to top it off my power supply died too. now i have resorted to play games without my graphic card since my emergency power supply is old.

there are rough days coming to my country (venezuela), because of that I have resigned to have hope on getting my internet service back in at least two weeks.. or a month... or worse... good celestia have mercy of my soul.

I'm only asking because I'm honestly half deciding on deleting this and re-working it into a different version of the song:

Honestly I think it's not that good.

In about a week or more, but definitely less than two, I will have to turn in my Chromebook. I will then be unable to access the internet. The only way I could would be on the family computer, and even then, I couldn't do anything on any site at all. I'm sorry. This could be farewell for good, depending on what happens. This could also be the end of my internet life as we know it. I am unable to get a job (nobody will hire me, probably bc of my height), unable to move out (we have a massive

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I don't know...
I just don't know anymore.
Is anything I do good?
Writing has always been comforting to me, and yes I struggle with grammar, but I don't know how to get better, they say keep writing keep trying, but I've been writing most of my life, and I'm still struggling.
Probably not going to be very active while I deal with this. I'm sorry. I wish I was stronger, I wish I could be better.

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Been reflecting on what I've been reading in this story. Part of me wants to continue working on it, but lately, I've stared at the pages and realized a few of things:

1. I still love historical fiction.
2. If I continue to write this, I would have to finish it sometime next year. Three years is a long time.
3. If I want to write this, I would have to watch the show again. And my sole reasoning would be to finish this and M235 off. Have to keep up with that canon!

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True story.

I was cooking dinner. I got nostalgic and started reading Nuts and Bolts. (Yeah, I like reading my own work, sue me.) I started getting hype and wanted to write a new installment. I went to open a new document aaaaaand...

"Mama, are you done cooking? You said you'd play with me!"

Dang it.

Struggle struggle in the struggle home, on struggle street, on the struggle...yadda yadda.

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Well, some things are going on in my personal life that I'm trying to sort through. Between my own internal struggles against my personal demons, trying to have a lady friend that might actually work out this time, and a few other things, I need time for my thoughts. I'll try to get out the next piece of TOML soon, but I wouldn't expect it.

So... It's no secret to my friends that it's EXTREMELY hard for me to write large amounts in short periods of time...

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I am 27th now but struggle to enjoy it as...i had a family death 2 days ago, so forgive me if i am not fully on joy

Now lemme elaborate on that title.

I'm writing a story. It has a good setting, the AU is pretty detailed I'd like to think, I have an outline ready for the first chapters, the rest of the story is pretty clear in my head, and yet... I sometimes want to change it. Drastically. Because of other fics.

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I swear, every time I tell myself "I'm going to blog more"; I do go on a "run" of them, of sorts, releasing them consistently and frequently... and then lapse once again. To the record-furthest extent this time. It's been nearly three months since I last updated this place 😑

But now, I am finally blogging again, because I recently made a decision relating to my stories that is important for you to hear.

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The hardest part about writing this chapter, is I don't know whether I like writing it in first person or third. I keep switching between the two. It's a hard choice to make yet I don't want to spoil anything.

Should I switch POVs or just leave it at one POV from the get-go? I don't want the characters to sound like they're the same yet I want it obvious that it's not the same one ya know?

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As the title says, I´m on new meds now. Away from simple SSRI anti-depressants, to something for depression, PTSD, sozial anxiety, anxiety attacks and OCD. They have 50mg and until the next appointment I gotta take a half. I am not going into detail as to why. Simply because it´s not something I want to post openly on the internet. (You´re probably gonna hear about it through stories anyways..)

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Most of you guys probably know by now that I was embroiled in another controversy recently. Heck, I wouldn’t be surprised if the entire site knows about it.

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I swear to god if I get one more goddamn wurmple...

So I’m going to more or less get straight to the point with this one. I’ve been writing for around two years now, and I struggle with getting any kind of regular comments on the majority of my stories. It’s starting to get to me a lot more than it used to, and I really just need feedback. Writing is my way of relieving stress from my day to day life, and life’s been rougher than usual lately. As a result, I’ve been getting more attached to my writing than I usually am. I’ve been trying so hard

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