All at once, I lost everything in my life, and was swept away to a new world in the body of this small... horse... thing. What now? Will I be able to find new meaning in this new world? Will I be able to get over the loss I've experienced? Will I ever confront that deep dark secret that I keep even from myself?

...and will I ever get used to not having hands?

Wooo my first fic ever! Always been a big fan of HiE fics so decided to give it a shot myself. Hopefully it isn't too depressing at the start, I have some cute ideas for some wholesome moments later on.

Edit 4/16/24: 250 LIKES!!! I'm running out of ways to say thank you!! But THANK YOU!!!

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Edit 3/15/24: FEATURED?! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
Thank you all so much for all the support so far!! I wouldn't have ever thought that a little story I made on a whim would grow so large this quickly! I'll be trying my hardest to get new chapters out for you all >:3

Note: Tags may update as I continue the story. I’ll add tags as I introduce important characters.
Also, do note that this fic will contain transgender themes. If that bothers you, please leave.

Inspired by Greenhorne's Trust Once Lost and Boopy Doopy's Beyond Me.

Cover by Fireglow!

The pony that came back after 1000 years of exile to the moon was not the pony that Celestia expected. Instead of the menacing figure of Nightmare Moon what she instead got was a madly cackling alicorn rolling in a grassy field occasionally taking a break to stroke the lush green plants as if they were the most fascinating thing in the world.

While this was certainly better than the alternative Celestia was a bit miffed that her sister had not even acknowledged her presence before going to play in the grass. How could grass be more interesting than her?

Tanya Degurechaff gets tossed into Equestria and transformed into a Changeling Queen. It's a nice retirement from modern warfare as an aerial mage. Then Queen Chrysalis attacks and forces her out of retirement. Historians refer to this as 'a bit of an oopsie.'

Tanya is reborn again. It is her third life. It`s okay she thinks. She have excellent carier path before her in the weather control system. Her attention span problems DOES NOT hamper her at all, no matter what her friends says. Curse you, Being X, for this subpar brain!

(So i was reading a crossover between the "My little pony" and "Saga of Tanya the Evil", where Tanya was reborn as a changeling and then, because of the name of the said story, i was struck by a wild idea, a spark of inspiration for a different canon character, in which Tanya the Evil can be reborn. And nobody would have notice the difference! In certain circumstances (c)). Surprisingly, it is Cadence.)

Warning. This is badly written, this is just a first draft and i dearly hope what some better author will pick this idea and make it work, but i really want to share it. English is not my native language, tho.