Dear Diary
Dear Diary,
Something confusing is happening to me. I can feel my mind wandering, and I don't know why. Okay, let me start at the beginning. I suppose that I started feeling weird on the day that Spike watched Angel Bunny for me. He was just, so, generous, I guess. I wanted to give him so much more than just one gem, but, well, I just couldn't afford it. Ever since that day I've been attracted to the library, like a moth is to the light. No, no, no, not that metaphor. I need to find a different one. I can't use that one, because once the moth reaches the light, or flame, it dies. Burns up. I can't let that happen. It would be the worst possible thing that could happen. Dashie has already caught me daydreaming once, so I'm sure everypony else, especially Rarity, has noticed. I can only hope that they don't connect the dots. Oh, that would be horrible! Everypony staring at me, and laughing, and OH!! It's just terrible! How would Spike would react? What if he ends up hating me? Or what if he ends up loving me back?
Rarity would be crushed. Though she tries not to show it, she loves Spike...she truly does. What kind of friend would I be to ruin her fantasies like that? Yet again, what kind of friend am I being to myself by not telling anypony? Although I don't admit it openly, I learned a lot from Iron Will. I learned that I must also treat myself with the same kindness that I treat everypony else with. I still don't understand why I have to choose whether I get to be happy, or if my friends do. Of course I would choose Rarity to be happy, I put everyone else above me. Just say, for one moment though, that I didn't. For once in my life, I put myself first. Where would that leave me? I honestly don't know. I am walking on alien ground even thinking about that. No matter what happens, it all comes down to this: Do I tell, or do I lock away my secret like it is the plague? I can't make a decision! It would be so much easier to ask my friends, but I can't. I just can't deal with being in the spotlight...I feel like a moth, flying to my death.
Spike, he loves Rarity, too. I mean, it's obvious in his face. He can't control anything around her. I try to not notice, to put on a big-mare face, but it is tearing me apart. Each time they share a special moment, part of my heart breaks off and cries, the tears inside representing what I could never show on the outside. I just smile, and play along.
Our little group of friends has changed over the years. Pinkie Pie has Cheese Sandwich, and although they haven't said anything yet, I believe that they are expecting a foal. Rainbow Dash and Soarin' are dating. Twilight is constantly, and I mean constantly, talking about Flash Sentry. AJ is still single, but I hear Toe-Tapper of the Pony-tones has a slight crush on her. That just leaves Rarity and I. Although nothing has been said, I can feel a growing tension between us, and I'm afraid it might just blow-up. I can't loose Rarity...for two reasons. One is that, well, we kind-of need her for the Elements of Harmony to work, and I would be lost without her. She is my tie to knowing everything.
Wow, to believe that this is all tied around Spike. I love Spike, from the very bottom of my heart, and I always will, but I am going to speak with Rarity next spa-day about her and Spike. They will make a cute couple, I know that they will.
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Dear Diary,
I had spa-day with Rarity today, and I brought up Spike. She asked him out, and he said yes. I pretended to be pleased, but I feel like a bomb, getting ready to explode. I can only take so much. I am only one pony. I'm not sure how long I can last this horribly beautiful mess.
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Dear Diary,
Rarity came wailing over to my house today. She said that Twilight wouldn't let Spike date ponies, she didn't know if it was scientifically safe. I was as crushed as Rarity was to hear this. It meant that my dreams were crushed. As mine were, so were Rarity's. So, I walked up to her, and I wrapped my wings around her in a tight, warm embrace. Soon, we found ourselves sobbing uncontrollably onto each others shoulders. As I sobbed, I confessed my secret to Rarity. I confessed that I liked- no, loved Spike. Once I started, I couldn't stop. I just kept babbling on, until Rarity shushed me.
"Can we go inside?" she asked
I nodded, and opened the door for her. I put the pot on for some tea, and motioned for her to sit down. The water boiled, and I gave her some chamomile tea with a side of milk and sugar. Rarity didn't even touch her tea. Instead, she looked me in the eye.
"Fluttershy, darling, I must speak to you. I don't want you to freak out, and please don't interrupt. I need to speak."
Her voice was so vulnerable, so scared-sounding, that all I could manage was a nod.
"Okay, darling," Rarity began. "I love Spike, and you know that. You also love Spike, which I know now. Please, never keep something like that from me again. Even if we like the same stallion, or, in this case, dragon, I still want to know. I pinkie-promise you that I will never judge you, or try to sabotage your relationships. You should never have to carry that kind of burden alone."
By the time Rarity finished speaking, both of our eyes were filled with tears. I could hardly manage to speak, so I muttered, "Okay," and that was it. I could tell that Rarity heard me. She always does.
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That's it? It just ends right there? ...
Are you going to keep goin with this story if you ddo please add me alicron OC he is realyl coll aand you would like him so would lotsw of people like the sotyry a lot.
Well, that was an abrupt ending. Sounds like Twilight is being a bit overprotective.
Capital D for Diary.
Over is unnecessary.
Missing apostrophe.
Space after the comma.
Deal with.
Unnecessary hyphen.
Interesting story. Could be better with some editing, but I have to give it props for being different.
5094872 Lmao dude check your spelling :D
Some what of an interesting story, as usual.
Nailed it.
First of all, I do not care what you say, you are putting this on hiatus. Its to good to end right there.
Secondly, I love the storyline. Flutterspike is just so…. Daww!
and this is coming from a spikedash shipper
There are some grammar mistakes, and it could have been a little slower paced, but overall its great!
"Twilight won't let Spike date ponies because its not scientifically safe!!!"
And for the record, you showed Rarity and Fluttershy's bond like I couldn't do.
Now let me go into my closet and patiently wish death apon Twilight sparkle.
5094872
I'm sorry, but I'm not going to do that. It just doesn't fit in the plot!
5095264
Just edited...I wrote this really late at night! Please forgive me!
5095022
I feel like that is how she would react...
27 LIKES!!!!???? i THINK I MIGHT FAINT!
So it a
X 
X 
short Fic?
5101149
No...Just Rarity X Fluttershy!
5101149
Well...that's for the sequel! For this one, you are spot-on!
5102323 So then the next well be about Rarity and Futtershy having to think about the whole 'Spike can't date a mare because his a dragon'. For me it seems as the two well fall in love with each one while still having feelings for Spike and well try to talk to Twilight about the whole thing but soon finds out that she has feelings for her little brother/best friend which would lead to a triangle love...thing.
But if that not the case then you could do a pre-sequel with Spike's POV where you could say the Spike actaully has feelings for Shy as well but is confused on who is he really in love with...Rarity or Fluttershy...or maybe both?
Whatever it going to be I do hope Spike and the two mares would be happy in the end.
5102950
Great ideas!! I will take them into consideration!
I got to say that was good
Ans also damn twilight for saying that spike can't date ponies
5104117
Thank-you! When I wrote that, I was thinking the same kinda thing!
5094872 gr8 b8 m80
Hoof Bump!
BewhoUr said I should check out your work, she was right this was very good.
Pacing was great Imo.
Style was interesting- you write First Person-First Pony very well.
Only thing I have to say bad about the fic.
Is could have done with some spacing, slight editing as well.
But overall it is very well written, you allowed the readers to enter Fluttershys mind, that of which is an emotional ride.
Thank you for a great Fic.
Fav'd.
5250792
Thank-you very much! I admire your writings so much, and to see that you like mine...*squee*
Hey LiVELIfE will you make a sequel to this story?
5316384
I have, it's right here!
Warning: It's not as good as this one!
5316402 Thanks
you story is so perfect n.n and cuteee! but
you misspelled that hehe .
5330088
Thank-you!