Articulate

by Starlight Uplifting

Greyscale's Presentation

I stood up, my name being called for my presentation. This wasn't as hard for me as it was for Cobalt. Hut this would be a big help in his life. I know it. Because he just gave me something to work into my presentation. He successfully hid his anxiety for a presentation. I can find a way to help bring awareness. Mostly to our teacher, Ms. Cardinal.

I began, "Today, I will be presenting to you all, about something you may mistake for being shy, or nervous. Social Anxiety. You may have heard the phrase, but if you knew what it was and what it meant. Maybe you wouldn't brush it aside? Social Anxiety, the mental illness, can be as weak as being afraid of eyes being on you and the judgement of those the eyes belong to. To fearing crowds and interaction with others."

Cobalt looked stunned. I guess he didn't know what I was presenting. Because I didn't feel the need to practice this.

"For example, the pony who presented before me. He is my best friend, and he has social anxiety. He fears your judgement. But you all watched him present without issue, right? How can that be? Because he isn't suffering from the harshest forms of social anxiety. He was able to look past your possible judgement. Even without help from our teacher."

Ms. Cardinal now wore a look of shock, probably from being called out as unhelpful to others.

"She, like many of you may say, thought my poor friend was just nervous-" I added some bitterness to my voice, to show how awful that was, "-but you'd be wrong. It's a fear. A legitimate, paralyzing fear for many out there. Next to heights it is the most common fear. And yet, we still brush it aside. Is it because we assume that our only true mental illnesses must be Schizophrenia? Depression? Dementia? Psychosis? Or is it because we just don't understand the struggles of those who battle such a fear? Any questions?"

The teacher immediately spoke, "In what way is Social Anxiety a mental illness?"

"Good Question, but aren't you a psychology teacher? Shouldn't you understand what such a thing is and how it affects ponies? You can't be seriously asking me, a student, to tell you this." Students laughed and did the signature 'Oooh'.

She glared daggers, "You get an A on the project, but you also get a trip to the detention room."

"What? Why?"

"Insulting a teacher. That's against school codes."

"NO!"

I looked to see who stuck up for me. The one standing... was Cobalt.

"He doesn't deserve detention for that. It's not his fault you can't understand ponies who aren't as lucky as you to have no issue's with speaking!"

She opened her mouth to respond.

"NO! I'm not done yet Ms. Cardinal. You barely care about your students. If I'm not mistaken, you have a student commit suicide last year, and this year you barely ever ask students if they are okay if they show signs of problems. Steel Rig has bruises every day, did you ask if he was having trouble at home? I'll bet not! Clear Crystals has scars up her hooves, do you even care? Probably not. What about Greyscale's PTSD from the hurricane he nearly died in when he was 6? You aren't teaching for the kids, you're teach for that PAYCHECK. Otherwise Sandstorm's BPD would've been addressed!"

The class went quiet. Staring in shock. Ms. Cardinal looks at the students Cobalt mentioned. The scars were clear as day on Crystal's hooves. The black eye Steel had stuck out like a sore thumb. Sandstorm looked down towards the ground, confirming what Cobalt said with a small "He's not wrong..."

"Get out. Both of you. Detention." She snarled.

We walked towards the detention room. Cobalt stopped me for a moment. "I'm sorry to have brought up your problems. I was...trying to make a point."

"I get it. I did the same with your social anxiety. We're even. But how'd you know Steel was being abused, Crystal was depressed, and Sandstorm had BPD?"

"They meet the qualifications. Steel flinches every time some goes from a high hoof or throws a ball in gym. He also has a few journal entries I've seen where he talks about what his dad does to him. Crystal was tough to understand until I saw her being harassed by those preppy mares in the cafeteria. Then it all made sense. She's been outcasted. Sandstorm goes through mood swings, has made dozens of impulsive decisions, and never had a stable relationship."

"Wow. You're an observer." I replied continuing the walk to detention.

"Yeah. I look around a lot. Hoping that the ponies around me aren't unlucky enough to have problems like we do." He said, sounding so gentle. I wished I could tell him.

But not then, and not yet.

Author's Note:

Crystal will get a story named "Out Of It", Sandstorm will have a short therapy session with Yukon Rose in "Yukon's Assistance", and Steel will have a story entitled "Breakdown". The sequel to this will be a lovely one entitled, "Bonds".

Comments

[randome284]

A bit fast paced. I feel as if more details could've been added. But overall, it was good. I enjoyed reading it. Will be sure to read the side-stories and sequels when they come out.

[Starlight Uplifting]

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It wasn't supposed to be a novel. None of my stories are supposed to be like that. And a fast paced story is normal for me. Pacing was not a strong suit and I know it well. Thanks for giving it a read.

[Speedy Silverstreak]

Teacher must be fired......

PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[randome284]

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Novels are 40k+ words, from what I remember, so I doubt it could've been one. But, yes, I understand. Pacing isn't that easy. I'm not much of a writer, and especially not a good one. So I can't really offer any good advice for that. You can try to add more details around the place. Might help a bit.

And, you're welcome. I'm glad to have read it, because I enjoyed it.

[Starlight Uplifting]

8490867
I see you missed the point. This was the first of the future, more in depth dramatic situations. If you expected overwhelming debating with oneself and horrible conflict, you haven't figured out what the message is.
8490708
That's why there will be a sequel, a longer more fleshed out sequel.
8490775
I'll figure it all out with time as a guide. Advice isn't the problem it's motivations. I don't have the motivation to boost the story's length.

[EverfreePony]

Sometimes one doesn't need an epic adventure to tell an important story; a short slice of life is all it takes.
This one started a little abruptly, but as it progressed, the pacing and flow became far more even and enjoyable Just be aware that you have slipped from past to present tense in the middle of the first chapter.

Overall, it was an intriguing read, a show of true friendship and a good demonstration of the overlooked problems. Sadly, the "counselor" that used to be in my school could easily top Ms. Cardinal. I swore that if I ever had some issue, I'd talk to anyone but her... But I'm getting of track here. You did really nice in presenting a possible way to mask the anxiety, hopefully it will help someone reading the story Oh, by the way, would you be willing to have a talk about the grammar rules of direct speech?

Anyway, I'm looking forward to what you can come up with for the other ponies! Tracking and upvoted

[Starlight Uplifting]

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I've been practicing these things since I took my break from this website. So no, I don't wish to partake in a conversation about grammatical rules. Glad you liked it though, I don't really know where to go from here.

[EverfreePony]

8644852
Alright, you are welcome

Glad you liked it though, I don't really know where to go from here.

With what you want to go where, if I may ask? The sequels?

[Starlight Uplifting]

8644857
Precisely. Sequels are hard to work with. I don't know if you've tried writing a sequel, but I personally can't come up with new conflicts.

[EverfreePony]

8644893
I see. I haven't had the pleasure to try it out yet, but I think I know what you mean. Maybe the strain of keeping the same style and spirit of the previous story is also a factor?

[Starlight Uplifting]

8644915
Yeah.