTH!!!! Like I do... And I KNOW you are better than myself... so if I can do it... so can you! I love you!