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JadedandDazed


I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing, but boy am I sure tired of it

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Phoenix came to Equestria two years ago through circumstances unknown. For two years, Phoenix had waited for Princess Celestia and her top scholars to answer one question: Will he be able to go home?

The answer finally came... And it was "No"

His new friends have, surprisingly, found he's taken the news quite well. Very well!... Maybe even too well. However, they never had a reason to doubt Phoenix wasn't doing as great as he said he was. That is, until he tells Twilight Sparkle he wants to explore his new home by walking from Ponyville to the Crystal Empire with no bits, the clothes on his back, and whatever he can fit into his small, makeshift backpack.

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I know that this doesn't have much to do with the story but if every person you meeta nd tall to show contempt or disinterest in you or your cause, there is something wrong with one of them. In this case, as the majority of people care about those statistics (in my experience) this means there is something wrong with Phoenix. I think it's his attitude. I get a holier than thou attitude most people hate from him.

Sorry for the wall of text from a irrelevant comment.
-Schwabauer

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Not irrelevant at all! I appreciate the comment, actually. This reaction is actually what I'm going for. Hopefully if you keep following the story you'll see what I have in mind!

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Okay! Glad I got a reaction you hoped for. That means your writing was on the dot. Good luck with the story!

>just "going for a walk"
>suicide/self-harm tag

oh dear

I don't know if you've ever played Danganronpa, but I'm getting some serious Nagito vibes over here

I admit, I giggled at that last interaction.

Good so far!

Well, while the rules of the old world did not apply here in the new one, the rules still applied to the human. There was nothing for him. There was nothing for him to gain, nothing for him to do besides watch. There was no pride for him to feel about a world so empathetic when he had no part in helping make it.

Classic first worlder savior syndrome.

Fantastically privileged.

"Correct"

Getting some real "Hitch-hike around the world" vibes from this one.

Excellent story you going ther .
And if yor interested I have a crossover story you mite like to write

Ooo thank goodness because if they did manage to bring pony’s to the human world it’s not going to be nice but I am curious if he will put his human knowledge in history books about his work about the good and bad.

O my goodness this is going to be great to read!
I love the part when he said “I love you Twilight”
When it gets smaller

(╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) This is so dumb it’s great

Bra...
He better not make them cry

I actually want to defend Pheonix helping the world.

Of course he wants to help the world so he can see a better world he created. Human nature wants some kind of benefit to the person, he can’t just be selfless and that’s that. There’s always some underlying selfishness, and that’s not his fault. A person very close to me, once I was running for a mod on a certain wiki, told me that I wasn’t selfish for wanting to become a mod, because I wanted to use becoming a mod to genuinely help others.

Perhaps the thinking is a little backwards, but that’s just how humans work.

The person just before this comment said it, but I’m gonna say it again.

The fact that this has a ‘suicide/self-harm’ tag and that fact that he’s not revealing why he’s going on this walk, in addition to the ‘sad’ tag, it’s a little suspicious.

My genuine reaction to this story:

“Haha, that’s funny... oh fuck.”

You gotta get in that jab to the National Enquirer.

Someone mentioned the holier-than-thou attitude, and I feel like I’m starting to see it. Pheonix really seemed shaken up when Rarity told him what true generosity was.

I don’t know what to say about this, and honestly, the lack of comments seems to imply nobody else does, either. Pheonix is literally tearing himself apart because he’s realizing his mistakes. This story may not be accurate, I can’t tell, after all, I was the one who wrote Hurt. Still, it’s awful to see him like this.

What an excellent chapter! Wholesome too, though I was expecting Spiracle to join our protagonist on his journey.

Was a real treat to see this updated.

this story has resonated well with someone that i used to be. and kinda still am. ive had similar thoughts. some people talk themselves down and step back from a choice that will cause all around them pain before that last step has begun. some of them... dont make it, whether they realize thats the kind of thing they wanted to do to themselves or not... and yet... some people... take that last step and realize their final choice becomes their biggest regret, and find a way to fight back to the ones they love, a little worse for wear than not.


either one of those three outcomes... i support this story fully, no matter which way it goes. i want to know phoenix's final choice. like phoenix himself thought in this chapter, any one of those three outcomes is a catharsis of sorts, no matter what happens to those who think those dark thoughts. and there is always someone to talk to, whether you/they want to talk to someone or not.

Someone to help? I wonder who that could be?

Phoenix blinked away a tear as he held the letter close to his chest. Staring up at the ceiling of Rarity's hotel room, he shifted uncomfortably on the bed, " Why do you have to make this so hard, Twilight? "

Suicide/Self-harm Tag

Welp, shit

And the letter from the previous chapter that phoenix didn't want Luna or Celestia to see.

Stellar piece of writing.

Fuck, man. This hit way too close to home.

Good stuff, feels kinda rushed

I thought twilight would have been more jealous of flutters.

The story tags give away the early chapters. But I guess most don’t read those.

How ominous. His guilt and such eating him and the odd self destructive thoughts ain't helping. May he do better and get some help. Heck why not make a lie reality and go with moonbutt.

He tried to be the positive force his old world so badly needed, but the old world quickly broke him down. His ideals of helping others, of being selfless, of seeing the best in everyone were scoffed at, if not down right laughed at. At first, he didn't let that stop him. He volunteered at any charitable organization he could, he joined demonstrations, not only was he invited to be on the board of a few charities, he even founded his own. He started early and manage to do it all before he even graduate college... However, by the age of 24, he came to accept that the world simply didn't have room for empathy and understanding. No one wanted it either. He felt alone in wanting to accept others for their differences and for wanting others to accept him for his differences...

Reckon he got the whole thing flipped outa wack in his head. Humans are empathetic, doesn't mean they have to be like ponies. Most people want to keep to themselves, that isn't evil. Yet when shit goes down it's rare to see people just look on, if they don't outright sacrifice their own wellbeing, they will call in someone capable of succeeding. Being friends with everyone is silly, keep to you and your own. Looking for the best in people and expecting saints everywhere is selfish. Small works or you'll catch burn out

here's something to light your day up.

"Mhm, of those 7 billion, 150 million are homeless, 1.6 billion don't have adequate shelter," Phoenix said, "736 million live below the poverty line. 690 million people don't know if they'll be able to eat from day to day. One person commits suicide every 40 seconds. When I left Earth and came here, there were 16 different wars going on... We've had a war where the death toll near doubled the population of Equestria... Does that paint a good enough picture?"

Plus the Armenian genocide, the Asian holocaust, the holocaust, the Rwandan genocide, the Cambodian genocide, the Holodomor, the great purge, the great famine, the secret Bangladeshi genocide, numerous revolutions, civil wars, coming close to killing over 1 billion people in a nuclear war, the ustashe genocide, the Yugoslav wars, the Chechen wars, the Soviet-afghan war, the three Vietnam wars (France vs 'nam, the U.S vs nam, and China vs nam), the first & second Korean wars, the October revolution, the war in Kosovo ('Murcia vs the KLA), the first world war, the American-philippine war, Grenada (America's invasion of said country in the 1980s), the Persian Gulf War, the Iran-Iraq war, The six-day war, Israel's (ya know, that shithole that was convicted of apartheid) war for independence that they stole from the Palestinians, the Congo crisis, Stalingrad, Passchendaele, Verdun, Somme, Unit 737, the dirlwinger brigade.

If you were to add up all of that destruction and genocide (plus the other horrific atrocities I forgot to include Such as the Serbian mass rape camps or the Sarajevo massacre. Hell, that barely scratches the damn surface when you have shit such as the gulags or the entire American prison system and the millions of casualties from the war on drugs) you would be able to reach and maybe even surpass the billion mark.

Humanity is as obscenely and cartoonishly evil and cruel, as it is kind and caring. Although most of these horrific events were caused by governments who brainwashed and radicalized their people into becoming monstrous harbingers of genocide. (Which is why I consider myself the textbook definition of an anarchist = "Anti-authoritarian" or in other words anti-government. But enough about that).

Anyways, I just wanted to add some more horrific shit to this already pre-established mountain of human shit (the aforementioned statistics referenced in the highlighted paragraph, not the story. The stories great.)

Comedy gold.

What is there to do for a leftie activist lost in Equestria?
If everyone is actually righteous, more than you are, it means you can not flaunt your superior righteousness over others.
If there are no straw dragons to combat, then there is no praise to expect, no power to gain.

What else is there for the little simp to do but to walk out into the desert?
...I mean he could alway terrorize pastel colored little horses with statistics.:rainbowlaugh:

It's already been over a year since the last chapter? Damn.

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Man I wish more writers would remember this. It always adds a great touch.

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