Living In Your Letters

by mellon collie

There'll always be a place for you in my heart

Hey, AJ.

I'm really sorry that I haven't been writing you back. Things have been.. tough.

The tour hasn't been the greatest so far. Maybe expecting it to be the best three months of my life was a bad idea. I never thought it would be so physically taxing. My wings feel so numb after shows sometimes. Can you believe it? World's greatest flier can't even handle a Wonderbolts tour. Ha. I have to preen myself everyday now. It kinda sucks doing it myself again.

It's hard, not being able to see you all the time. I expected to be fine on my own, but I guess my expectations are never true to reality. I don't like waking up in a fine enough hotel bed every morning, alone and uncomfortable. I miss waking up next to you, seeing you breathe softly and watching your chest rising and falling with your mane everywhere. I miss the way you held me while we slept, so close and comforting.

What I'm trying to say is, I miss you, Applejack.

I don't care if that sounds lame but it's the truth

I wish I could be more open with you. I know I'm not the best with words. I never have been and I'm sorry. That's another reason why I haven't been writing you back. I just.. don't know what to say to you.

There are only so many ways to say I love you before it stops meaning anything.

I'm gonna try to tell you in my own way.

You mean the world to me, AJ. I don't know where I'd be without you. Just thinking about you brightens up my day. I felt so awful before writing this, but I saw a picture of you and now I feel like I'm walking on clouds (not literally).

Sometimes I wonder, is the Wonderbolts really where I'm meant to be? Am I going to be with them my whole life? Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it if I can't be with you. I've been working towards getting here my whole life, and now that I'm a member, I'm sure that I would give them up for you in a heartbeat. No questions asked.

When I was accepted in, I saw the look on your face, that smile filled with pride and congratulations and pure joy. And I knew that I would give up anything for you. I was on top of the world already, but seeing you made me feel like I could be everything.

But you already are my everything.

That was stupidly sappy what does "be everything" even mean

Thank you, Applejack. You are the anchor that keeps my hooves on the ground and makes every day worth living. Knowing that I'm yours makes my heart soar higher than my wings could ever dream of taking me.

I love you. Always and forever. Never forget that.

Signed,
Rainbow Dash

Author's Note:

Comments

[Starlight Nova]

a short story that was formed half out of writer's block and half out of my own experiences

What do you mean by that?

[mellon collie]

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this story started out as a joke. i was like, "what if i got through my writers block by writing about it" and i just kind of built on it from there. i based a lot of the story on things that i've felt/gone through in the past

[Finelita]

It’s a really touching letter.

[SnowOriole]

I adore your writing style and this story!

[mellon collie]

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thank you

[Voidwalker]

What a beautiful tale.
The Wonderbolts are an elite flying group and just as she had to acknowledge, their routines put massive strain on their bodies. As with any career in any physically demanding field, she would be able to squeeze a couple of years out, maybe a decade or so, before the consequences of such a lifestyle would start to catch up to her. At that point, she either resigns herself to a sideline job, maybe something in administration or rookie training or whatever, or she denies the truth and keeps pushing herself until she eventually breaks. I can't see her enjoy the former, and I can't see her friends letting the latter happen.
Dropping the 'Bolts for AJ? Oh yes, I can totally see that happening. I even like to think it's not a question of 'if', but 'when'. And I can't imagine that AJ isn't aware of that. Rainbow always had a tendency to be a little bit more shortsighted. As far as my opinion is concerned, same can't be said about AJ. Because of that, I would actually love to see this story's other side. See how AJ is doing, how she's dealing with this.

I'm glad you managed to push through your writer's block. This story turned out great.

Thank you.

[mellon collie]

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if i can come up with any good ideas for it, i might make a follow-up from aj's point of view.
thank you for the feedback.