Diary Entry One: May 27, 2014
Dear Diary..
Twilight told me to write in this book to help keep track of my thoughts and emotions. She said if there’s anything I wanted to tell someone, but didn’t feel comfortable with doing that, I could tell this diary. Heh, she even said that maybe one day, when I have passed on, that somepony may dig it up and it’d become famous. I bet that’d never happen. I’m not special, and I probably have nothing special to put in this little book. But hey, she managed to get a green and purple one, so I’m happy.
Anyways, I should introduce myself to you… pony or whatever from the future! I am Spike the Dragon… yeah, a dragon! Isn't that cool? Meh, you future ponies probably don’t find that surprising. Anyways, I am purple with green spikes on my head and tail with green fin ears and a light tan belly. I’m not very big, but I’m only a baby dragon. But I know that in time I will become a big ferocious fire-breathing dragon! And I even have the fire-breathing part down!
But I guess that’s one thing I’m scared of though. You see, I’m Twilight Sparkle’s assistant/little brother/son all in one, and her friends, Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie, Applejack, Rainbow Dash, and Rarity are our best friends. I love them all a lot, especially Rarity, my crush. But I’ll outlive them all, and I’ll really miss them. And then, if I grow to be really huge, too huge to handle, I’ll have to leave before they die of age, and I wont be there for the funeral, and I won’t know that they’re gone, and… and…
It’s scary.
But I’ll ALWAYS have Twilight. Heh, she’s an alicorn. Maybe you guys from the future get to meet her? And her friends that I mentioned are the Elements of Harmony, so they should all be known for millions of years or something. Not me though. I was always the third wheel, the assistant, the extra that’s barely noticed. I didn’t do anything special. I was loved because I threw a powerful artifact to safety. The only thing I did very great was save the Crystal Ponies from their doom… once… after humiliating myself… and it was a panicked rescue. I wasn’t Spike the brave dragon who knew what he was doing. I was Spike the scared dragon who panicked and somehow got lucky and saved everypony. I mean, come on, I didn’t even know I could shoot out that much fire. It was the adrenaline rush.
Twilight says she loves me every night, but with every passing day… I just doubt it more and more. Sure I’m her #1 assistant and she hugs me and gives me attention sometimes but… Celestia Dammit, I’m her SLAVE! When she’s going out to save the day, and I try to help she says ‘Spike, stay here’, ‘Spike, clean up while I handle this’ or ‘I’m sorry, but you’re a baby dragon, and I don’t want you hurt!’ But really, I don’t see why she says that. Yes, I am a baby dragon. But I have scales that are so rough that diamond can’t cut through them. If I concentrate enough I can shoot fire balls, fire beams, and use fire in many other attacks. I’m smart, and for pony’s sake, I can even use my claws for several things. But I am seen as (Weak, slow, and) ineffectual. Why?
I’m just complaining… but I guess that’s what I do best. I love my friends… and they seem to love me, but… not as much as they love each other. It’s like, they have a stronger bond with each other than they have with me. And I do everything, anything to impress them, help them, and care for them as best as I can. But they just don’t seem to notice. And It’s totally not cool slamming doors in my face, forgetting me in big places, ignoring when I’m in pain, and forcing me to do things when I really don’t want to. It really, really sucks so bad.
And then, the worst part of what I go through is… Rarity. I love her, so much. I do whatever she asks. I want to be with her, but then, she treats me like a baby, and that spoils it. Twilight hatched me when she was like, six, and she’s twenty six now. Yeah. I’m really twenty years old, only six years apart from rarity, and she still babies me. She lets my size fool her. I don’t know if anypony noticed, but I’m pretty smart and mature to be a ‘baby’. The reason my babyish acts still exist is because I never got to meet anypony and learn new things besides new words and books. Twilight never let me go anywhere. I only recently started having friends when she did. So I got most of my maturity with books, while the babyish me never really left me completely.
And I am a baby. By dragon standards. I’m a young grown stallion by pony standards. I should be able to have more freedom. But no, I have to be… nopony.
I wish ponies would realise that I don’t want this! I don’t. It’s painful to be a grown baby, and I get nothing for the pain. Nothing to help, to heal. NOTHING!
Heh, I probably won’t ever get to be with Rarity. She thinks I’m a kid, and she KNOWS what I feel. She takes advantage of me! She knows how much I love her, so I’m her slave too! I know gentlecolts carry a lady’s bags… that’s usually one fifth of what Rarity makes me carry. Do you know how many times I strained my muscles to their max trying to carry so much luggage… that she never USES anyway? I remember when my back and muscles hurt so bad that I couldn’t move for hours. And nopony was there. Twilight and the gang were in the Everfree Forest solving a big problem. I never knew what the problem was because nopony thought to check with me before or after the problem happened. I was sitting there in pain for hours trying to move, and when I finally could move, here comes Twilight barging in the door with a big fucking smile on her face, hugging me to death while I’m in pain. I groaned and tried to cry out, but she hugged too tight and I nearly choked and suffocated to death. Nopony CARES!
I just wish I was more.. Appreciated. I want to be truly loved. And I don’t think I could ever have that. Nopony gives a care about Spike the dragon. Obviously, I wasn't meant to live a clear, good, normal life. It makes me Question why Twilight had to hatch ME. Why couldn't I just be with my mom and dad in the dragon mountains? Why couldn't I be truly happy?
But despite all of this, I love them. I love my friends. And if they ever read this, and I hope they don’t, I hope they try to help me. If not… well, I still love them. Even if they don’t love me at all. That’s all Diary. Good night!
~A depressed, but hopeful Spike
Am I dealing with way too many stories at once? Nooo! Of course not!
I say this way to much, but, OH MY BUCKING GOD, BEST FIC I'VE EVER READ! First thing I've seen EVER that appreciates Spike! Maybe that's because I mostly read random comedies but still, AWESOOOOOOOME!
Why is it that I react more happily to sadfics then comedyfics...
4472929 Thank you very much! And I love sadfics a lot too!
I like this very much. Will be watching from now on.
They should give spike more respect because he really does do anything to make his friends happy
Damn, pretty good, man. Really hope this doesn't end in suicide, but hey, by the way he's talkin', I wouldn't blame him.
Fav'd. It's always nice to get a look into the grim slavery that Spike lives in.
Though he needs to:
A) Learn the phrase "Go suck a bucket of dicks"
and
B) Go have some adventures on his own. He has scales better than plate mail, fire breath, claws and fangs that can shear through diamonds, a very high IQ, thumbs and a direct line to God/Celestia. He's better qualified for danger than any of them other than Twilight.
Or he could do the world a favor and eat that hideous crystal friendship tree. Damn thing is a crime against nature/equinity/aesthetics/architectural design.
4473332 Thank you thank you THANK YOU! Why am I getting so much positive attention. If you didn't know, I'm a newbie a writing. I've only recently started making stories. I'm glad you are following me. Oh I could just... just...
4474070 Yep, he's always in the background and he was my favorite character yesterday (I can never keep one favorite character. Today is Discord...)
4474269 Well.... you have to read to find out cause I havent decided yet. I'm glad you like this story. I really have improved in the short amount of time I've been a writer!
4475213 Thank you so much!
1) I argee!
2) He did that in dragon quest... he probably needs to be included in the girl's adventure so he can get in the hang of doing adventures. You know, train before your big quest?
3) Totally with you!
This right here is an unfortunate possible truth that makes the whole dang show tough to appreciate at times. With Spike in this state of mind, I think the best thing that could happen is what happened to Dave Lizewski, but with a more empowering outcome: the ponies all suffer through a broadcast in which he's being beaten to death. Then it cuts moments before he saves himself, leaving them all panicked and in tears.
But that's just my idea. As you were.
OMG THIS IS LIKE THE BEST THING EVER!!!!!!
YES! Exactly! Thank you! Finally somebody who gets it!
I freaking love this already.
I like this fix, I really do, but isn't this the same attitude that made Luna turn into Nightmare Moon? Never getting that sense of recognition that they actually did something important and significant?
Will this mean we will have a Nightmare Spike to worry about?
4487183 Yeah! He hosted a Bachelor Party!
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IT'S TOO LATE TO TURN BACK NOW
There should have been seven Elements of Harmony, not even all the present six make up the total colors of the rainbow on their own: Loyalty Red, Honesty Orange, Kindness Pink, Laughter Blue, Generosity Violet, and Magic Purple. Where's the green and yellow that makes up that rainbow beam anyways?!
4488643 actually, he was merely selected to host a bachelor party. And after the wedding proper, he said to the Mane Six "Wait til' you see the Bachelor Party." implying that he doesn't realize that the Bachelor Party comes before the wedding day and missed out on his opportunity to throw it for Shining. Either that or somehow he managed to make a reel-to-reel/ photo album of the party that he was about to show the others when they all got back home. *shrug*
OH COME ON!!! I JUST FINISHED WRITING THE FIRST FEW CHAPTERS OF A STORY ALMOST EXACTLY LIKE THIS YESTERDAY, AND EVERYONE HATED IT!!!!
6091758 what's your story called
6091758
Ooh, I'll check it out. And then give it a like.