After years of being a failure, of watching his life spiral out of control, and of losing all hope of ever being happy with his life again, Sunburst comes to a decision. It's a decision that far too many ponies make in similar circumstances, but he's determined to go through with it all the same. Hopefully, Sunburst can realize the mistake he's making before it's too late.
A ponified telling of real events in my life. I decided to write this as a way to work through some of my own feelings and to possibly share some perspective on why a person might attempt to kill themselves, in light of certain recent events. Also to hopefully provide some perspective and warning for those who might be thinking of taking similar actions.
Warnings: Depictions of suicide attempts based on real events in the author's life, thoughts and idealizations of suicide by a suicidal pony, just a depressing topic all around.
IF YOU OR ANYONE YOU KNOW ARE HAVING THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE, PLEASE CALL THE SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE AT THIS NUMBER: 800-273-8255, OR IN CANADA: 1.833.456.4566. TALK TO SOMEONE. GET HELP. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
Just one small typo I’d briefly like to draw attention to:
Should probably be “to be much happier and more successful than him”.
But considering the haste with which this was written, some small blips are to be expected.
It both hurts and pleases me to say you’ve hit quite a few relatable notes here from my own experiences. I never had the guts to make an attempt, but lots of the thinking leading up to one is pretty accurate.
My one commentary (typo aside) is that perhaps the transition out into his recovery — that is, when Starlight shows up — could have been expanded just a bit more to cover some more of his inner thoughts and such as they catch up to canon and all that. But again, haste makes short work of most things.
Otherwise, well-written and worthy of a green thumb, friend.
I hope PRINCESS CADENCE sees this. I really hope she doesn’t do it.
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Thanks. Sorry that you've been through similar times. I appreciate the comment.
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I'm hoping PC is able to get help to work through what they're going through. They're a fantastic author and deserve a happier life.
Thank you for writing this, and for helping me some time ago. While I'm in that same kind of state of 'what is the point of all of this' and 'no amount of improving changes anything', it helps reading stuff like this to know that you are not alone in certain aspects of life.
However, I think you may of had a mistake at the start.
'If' should be 'end'.
Hope all is well!
~ Yr. Pal, B
This was a really good story excellent job.
Thank you. So much.