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Dusk Melody


I wish I was enough. But I'm not and never will be.

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    Goodbye

    I tried
    I'm tired
    I'm sorry

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    I'm tired.
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    Tired of feeling worthless.

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  • 173 weeks
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Feb
19th
2024

Goodbye · 1:37pm February 19th

I tried
I'm tired
I'm sorry

Report Dusk Melody · 764 views ·
Comments ( 32 )

Are you quitting the Fandom? :rainbowhuh:

Hey, don't do anything drastic. Things do get better. Maybe take a nap and try to calm down.

Ok immediate red flags! Are you ok? Do you need to talk to someone? If so, you always know my DMs are always open (as if I ever sign out).

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Who would miss me if I did.

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No, they don't.

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Everyone who reads and enjoys your stories would definitely miss you.

And yes, things do get better. How many people on this very site have hit rock bottom, only to be convinced to reverse course, and be thankful they did because of how things are a year or so down the line? Things may still be hard, but they can get better.

Dusk, if this is what I think it is, don't you fucking dare take your life!

You have people that care about you, more than you realize, and if you end your life, you're just gonna be letting those dark thoughts win. Do not let that happen. Just stay positive, and stay alive, please!

Dont do it buddy, it aint worth it. Your a unique person in this world.

No matter what you think you are, no matter what term you use; it's never the whole truth. We can hit rock bottom, which means only way to go is up. Sometimes mental spirals are spirals because we are spinning around and avoiding the positives in a bid to just go down. Please, if you have something serious on the brain or think hurting yourself, physically or emotionally, will help vent it? Stop. Just stop. I've been there, I've known it first hand and I've seen it in other people.

Things are never as bad as they seem to be. And if professional help is needed, it can be found. If this is as serious as I fear it sounds, try some of these-
https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/

Who would miss me if I did.

More than you'd guess, some you can't possibly know right now. All the people who would meet you in the future, and all of those who you've touched in even the smallest way. Nobody wishes harm like this on anybody; no one with a working conscious.

We're a social species. And their is never anything shameful about seeking help. And if it isn't as serious as it seems, I apologize. I'm just rather careful about this subject.

i dont know you, but i am here cause people that do saw your pain and are doing everything they can to help. i am also tired and depressed so i really get it but maybe try for at least one more day? there are people that care and their efforts to help ripple out to effect people you've never met. maybe reach out to a few of them?

NO!
Hey buddy
You think you're alone?
Well Buddy
You got someone on the discord server who told me
so you aren't alone
You have so many hidden community members who are here for you buddy!
And well? To be honest? Life does suck nowadays
Its gotten terrible these days
But I don't think you should give up hope
Whether it be to Get to brighter times
Or Just to spite the universe saying "i shall stand against you!" its best to try to keep going
Besides?
Who would miss you?
we all would
We may not have noticed you before
But we see you now
And thats why you're never alone
All it takes is a cry for help and we will come
So please buddy
DONT GIVE UP!

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Trust me
Think of What happened in 2020
We survived that year!
And we made it through it
It may seem hopeless
But It doesn't take a sun to light up the sky
Sometimes all it takes is small light

Please stick around. You're a wonderful writer with friends who would miss you, and the world would be worse off without your work in it.

I'm always here for ya if you need someone to talk to for anytthing^^ pleade don't go <'3

Why do you feel this way?

0800 689 5652 for the UK Hotline, please call them if you're thinking of suicide.

Lots of bronies here probably don't know you that much and probably can't really get what you're going through.
Would you mind talking about yourself? I'm sure whatever it is keeping you like this, we can help out as a whole.
I like quite a few of your stories and you can tell better ones with the life you have, I would know.

It's been a long time since we talked, but me and many others would grieve you if you were gone. Things are never over if you keep forging through.

I don't think being tired is something you need to be sorry for. Or trying and not getting where you feel you need to be yet. That's part of all of our experiences. Trying, getting tired, and trying again.
Sometimes we get something right, and I don't think we always get a choice on whether that happens, because not everything is always fair. What we do get a choice on, though, is how we impact and build on the lives around us with our efforts. And building other people takes a bit away from us every time; you commit a little of yourself, invest a bit, to see someone else succeed, and that can be exhausting.

I'm sorry you're tired. I hope you can find some comfort, some return of energy from those who care about you around you. It does get better. The love we invest in others and ourselves does pay off in time.

I just read this message and think of the one very much like it I wrote 10 years ago and wish I could give back something. Please don't give up. It will get better <3

Just letting you all of you know I'm not planning to kill myself.

I'm just tired, that's all

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That's honestly the best news we could ever hear.

Comment posted by Artist deleted February 19th

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I never said I was going to kill myself. I don't want or expect any sympathy.

The goodbye was in regards to leaving the site for a while.

I tried to write something, anything, but I can't. I'm tired.

I will be sure to mind what I post in future so as not to alarm anyone.

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Thank you and I was asked to delete my comment, because it seemed rude but no, it wasn’t.

5769014
I wonder how in the world people even jumped to this conclusion. Like, one odd wording in the blog and you get the whole fimfic police on your doorstep?


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it seemed rude but no, it wasn’t.

Then why do you feel the need of explaining yourself like you're guilty of something?

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I’m not guilty of anything, but since you blocked me, maybe we shouldn’t even be talking anymore.

Huk

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What you're describing sounds like a classic case of burnout. It can suck the energy out of you and leave you miserable and always tired.

Take some time off, relax, recharge, and return once you feel better. Take as much time as you need.

I wish you luck :twilightsmile:

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Is it possible that you don’t like me, for some weird unfathomable reason?

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“Goodbye” can mean a lot of things. Without any sort of context, people are bound to worry. Here on FimFic, we look out for each other. We care about each other, hence the worry.

Weʼre glad youʼre okay.

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Bro, are you for real? Also, we were supposed not to talk, so bye.

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It's more that we don't want to see people take their own life. So while the wording made us think that Dusk was about to do something really bad, it's better to take the chance to try and help her than not do anything and end up regretting our choice to just sit in the sidelines.

14 years ago I tried to take my own life. Apparently I wasn’t very good at it.

All of the problems that existed then aren’t problems for me now.

Things do get better. There is no such thing as a problem solved by death, with the possible exception of a confirmed terminal disease along with significant pain and suffering.

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