Forgotten

by Brony-Sibling

Burn after writing.

Forgotten
By Brony-Sibling

(No-pony will ever read this. I will burn it to dust. But I need… I need to say this… even if no-pony will ever know… )

“She left me behind again… “

How often have I said those words? How often have I been left behind, ignored, or just… plain…

forgotten….

“I’m her number one assistant! I can never be forgotten! She would never replace me! She would always include me! She is my… sister… I know… she would never leave me… Intentionally… She will always be there… Always…”

(I say this, hoping that it’s not a lie…)

* Sigh* This is my battle. My constant inner war and my greatest fear. To have all those I love forget me….

To be alone.

I tell myself almost constantly that, “It’s just my stupid imagination, they haven’t forgotten me, I still have value, I still have worth, I still am remembered….” But my mind disagrees with my emotions.

They don’t remember me.

I was remembered, and even included once. It was amazing! To even share the spotlight a little bit, to share the love, with the warmth of my friends and family all around me! It was paradise.

It happened during the running of the leaves… Pinkie Pie saw me when I had been forgotten and gave me that gift. That precious gift…

The gift of love.

Afterall… That IS what love is. It’s to remember somepony, to share your time, the beats of your heart, no, the very seconds of your life with someone. It’s a gift that will never be rivaled in its generosity and its precious nature. For material items fade, decay, rust, and burn and even the strongest mountain will eventually crumble. But it is love, that gift of time, that will stay forever in our immortal souls.

That short but glorious gift that Pinkie gave me was probably an afterthought. It was probably on accident that she even saw me. But it didn’t matter. I was again being left out during the running of the leaves. Rainbow and Applejack were having their “competition/fight” and Twilight was too obsessed with testing out her studies on the book about the "The Theory Behind Marathons”. But Pinkie… She asked me to help announce it! She included me! Me!

That. That is what I want. To be involved, no matter how trivial the action or job. I want to be THERE.

Even if only in the background.

But, as wondrous as that gift from Pinkie was….Well… It wasn’t going to be a common occurrence. For while Pinkie is amazing, and just her existence seems to make ponies smile… even Pinkie can’t be everywhere.

But I will forever treasure that moment.

There were some other moments in which I was included, even as part of the main group! Those… those moments were glorious. It is moments like those which keep me going. Hoping to again… belong.

One time… I tried to belong somewhere else. I tried to run away. I ran to the dragons. And… it didn’t end well. But for a moment, I thought I was missed! Every-pony came galloping after me to save me! To convince me to come back… home.

When I finally did, it was great!

...For a while anyways. But then they eventually stopping including me by accident, and soon I was again forgotten.

I tell myself that, “These are mares. Mares much older than me with their own friends and lives. I understand, it would be hard to include me in their adventures. I mean… why would the vaunted elements of harmony need a “baby” dragon when fighting Discord, Nightmare Moon, and all the other enemies of Equestria?”

“So… I’ll go and make my own friends instead!” (I told myself)

Well. No luck there either. The fillies of this town already have their friend groups formed, and while the Cutie Mark Crusades are nice, they don’t really need a dragon as part of their gang…. (I mean… dragons don’t even GET Cutie marks! So… it’s kinda ridiculous… how would a dragon help someone find their cutie mark? Right?...)

The few colts there are in this town either are too busy with their own adventures or are a bit too… Well. “Snips and Snails”-y for me. Besides… I’m just… too different…

I don’t have a cutie mark, and can’t get one. I walk on two legs… I mean… who even does that!? I have scales instead of a mane…. And I don’t even go to school! I just re-shelve the library. The combination of isolation and being different honestly doesn’t lend itself to making friends in school…

Also, there is the idea of me just being a “baby” dragon. That since I’m so young, that I should have plenty of “naps” and stay home at the library. Well, even if I am young, I want to be included!

This scares me. For while I may be young now, I will grow old. I will grow strong. I will be as the mighty oak, strong, everlasting, withstanding the march of time. And time like my friends will forever pass onward… leaving me alone with nothing but dust and memories...

I AM dragon, and a “baby” one at that! I will live to be hundreds, maybe thousands of years old! I will live so long that a hundred years will seem like the setting of Celestia’s sun.

And… I will watch them grow old and die. I will be alone. I will not only be forgotten, but lost with no chance of remembrance... For they will be gone...

So while I have time, while they are still here... even if I am forgotten, I will always treasure each moment, and etch these precious gifts of time into my soul.

When I am truly alone… then I will remember each gift, and comfort myself with the time that has forever passed by.

(Well… I guess that’s about it… I still love them all. I will try and be a part of their lives no matter how insignificant my part will be. Eventually I might even be a regular part of their group! Or I could make my own friends! But… I needed to say this… )

(Alright. I’m going to burn this now.)

(Thanks for listening to me… Mr. Parchment. You really are a great listener. Well… after I destroy this I think I’ll offer my gift to my friends. The gift of my time and love. Wish me luck!)

Sincerely,
-Spike

Comments

[funkyferret]

*sniff* Oh Spike you have such a great heart. Darn you Twilight! Be nicer to your baby brother.

[TheSecretBrony]

I know this is a one-shot but I think maybe, MAYBE, you could easily do a second chapter. Say if Spike burnt the parchment as he would for a certain series of letters. I think maybe Celestia's reaction would be good to read. Many feels for Spike right now.

[Azarune]

Curse you sad tag, CURSE YOU!!! Anyway a nice short read, great job. Best wishes, and I agree that perhaps a little extra would be a brilliant awesome gift.

[Iron Hooves]

This is why Spike really IS best pony.

[Relevant Heavy Metal]

Veil Of The Forgotten - Witch Mountain

[Brony-Sibling]

To everyone who liked this... THANK YOU! I'm a beginner writer, and honestly don't have much experience writing much other than factual papers for college. So it means a lot that you guys have even liked this story! I kinda write these stories from my own experiences/feelings, so it means a lot that you guys like it. (Don't worry, I'm not a normally sad person, I just felt like writing a sad story!) Thank you all.

1235479 I actually had the same idea... But I think I'll leave this as a one-shot. I don't have enough ideas right now to truly flesh out what would happen if Spike accidentally sent this to Celestia. Plus I'm honestly not sure I can write Celestia as a character! (I don't really have a solid grasp on her...) Thanks for the encouragement though!

1235557 (Thanks! look at the above paragraph also.)

1235565 I think they should make an episode like this for Spike! He is such a trooper, and honestly it could be an amazing episode.

[TheSecretBrony]

1235808 Well that's fair enough I guess, such a shame though

Also in my experience Celestia's easy enough, remember she's very old, very wise and regal and her mannerisms are as such. She has a slightly playful side as is evident in Trollestia but obviously that wouldn't apply in this scenario. She'd probably offer some words of wisdom whilst reflecting on the fact that she is immortal and will outlive everyone, even Spike, so she'd probably sympathise with his predicament. It's sad just thinking about it...

[GodOfBrown]

thats pretty darn good there fella. kinda surprised it hasn't more views or even a feature slot to be honest. this is quality work

[Path_of_cloud]

Well done. You depicted Spike's feelings well. The piece moves the audience and in so few words you accomplished your intention wonderfully.

[Swashbucklist]

In my headcanon, Spike falls asleep before burning this, and Twilight reads it.

Spike's wording was much more sage-like than what he would actually write; the idea f him saying, "I will be as the mighty oak, strong, everlasting, withstanding the march of time" sounds kinda ridiculous. And I've never liked the concept that all dragons live hundreds of years. The thought is just too depressing. Spike is clearly a different species of dragon from those we've seen, so there's no telling how long his lifespan is.

Aside from those minor nitpicks, I find myself loving this fanfic. Many bronies don't like to include him either.

[TheMyth]

Ever thought of doing a Spike fic of him running away?

[HungryPony]

So sad.

[Codelyoko12lover]

why was i listening to sad music while reading this!

[Brony-Sibling]

1235894 Awww!!! Thanks! If it got a feature slot... wow... I'd be blown away.

1236145 Thanks! I'm honestly not that good of a lengthy writer, and on top of that I tend to try to cut down excess words. I find that if drawn out too much a story, and a scene is weakened. (Honestly I WISH I could write a longer story!)

1235816 Honestly I've thought about writing a Celestia fic. But... I don't think I could write it as well, and honestly it would be really similar to this one.

Honestly I feel really bad for Celestia. While Spike may outlive maybe 10 sets of friends before he dies, Celestia is immortal. Honestly I think immortality without anyone to share it with is one of the worst curses ever... (Luna counts, but honestly, 1 other fellow immortal isn't enough to be happy forever...)

Really shows how Amazing Celestia is. To be able to keep her sanity and remain so... perfect.

1240195 Hmmm.... I will have to think about this one. I'll write it into my story ideas folder.

[Brony-Sibling]

1239506 Hmmm.

1. Spike being too sage-like.

Honestly... I thought the same at first. That maybe I was being a bit... too sage-like with Spike. However I view it like this. Spike is around one of the MOST intelligent and bookish mares in all of Equestria (Twilight) and in addition to that, he probably reads a lot. Honestly I think I projected my personality on Spike a bit here.... I am quite bookish, and yet I speak like a "normal" kid (though I don't type like one ).

The only times I really get bookish/sage-like in my speech is when I'm debating deep things (philosophy, etc) or when I get depressed. I guess I kinda projected my personality/habits on Spike a bit here. So, my habits+my idea of Spike's intellect level=Depressed Sage-Mode Spike.

2.As for Spike being a different type of Dragon, we never really saw any dragons below the "teenage" level. So It's possible that Spike's a different species, or that he is a normal dragon.

Also, this fic would love alot of it's emotional power if I took that bit out...

Thanks though! Love the input!

[Brony-Sibling]

Oh, a gift to everyone who thought this fic was sad/may want more! 1235459>>1235557>>1235596>>1241232

The video/feelings that inspired this fic. (Warning. May cause you to cry. I still haven't made it through without tearing up )

Oh, and to make you all feel better...

24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m77o8ca6xO1rp7l5fo1_500.jpg

He is SUCH a awesome bro!

[Path_of_cloud]

1253975 Being able to get your point across with few words is a wonderful thing. I think for a longer piece you as a writer just need a story, perhaps an epic, to flourish.

[HungryPony]

1254031 =best bro ever and that picture proves it.But I found the title of the book to be....disturbing.

[Brony-Sibling]

1259064 Whoa! Spike... What are you reading?

(It looks like some sort of horrible fanfic gone wrong! )

[Turai]

This fic really needs more views, it was very good. I do feel bad for Spike, always being left behind and this made me feel worse about it xD

[Brony-Sibling]

1523485 Thanks!

If it makes you feel any better, It looks like Spike is getting more airtime next season! He's even in a musical number!

WARNING. SEASON 3 MUSICAL NUMBER SPOILER. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! (Click if you like!)

[Brony-Sibling]

1254038 Hey, I know this is a long time after you posted, but guess what. I have started writing a long "epic".

It's been quite well received too. If you want to read it here it is. Running from Twilight,

Currently it has 422 likes, and only 22 dislikes!

[sobianca]

that was so very, very sad
I only hope that one day he will accidentally burn with the wrong fire and mail the parchment to somepony instead

[Brony-Sibling]

3052876 Hey don't worry! Spike got a lot more attention in Season 3, and he was even treated with respect in Equestria Girls!

[sobianca]

3053369 yea, but still doesn't make up for a season and a half of being forgotten. least he will be able to keep the memories with the girls and "remember the past" together with Luna and Celestia hundreds of years later

[TheMyth]

3053369
Turning him into a dog... was not respectful to his character

[Brony-Sibling]

3286539 My feelings on this matter...

[hentaispyder]

I must say, that chapter title alone sits with me. 'Burn after writing' I certainly know that feeling, to get the words out so they will stop burning away at your insides, but to make sure no one else reads it so they dont give you a pity party, which makes you just want to end it faster.
I'm still not "better" but I'm a hell of a lot better now.
Now on to actually reading it.

[waaaaaaah]

:( poor spike

[Phantom-Dragon]

*Gently strokes Spike’s back*

[SpedaHooves]

I kinda wonder that what if the mane six found this, like in his memories/dreams thanks to the help of Luna, or some how it just got transported somewhere else instead of burnt to a crisp. As many of you all know, Spike is still rarely used, and then he just got turned into a buff stereotypical jock, when he could have been more lean, and pretty sure he's at least more intelligent than most ponies. Eventually he could be smarter than Twilight

[Alxsofthenight]

Mr. Parchment: another lonely writer that writes to me. it's Sad everyone else that writes me either is forgotten or very lonely that they have no one else to talk to. so they keep their feelings to themselves and over time it affects them where they feel worthless and like there is no one else. but there is one it's not much but sometimes reading what they say in the parchments they send me. even though I can't respond back I can't influence certain areas that can help them. but truly they must decide on what they're going to do next even I'm riding my feelings in this parchment. haha isn't that what I'm supposed to be something that could be written and later forgotten. soon I will write back but I would not send this no not until he needs it the most I can't believe I'm breaking one of my rules. whoever is reading this thank you for taking the time and reading this soon once everyone stops riding on my name I soon will disappear like the rest so thank you

[boygenius2020]

Poor Spike-Wikey