Light of an Angel

by SonicRainbowDash

In the depths of an alleyway

LAST WARNING: contains themes of self-harm and suicide

In the depths of an alleyway in the very early hours of a Wednesday morning, Rainbow Dash sat in a puddle of blood; her own. How had she ended up like this? There she sat with bleeding wrists, tears staining her pale face, her mucky clothes soaking up the blood surrounding her. Why was she still here, after all the therapy sessions, support, guidance and help she had been given, why was she still 'unwell' as it had been put so many times. She had given up on anti- depressant pills long ago. They never helped anyway. What had caused this?

Rainbow Dash's soft, despair- stricken cries echoed through the cold, crisp air, sending shivers down her spine, both from her own cries and the cold night air. No one was here to hear her cry. To hear her mourn. That was good thing. Let them all think she was alright. Let them all believe she was done crying. Everyone knows that the loss of a loved one is a terrible thing. Many struggle to recover from such trauma, and very few live through it.

One year. One god-damn year the therapist had said, it would all pass in a year. Yet here she was, still bleeding, three years later. What a load of bullshit that jerk had sprouted. "You'll learn to forget in time, Ms Dash, you just have to start letting yourself go"
Well, that's one bit of advice that helped, Doc Rainbow thought sourly, picking up the broken shard of glass that sat next to her, and pressing it firmly to the soft skin protecting the veins in her wrist. I'm definitely letting myself go

"Rainbow Dash?" Rainbow gasped at the familiar voice, her blurry, tear-filled eyes not looking away from her crimson carpus. "What're you doing here?" Rainbow let out a soft cry, turning her head to the sound of her girlfriend's worried voice.

Looking past her limp rainbow bangs, Dash stared at the beautiful young woman with the navy blue hair that stood above her. Twilight Sparkle held herself with a strong pose, her face filled with despair and shock. In her arms, she held a blanket and a bag of bandages, like she somehow knew what Rainbow Dash had done.

Without waiting for a response from Rainbow, Twilight rushed forward and knelt down in front of her distraught lover. Gently taking Rainbow's wrists in her hands, being careful not to lay a finger on the open wounds, she started to use the bandages to wipe away the majority of the blood. The blood had stopped flowing.
"What were you thinking, Rainbow?" Rainbow Dash lowered her head, her whole body quivering under Twilight's touch. "Why would you be so stupid as to... to..." Twilight sighed shakily as she proceeded to start wrapping up the shredded joints.

A silence fell in the dark alley, leaving nothing but the sound of Rainbow's heart-wrenching cry. Once Twilight had finished with Rainbow Dash's wrists, the wounds now tightly wrapped in white bandages, preventing any more life from possibly falling away, she reached behind her and grabbed the blanket she had brought with her. Slinging it over Rainbow, she sat down next to her on the cold, hard, cobbled ground, not caring for the blood soaking into her clothes as it had Rainbow's. She rested her head back against the stone wall and sighed.

At long last, Rainbow turned to look into the eyes of her girlfriend. Tears welled up even more as she stared intensely into the purple orbs that met her gaze.
"You're so beautiful, Twi" she reached a blood stained hand out from under the blanket and across to caress Twilight's face. Twilight stared back lovingly, tears filling up in her own eyes. Twilight covered Rainbow's hand with her own, leaning into the touch.
"Why would you do it Rainbow? I know you've done it before-" Twilight started, removing her hand from Rainbow's, who's hand fell back into her own lap as she tried, to no avail, to defend herself against Twilight's accusation. "Don't pretend i didn't know. I'm smarter than that, remember?" A small chuckle elevated from Dash, earning a small smile from Twilight, only for it to fall as she once again started talking, looking down at the blanket "But, why now? Why this bad now? You've... never gone this far before...." She looked up into Rainbow's eyes, pleading for an answer. Dash was silent for a few moments before she pulled Twilight into a firm hug.
"I... I miss you so much, Twi" She whispered into her ear "They said I could forget, forget you and keep on living. But how could I? I still loved you" She pulled away from the hug, looking deep into Twilight's eyes. "I can't live without you..."

Twilight stared back, tears once again welling in her eyes, spilling over her cheeks as she returned the embrace tightly.
"You're so stupid, Rainbow," She croaked, her voice cracking as she spoke "This wasn't the answer! You didn't have to-"
"That's the thing. I did. I did have to." Rainbow pulled out of the embrace and interlocked her hands with Twilight's, not breaking her desperate stare directed at Twilight. "What's the point in me living if every second of the day, all I think about is you, and how you always made me happy? I couldn't go on. Not happily. Not without you."

Neither girl spoke again, they simply stayed sitting, eyes locked, their hands intertwined lovingly, no more words spoken, just the silent whisper; 'I love you' as the world around them fell away.

The body of Rainbow Prism Dash was found at 5:04am on the 5th November 2014 on St Angel Street. Cause of death: suicide

Author's Note:

TA-DA! a randomly depressing short story for everyone! completed in half an hour. I know it's not great, but i had this sudden stroke of writers' inspiration and couldn't just leave it dead (no pun intended) Sorry if this isn't the best story ever, but, I try!
-SRD
P.S- The date mentioned is totally random, i don't even know if that is actually a Wednesday, i just picked it randomly :D

Comments

[Dynasty-Kaine]

I liked it despite the depressing, broken hearted air about it. There were a few small wording issues I had here and there.

How had she come to of gotten here?

I feel that could be worded little better.

Sat with bleeding wrists

I personally would add She to the start of that sentence, but that's me.

One year. one god-damn

oops

Neither girl spoke again, they simply stayed sat,

Last quip I had was that sitting would probably work better there for overall flow.

Like/fave

[Punk Rock Prom Queen]

Wow for such a short story it really managed to hit me in the feels. Either that or my hormones are acting up, eh. Overall excellent work, a few wording errors, but you managed to pull it off. Self harm and suicide fics tend to hard to pull off without sounding cliche, however, you did find a decent middle ground with it so liked and a fav.

[SonicRainbowDash]

4240240 thank you! looking back at it, i agree that some parts could've been worded better. My excuse? It was late, I couldn't concentrate *whinewhinewhine* thanks for pointing them out!

[SonicRainbowDash]

4241424 Thank you so very much!

[Raidah]

4242255 five people who have no soul.

[Tarlek]

I'm just noting that my like is for the story not the content... As in its for how it was written rather than what it was written about.

[Kodeake]

You're gonna get a lot of dislikes for the content, despite the numerous warnings you put up, witch is both unfortunate and a little stupid.

Oh, and I so called it. I knew Twi was dead. But that's beside the point.

This fic was well written, the premise was solid and the ideas were sound. Characterization was about as spot-on as it could be in this situation, and it's all around a heartbreaking story of love loss and suicide.... that should so be a name of a book.... but I digress.

I have nothing more to say, other than it made me think, which is rather impressive in its own right.

[SonicRainbowDash]

4243524 Yeah i agree... Thank you for the feedback, i really appreciate it!

[Dynasty-Kaine]

4242516 As always, You're welcome!

[Brilliant Bubbles]

Wow! Great story! How did you do this in a half hour????? I am amazed!;) nice job!

[Tofu-Monstrosity]

Well done. I know that this subject is hard to write but I feel you conveyed the subject matter quite well. Your use of imagery was very well written.

[DesolatedBrony]

I loved it

[Alamandir]

Is it weird that rather than feel depressed by the suicide and dark themes, I felt happy because of the romance underneath?
Also, the date specified actually IS a Wednesday.

[SonicRainbowDash]

4401303 no that's how i feel when i read stories like this! Hence why i wrote one trying to get the same result! I'm glad i did haha, seriously!? i must be psychic!

[Magic Dreams]

I teared up a bit, Beautiful.

[femikol]

Holy-! That was a good story! And I hate tragedy! Great job!

[UnlnownPone]

I'M CONFUSED