Perfect

by HaloEssence111

Sincerely, Sweetie Belle

Well, I believe I'm nearing the end of my letter by now. About time.

I started writing this around mid-May, but now it's almost July. Yet I'm still talking to you twice a week, and you're still staring at that clipboard. I guess I just haven't had the nerve to stop coming until I can finish writing this letter (and you had better read every word, pal- the money to mail this is coming out of my own allowance.)

I suppose what I'm really trying to say is that I'm not perfect. I never have been, and I probably never will be. Sometimes I still feel so bad about myself that my stomach feels like one big knot and I want to cry forever. But I'm getting better. I really, truly am.

But writing this, mulling over all my thoughts from the past few months, it's helped me a lot (more than you did, anyway). And now I'm finally finished, or at least I will be in a couple of words.

Won't be seeing you.

Sincerely,
Sweetie Belle

Author's Note:

Hey guys,

Thank you so much for reading this story. I started writing late December, so this is about the fastest non one shot I've ever written.

The events of this story were meant to show the 'life-cycle' of an eating disorder. First comes the initial thoughts that lead up to obsession (like too much exercise or a specific dietary regimen), then real sickness, and then getting help and the possible side effects that occur during or after (like depression). I have never had an eating disorder or depression, so I did an insane amount of research on the topics. Please excuse me if I was insensitive when covering these, I apologize if that is the case.

February 22- 26 is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. If you or a loved one is going through an eating disorder, please, click here. There's a lot of good information regarding the subject.

Again, thank you guys so much for reading through this story of mine. It means a lot to me.

-HaloEssence111

Comments

[Janks]

Sad, thoughtful, unfitting for the medium, but most of fanfiction is anyways. I like it.

[HaloEssence111]

6964403 Wow. You read it that fast? I only published it like a minute ago...

[Shaud]

This is awesome. A lot of thought and feeling went into this, and you can really feel it. It had me tearing up, cheering, and thinking about the past myself.

Wonderful story.

[Janks]

6964407 not all the way through. I saw it was for the eating disorder awareness week and I skimmed through it briefly. My points still stand, but having finished reading it now, I have to say, I like the ending.

[Hillbe]

nicely done on the subject mater ,,,,,

[Fluttersherp]

I just have to say that this is, by far, the best story I have ever read on this site. The way you tailored the disorder into a thing that, even I (and I don't normally like project-able characters/events) could project myself onto. This story was kind, touching, and was close enough to the heart that it has really hit home in the emotions. Very well done indeed.

[HaloEssence111]

6964722 Thank You! That really means a lot to me.

[Fluttersherp]

6965514 No problem, anything for anyone who completely deserves it. Keep up the good work.

[Harmony Pie]

Very nice

[Kichi]

Well... I can say it was a strange perspective, this was the first story I read of anorexia in MLP... To put the idea like this... I can think it's very good, and a story like this maybe need to be known, mainly so that others could know a little about how it is.

But even so... I think it lack a little of motivation from Rarity and the parents of Sweetie.

All began mainly from Sweetie obsession for her big sister and how she feel rejected because she seemed to not be 'good enough' but after that it developed in her angry to everything and even to her sister as she mainly seem to forgot how it began or why she did that, the outburst with Diamond was good but with Rarity it was not as important.

It could be good maybe a chapter extra as Rarity let Sweetie talk with Fleur so that maybe she could stop doing things like that.

Also I think Rainbow get out very easy after a prank that nearly put Sweetie like that.

But all in all is a good story.

[HaloEssence111]

6967174 Thanks for your input. I really appreciate honest comments.

In my headcanon, Sweetie's parents often travel abroad, and around the time she got to the hospital, I'm just going to say that they were out of town.

Sweetie Belle's anger was partially fuelled by being a pre-teen girl with mood swings, but also by her disappointment in herself because she thought that she wasn't pushing herself hard enough. Sweetie's trying to keep it inside was only making things worse. Her outburst with Diamond was basically the straw that broke the camel's back.

I did consider having a section where Fleur comes to see Sweetie, but I thought it would be distracting to the overall messag. As for Rainbow Dash getting off super easy, keep in mind, when she feels bad about somethin, she feels BAD. I can imagine that she'd be more than a little distraught, which was punishment enough.

Hope that answers all your concerns. Again, thanks for your review!

[HaloEssence111]

7128307 Yeah, I forgot to set it as complete. Thanks for the heads up.

Did you like the story?

[UnlnownPone]

I like to think that when your reading this your supposed to be Dr. Stone and the way you react is how Dr Stone is reacting, but overall I'd say this is a fantastic FanFiction graet job, this has become one of my favourites!

[Littlepony115]

Loved it, yeah.

[SweetieBelleSickness]

This is extremely well written. I have an eating disorder (possibly two? Or one that started another?) and this is pretty accurate to how I feel. Even though it's obviously not healthy, having that small bit of control and watching a number go down (or go up) has a real impact. I can't vouch for the recovery aspect as I have not even come close to that. As a Sweetie-Belle kinnie this story made me feel understood and not alone, so, thank you for writing it

[euuhx_lgxn]

I love that story, it was perfect