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// In the depths of an alleyway 
// Story: Light of an Angel 
// by SonicRainbowDash 
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LAST WARNING: contains themes of self-harm and suicide



In the depths of an alleyway in the very early hours of a Wednesday morning, Rainbow Dash sat in a puddle of blood; her own. How had she ended up like this? There she sat with bleeding wrists, tears staining her pale face, her mucky clothes soaking up the blood surrounding her. Why was she still here, after all the therapy sessions, support, guidance and help she had been given, why was she still 'unwell' as it had been put so many times. She had given up on anti- depressant pills long ago. They never helped anyway. What had caused this? 

Rainbow Dash's soft, despair- stricken cries echoed through the cold, crisp air, sending shivers down her spine, both from her own cries and the cold night air. No one was here to hear her cry. To hear her mourn. That was good thing. Let them all think she was alright. Let them all believe she was done crying. Everyone knows that the loss of a loved one is a terrible thing. Many struggle to recover from such trauma, and very few live through it. 

One year. One god-damn year the therapist had said, it would all pass in a year. Yet here she was, still bleeding, three years later. What a load of bullshit that jerk had sprouted. "You'll learn to forget in time, Ms Dash, you just have to start letting yourself go" 
Well, that's one bit of advice that helped, Doc Rainbow thought sourly, picking up the broken shard of glass that sat next to her, and pressing it firmly to the soft skin protecting the veins in her wrist. I'm definitely letting myself go

"Rainbow Dash?" Rainbow gasped at the familiar voice, her blurry, tear-filled eyes not looking away from her crimson carpus. "What're you doing here?" Rainbow let out a soft cry, turning her head to the sound of her girlfriend's worried voice. 

Looking past her limp rainbow bangs, Dash stared at the beautiful young woman with the navy blue hair that stood above her. Twilight Sparkle held herself with a strong pose, her face filled with despair and shock. In her arms, she held a blanket and a bag of bandages, like she somehow knew what Rainbow Dash had done. 

Without waiting for a response from Rainbow, Twilight rushed forward and knelt down in front of her distraught lover. Gently taking Rainbow's wrists in her hands, being careful not to lay a finger on the open wounds, she started to use the bandages to wipe away the majority of the blood. The blood had stopped flowing.  
"What were you thinking, Rainbow?" Rainbow Dash lowered her head, her whole body quivering under Twilight's touch. "Why would you be so stupid as to... to..." Twilight sighed shakily as she proceeded to start wrapping up the shredded joints. 

A silence fell in the dark alley, leaving nothing but the sound of Rainbow's heart-wrenching cry. Once Twilight had finished with Rainbow Dash's wrists, the wounds now tightly wrapped in white bandages, preventing any more life from possibly falling away, she reached behind her and grabbed the blanket she had brought with her. Slinging it over Rainbow, she sat down next to her on the cold, hard, cobbled ground, not caring for the blood soaking into her clothes as it had Rainbow's. She rested her head back against the stone wall and sighed. 

At long last, Rainbow turned to look into the eyes of her girlfriend. Tears welled up even more as she stared intensely into the purple orbs that met her gaze. 
"You're so beautiful, Twi" she reached a blood stained hand out from under the blanket and across to caress Twilight's face. Twilight stared back lovingly, tears filling up in her own eyes. Twilight covered Rainbow's hand with her own, leaning into the touch. 
"Why would you do it Rainbow? I know you've done it before-" Twilight started, removing her hand from Rainbow's, who's hand fell back into her own lap as she tried, to no avail, to defend herself against Twilight's accusation. "Don't pretend i didn't know. I'm smarter than that, remember?" A small chuckle elevated from Dash, earning a small smile from Twilight, only for it to fall as she once again started talking, looking down at the blanket "But, why now? Why this bad now? You've... never gone this far before...." She looked up into Rainbow's eyes, pleading for an answer. Dash was silent for a few moments before she pulled Twilight into a firm hug. 
"I... I miss you so much, Twi" She whispered into her ear "They said I could forget, forget you and keep on living. But how could I? I still loved you" She pulled away from the hug, looking deep into Twilight's eyes. "I can't live without you..." 

Twilight stared back, tears once again welling in her eyes, spilling over her cheeks as she returned the embrace tightly.  
"You're so stupid, Rainbow," She croaked, her voice cracking as she spoke "This wasn't the answer! You didn't have to-"
"That's the thing. I did. I did have to." Rainbow pulled out of the embrace and interlocked her hands with Twilight's, not breaking her desperate stare directed at Twilight. "What's the point in me living if every second of the day, all I think about is you, and how you always made me happy? I couldn't go on. Not happily. Not without you." 

Neither girl spoke again, they simply stayed sitting, eyes locked, their hands intertwined lovingly, no more words spoken, just the silent whisper; 'I love you' as the world around them fell away.

The body of Rainbow Prism Dash was found at 5:04am on the 5th November 2014 on St Angel Street. Cause of death: suicide