To My Dearest of Friends

by The Devious Writer

Try, Try Again

You said no. That’s fine, had a relative over, bad timing. Makes sense, stuff happens! Ran off before I could ask if I could come tomorrow, but you probably didn’t want to be late and miss your cousin. I get it.

You know, I’m thinking back to the election day again. You mentioned everything I did that day, but there’s a lot more, isn’t there? You probably had so much stuff pent up, I don’t even know. I just wonder sometimes, how horrible was I? All the stuff I did to you, how much did I hurt you? And the Crusaders? I hope you know I regret it everyday. I’m reminded everyday when I see you girls, and I know our friendship is more a formality than anything.

I wish there was really something like a fresh start. But scars run deep, don’t they? How do you suppose I’ll get rid of years of antagonism and hate? How can I tame a beast I’ve beaten over and over? How can I make you girls like me when all you do is run away? Why can’t you see me as anything other than what I was? How am I supposed to change if all you do is see me the same as I was? I hate this! I just don’t understand how you ponies work! I don’t get friendship! I want to, but you ponies never give me a chance! You act like we’re friends, but every time, I’m excluded. Every time, I’m that pony no one invited!

I don’t get social cues. Not in the way I should. My Cutie Mark, when I got it, I was told it was for getting ponies to listen to me. I always noticed subtle things ponies did. Mother taught me what they meant. How I should use that to strike them down before they got me. I hate her. She doesn’t know anything. If not for daddy, she’d be a bitless beggar to be spat on. How daddy deals with her irksome personality, I’ll never know.

Ugh, enough about her. I’ll ask you again tomorrow. She’s only visiting for a day, you said. I’ll hold you to that. Probably wanted to make sure she didn’t stay long enough for me to realize she doesn’t exist. Then we’ll catch up.

Ugh, shut up, mother!

~DT

Comments

[Featherflutter]

Very interesting way to display the plot in the story, kinda like the scootaloo diaries. I patiently await more

[The Devious Writer]

6667014 Thank you!

[Fluttercheer]

Wow, interesting! That's a similar idea to what I wrote, except that Diamond Tiara is writing to nopony in particular and that it's set before she became good.
Very deep, I hope you continue soon!

[The Devious Writer]

6706728 Thank you for reading! I'm not sure if I'll be continuing; this was originally going to build up to another fic idea I had, but that fic got hugely altered by the season finale, and I might just release that with no ties to this.

The amount of school work I had was the reason I stopped with this one. I have a break in 2 weeks, I hope I can still write something out with these ideas in my head by then!

[Fluttercheer]

6706751

this was originally going to build up to another fic idea I had, but that fic got hugely altered by the season finale, and I might just release that with no ties to this.

A fic about Diamond Tiara? How could the Finale alter such a fic?

[The Devious Writer]

6706770 I'll give you a hint; it's called Repentance.

[Fluttercheer]

6706795

I see. I was just wondering how the Season 5 Finale could force you to change your plan for this fic.
Anyway, I hope you'll continue with anything you wanted to write before the Finale, both with this fic as well as with the sequel.