Diary Entry 4: June 2, 2014
Dear diary,
I will now have an eternal vacation. A vacation from all the fuckery I've gone through. So I will leave a farewell note to all of my friends who let me the fuck down!
To Twilight,
You hatched me, you raised me, and you stayed with me all of my life. I just wanted to say...
Thank you.
You ignored me, you abused me, you made me your slave... but I could see in your eyes that you loved me. You probably didn't mean for this to happen. But it did, and I have to end it. I love you Twilight. Know that forever. Don't do the dumb shit I'm about to do. My death may not matter, but yours will. You are Equestria's main defense. Always stay with your friends and keep the harmony working. Don't want millions of lives ruined. This can't be fixed... my pain would only last forever until I died naturally, and you don't want that to happen do you? I hope not. Goodbye Twilight Sparkle. I will always love you as a brother.
To Rainbow Dash
We weren't really that close at all, so I can't say much except I hope your career as a Wonderbolt soars. I hope that you keep being awesome, and I hope you won't be really sad when I'm gone. I'll miss seeing your tricks. Especially your sonic rainboom. Keep being you, a loyal friend.
To Fluttershy
You've shown me kindness ever since I've known you. You don't really notice me much, but you care. And I love you. You were the only one I can't complain about. Please, don't cry too much when I'm gone. Don't be too sad. I don't like it when you cry. You, along with the other girls mean a lot to me.I hope your life continues to be better than mines.
To Applejack
You were always honest, hard working, and hitting me over the head when I said something wrong by mistake. I believe you didn't mean it as anything harsh. But you have no idea how many headaches you've caused. If only you knew the struggles I've dealt with. I bet you'd pity me. I don't want pity, I want love. But I hope you and your family stays strong and earns all the bits you need. Good luck with your life.
To Pinkie Pie
I hope you aren't too sad to hear that most of the smiles I showed to you were fake. If you even noticed them. I'm still glad you put up the effort to make all of your friends happy. It just didn't work for me. I hope Sugarcube Corner stays just how it is: A nice place with high quality sweets.
To Rarity
I love you more than I could ever say. You mean the world to me, and I woul give up the world to be with you forever. But I know that it'll never be like that. You think of me as a child, though I am 20 years old. I am mature Rarity. And also, I know you take advantage of me, using my emotions for your own good. You used me like a puppet, my love giving you the power to pull my strings. I hope that you find the perfect stallion in life. I bet he'd be better than me. I mean, to you, I'm just a kid, right? I love you with all my hear Rarity. Now it's time to say goodbye.
I will be in the Everfree Forest if you want to bury me or have a funeral or something I guess. I'll be in peace when I die, and that's the important thing. I love you... all of you. Don't ever forget that. Don't try to stop me either, Twilight! I know how you are. Today's not the day to be a big fucking hero. Just forget about me. I hope you all... live a happy life now I must go...
into an...
Eternal Vacation.
Wow, that went dark really fast, so r u going to make a sequel where everyone reads the diary?
Well..... fuck.
4478729 To answer that question with another question, is the Incomplete sign still there?
Even though I saw this coming a mile away I hoped that I was wrong. Though I can't help but wonder how this story will end.
I nearly had a heart attack when I checked to see if the story was still marked incomplete; for a moment there, I didn't notice the "in".So far this story has been excellent, especially for a new writer, and though it thoroughly violates my headcanon, I don't mind for a story this amazing. The quality of this story coupled with its speed has definitely earned a well-deserved follow
That seems like a wonderful way to fake your own death. Write a misery journal and a suicide note, then walk into a forest where body would probably be eaten before it had time to cool. Then walk out a few score miles away and it's happily ever after Spike.
Sure he's probably dead, but one can hope right?
OH MY CELESTIA! I was just aimlessly wandering fimfiction, when I found out this story is FEATURED! OMG THANK YOU ALL! I LOVE YOOOOOOOOOOU! DUIEBUASFBYUWRIFBYUAEFBUYDCBSUCDWBUJCBEUFVCBEDJUVCBGEKABCDWSKACBWDJCBDSKABCDWJCBAHWDCBHJADKSCBHJASBHKASBUDBUWDJQCBUEWCBUEWJQCBVEWCFBEWCVBCEUHWJQWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! (Faints)
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Seriously? Check out The Descendant's work. More than half of his stuff is Spike appreciation, and he does it without sacrificing humor.
Some quick recommendations:
Children of a Lesser Dragon God Boy Whelp Thingy Guy
Every Little Bit
The Talk
Our Gifts
Super Amazing Rocket Sled of Awesome
On Pins and Needles
To Change a Heart
Hmmn maybe Luna visits him in a coma or something
*sniff... sniff*
This puts down all of my in-head stories.
Dat character... Dat Emotion...
DAT SADNESS
If this is just the beginning of your career... I'm VERY excited to see what else you put out.
Oooow damn !!! Poor spike D':
There WILL be more right? It can be just another chapter showing the reaction of Twilight and the others, please, I need to know how they react
Twilight, you better save your baby or else!
4479136 He's too confused about his whole life that he can't concentrate on that.
4479915 Well, the story is incomplete, so he still has a chance
4479860 It's still incomplete. There will bee more chapters. (Notice the S)
4479660 Well, he's going to do suicide, so it can no longer be in monologue unless I skip quite a few scenes, and while on my lazy days, I like to skip time, this just simply isn't the story for that. So yes, next chapter won't be a monologue.
4479128 Thank you.
4479094 You couldn't be any wronger. I'm gonna surprise you all!
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I think you meant heart
loving the story so far.
4480290 Goona surprise us huh...
That means two things. Either
A) You're gonna make valve release Half-Life 3 or
B) Octavia is gonna be in here...
I think A has more chance of happening, Personally.
a nice highlight on the side of spike hasbro hides. A highlight of his pain amd struggle in his life. Very sad and very good, may spike find happiness or will he be at rest i wonder
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What is that joke?! I've seen it so many times! What the flying *Buy some Apple's!* is it?!
Woah. Bro, you got a whole life before you. Don't quit! Suicide is a weak man's way out! Stay strong, kid.
It says its incomplete. I'd sure love another chapter
This story really reminded me of what I went through. I could feel how he was feeling.
Its's like drowning.... Except everyone around you is breathing.
Okay my feed mentions a non existant entry but it's not showing up when I come here.
4482873 I deleted it because I'm remaking it. Sorry for the inconvenience
This is great. I thought that Spike isn't mad so much as just given up. He didn't make this entry to each mane six bashing each one's annoyances but said if there was, positives. He really needs a guy in the show to hang with so the writers can go down other avenues with him. The one guy main character isn't working out. Bring in new main characters has worked before. Spike should have characterization outside of the mane six. Your story is dong great. I bet that character who stops Spike is Discord or an OC.
4482925 ok that makes sense..
>Ecocat<
Wait?
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What?!
Still good, but I can't say I like the Applejack bashing. She's my favorite, and I don't think she'd hit anyone unless she was really pissed.
4492389 Watch Twilight's kingdom part one and you'll understand.
4492389 Dude, come on, it's his feelings, plus, Applejack is baaaad
Is that meant to be heart? Anyway, it's going well.
this removed any sadness that I had and now i have tears in my eyes from laughter.
if you did that on purpose, good one.
i'd like to see an alternative where he dies