I'm alive. · 8:12am Jun 8th, 2019
Hey, everyone.
So, it's been a year, nearly, since my last... anything. I don't really know what to say, other than apologize for my long absence.
It's been a hell of a 12 month period, but let me do my best to sum up what happened to me.
In July of last year, around when my last post went down, my grandfather, after a really... really prolonged decline... finally passed away. I was present when he finally died, and it was very peaceful. He'd been on hospice for six months, basically, and it was very difficult for everyone involved. But, he passed away in his sleep with myself and my mom and grandmother and my father sitting around him. It was about as good of an end as anybody could ask for, and I was glad his suffering was over. But, even knowing it's coming... this kind of thing hurts. I wasn't in a good spot for a while there, and decided to take my space.
Then, in October, my fiancee told me that she needed to take a break from our relationship, and that we needed to live apart while we sorted some respective issues out. I won't bore you with the details, but we'd been together nine years. To say that it fucked me up would be an understatement. I was a mess for a bit, and for a bit longer I was fighting mild depression that occasionally dipped into severe depression. I had a lot of support from a lot of very good people.
After seven months apart, two weeks ago, she gave me my ring back and told me that we were done, and I agreed. It was... amicable. We'd kept in contact. We talked. We discussed issues and we both realized that there were things that were getting in the way of a healthy long-term relationship, and if we continued on without sorting these issues we'd end up hurting each other.
So, that's that. I'm not sure if it's gonna hit me in a week or a month or whatever that I just lost a nine-year relationship and had it reduced to... well. It's a good friendship, still. I'm determined to stay that way, at any rate. I don't hate her or blame her or anything like that. I hope in six months I still feel that way.
How to put this next bit? No, I'm not leaving the fandom or quitting writing or anything. I've been doing a lot of that, just in nonconventional ways and with non-fimfic works. I still do work for Fiaura. I'm still here, and I try to keep up with reading. The community is important to me, perhaps even moreso, nowadays.
I guess I just will say that I can't promise anything.
It's been a year of really hard things happening to me. There have been some really good things that happened in and amongst the hardship. I've started a private server for D&D games that I've been enjoying with a close little community of friends. I'm slowly working on a big D&D adventure module that will be published with an indie gaming company. I've been working towards a Master's Degree, and will hopefully be doing a National Credential for Teaching this coming Fall. I've also embraced my pansexuality, which has been a very interesting and healthy experience thus far. So... lots of good in there.
I don't know if I'm going to start writing again. I don't know! I know I've got things I'm focusing on, and this place has been on the backburner while I have been sorting through my mess of a life. I know that I... *do* want to start writing again, but I can't say when.
So, that's... it.
Thanks again to those of you that read my stories and comment. I read... all your comments. I really appreciate them, even the ones lamenting the death of my stories and whatnot. I don't blame anyone for feeling that way, because for a while any thought of writing was sort of buried beneath depression and trying to keep myself together. I didn't know, and I didn't have the strength to drag my ass in here and say anything. It's a shitty thing, to leave you all wondering what the heck was going on, but... I didn't have energy for anything but myself for a while.
I hope you all are doing well. I hope you all have been having a better year than I have!
Glad to hear you’re alive! If you’re looking for something to kickstart your return to MLP writing,a little birdie told me that there’s a huge feghoot contest starting next week.
It's good to hear from you again, glad you didn't just disappear like some do. Sorry to hear you're having it rough right now, I hope you can find some peace in your life. That's all we can really ask out of life in the end, isn't it?
5071104
That's great because my life has been a big feghoot recently. I might win by default!
5071109
We'll see what happens. I'm just slowly working on being well. I've got work ahead of me!
Thanks for dropping us a line, especially after all the crap the last twelve months have put you through. Here's hoping things improve from here.
Heyyy good to know you're still up and kicking (besides the occasional twitter like). Really does sound like you've been through a whole lot of life in the last year. Here's hoping things get better for you, cuz you're awesome snd you deserve awesome. And if you do end up writing more, well, I look forward to it. But I'm glad you're here either way
Glad to know you're still alive and kicking! It does honestly sound like you've been through a hell of a lot over the past 12 months. Heres hoping it gets better soon!
That whole relationship situation... Yowch.
It's good to hear from you again! There were many times where I'd considered posting a comment or sending a PM, but I never built up the nerve.
Just take care of yourself, Props. Everything else can wait, and I sincerely hope things turn for the better for you soon.
I can’t add anything that hasn’t already been said better, but I’m really glad you’re here for all that life’s been throwing punches at you. We’re all here for you, and we’re all rooting for you in whatever you do.
I fucked your pet fish.
Also ily forever and always stay strong <3
5071182
Is that why
- MLP: FiM
- Random
There was no two ways about it. That fish had to die. And Raindrops had to watch.?
It's understandable, friend.
Life sucks, but not always.
~Skeeter The Lurker
Sorry to hear about all the poor news. Hope things improve and brighten up for you. Stay awesome, Props.
Props! I love you!