Writing is such an emotional experience for me.

I pour so much of my heart into the words I type out onto my pages.
I invest countless hours into research and finding inspiration from worthwhile sources.

I chew it all together into a legible and hopefully enjoyable medium that I share with those who'd want to see it.
Yet as I sit here and slam my face into my keyboard over and over and over again...
I feel like at any given moment I'm two steps from ripping everything up and throwing in the towel.
That, or devote myself and every waking moment of my being to hammering out the entirety of a story in one long burnout session of word vomit and polishing it later.

frustration is the word I'm looking for.

I need to look at the definitions for words a LOT more often

lotta words I thought I knew the meaning to because of the context I saw them in only for me to not quite be on point with the definition.
I wasn't far off at least, in the sense it doesn't ruin the dialogue I'm going for, but it isn't 100% what I had in mind either.

oh well, its a minor thing, not worth getting upset over.
English is such a confusing language sometimes

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the silver lining to it all is that I've been putting work into future encounters and planned sequences; whenever I get stuck on a part of the current chapter, I diverge and work on elements of a future chapter.

I have an entire folder dedicated to scratch paper for ideas, future segments, character interactions, and the like.
So, at the very least, while current chapter progress has been regrettably slow (to an unacceptable degree), I haven't been completely wasting my time in terms of story content overall.

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I know that feeling and situation. Hope some of the hits where rather of the good kind. Good to see you activ at all so i have hoped of a update or three in this year

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life's been hitting me in unexpected ways lately, but I'm doing my best to keep at it when I can.

sorry for the lack of content