1. I moved to Tumblr where I post blogs about Balan, my comfort character. I even made friends there who are also fans of Balan.

2. I'm focusing on writing my 4th fanfiction, Journeys with Balan. 2 chapters are already published, available to read in FFN, Wattpad, and AO3.

3. I'm in the process of healing after going through depression that was worse than I could've ever imagined.

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I know it's a couple days late, but I was seriously in awe about recent events to process everything. Considering what I was originally planning for the Furry Foray Festival Contest, I was honestly really disappointed with myself for only getting three-fifths of my project completed in time. In addition, some personal conflicts regarding my writing motivations and private commissions left me in a really depressed state for

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There are several things I wish to address in this blog post, the first and foremost of which is the reason why I took down my latest story, Let Me Forget.

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Since last week, I've been experiencing pain on my back, neck, and both of my arms. These have hindered me from getting a good night sleep. Every night, I applied different brands of liniment on the affected areas, as well as taking paracetamol to alleviate the pain, albeit temporarily. I began experiencing fatigue this week and it has hampered my daily routine. I don't know how long the side effects will last, but I will do the best I can to ease them with proper care and medication.

Wasn't expecting to post here again, but I almost offed myself last weekend, and I found some inspiration for an invader zim fic. It's here if you're interested.

Life Beyond Reason

"LIKE YOUR FATHER, YOU WILL GO THROUGH LIFE MAKING MISTAKE AFTER MISTAKE, HOLDING ON TO THINGS THAT DON'T EXIST! MAYBE YOU JUST HAVE TO SAVE YOURSELF FROM HURT! RUN AWAY BECAUSE IT WORKS! NO MORE SAND BETWEEN OUR TOES! NO MORE OCEANS - ONLY THE LONELIEST OF CITYSCAPES AND SOLITUDES FOR YOU TO ROT AWAY!"

Hey there everyone! It’s time for a news post, keeping you all up to date on what’s going on and all. But this week we’re going to start off with an odder bit of news that’s less to do with writing and more just to do with the personal goal of me getting healthier.

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Blog Number 69: A Coronavirus Update Edition

It's important to remember: a virus is not your only enemy in an outbreak. Some people will take advantage of the uncertainty and panic (and even altruism) to scam you. Stay safe online by following the W.H.O.'s guidelines below!

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We are all chemical processing plants.

Like those big, industrial complexes you drive by on the highway, with their tall chimneys and squat round tanks the size of a house, paying them little to no heed at all.

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As we are currently in a general election campaign in the UK, I am going to take Fluttershy Leans In as a parable of NHS bed blocking. A story which plays out as follows:

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I wrote recently about being on a diet and losing a lot of weight.

I mentioned that I had a digital scale that was only accurate up to 333 pounds. For any weight over that, it would read “EEEE.” I was on the diet for several weeks before I could even see a number on it, and that number was, of course, 333.0 pounds.

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SO! Chase the Wind (CtW) has been posted. Touch the Sky (TtS) will be going up some time later this week (expect it Thursday/Friday or so), provided I can stop fussing with the first chapter.

I was going to have anecdotal scenes with Tricks and the CMC posted in chapters of CtW, but I think I'm going to swap them over to TtS... CtW doesn't really have room in the outline for them, and it'll fit the theme/genres of TtS better anyways.

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I have to put Pandemic: Hope on hiatus to focus on a pressing matter.

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Before I say anything let me preface this with a statement warning that this blog will talk about depression and suicide. If that is something your either uncomfortable about or cant handle this is the point that you should stop reading and move on.

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Applejack is a farm girl... I mean farm mare that works long hours. Does she show signs of workaholism? So what is the difference between a work addiction and a healthy work ethic?

This video was made due to popular demand... 2 years after the fact. Hallelujah!

I have a lot of diagnosis. Bipolar type two. High Functioning Autism Spectrum Disorder. Gender Dysphoria. Attention Deficit Disorder. Executive Dysfunction Disorder. Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. These are fun as they all mix together in just the most fun ways. Can't pay attention because of the ADD, can't force through it because of the EDD, Don't have people in part thanks to ASD, in a depressive swing downwards thanks to the Bipolar, and fucking stressed because of all of that and the

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I have decided to seek help from a professional. I have signed up for individual psychotherapy and I will expect their call in the next couple of days for a brief screening.

I've been thinking about this for a very long time and I've been apprehensive because of how expensive it is, but anything is better than nothing. Since I've been saving a lot of income, I'm going to spend some of it for useful purposes and therapy is going to be one of them.

Good day/night, people! I'm still alive and kicking, not to worry. Working on a new story as we speak.

Here have a look-see:

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2023 is almost over.

Quite a few things have happened.

I got a new job and my mental health has improved since then.

I've been creating again after over a year of nothing. I'm hoping to sell at a con just to say I tried.

I also got engaged.

I've felt like a failure, merely existing. I hated it. Feeling the way I did absolutely sucked. Now I'm slowly finding myself again. I'm doing a little better now.

I'm thankful I'm still alive.