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kudzuhaiku


She's looking at you. Yes you. And she is judging you with her eyes. There is no escape.

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  • 50 weeks
    It's late

    But my brain isn't quiet. I'm stoned out of my goddamn gourd. Don't worry, it is just my usual regimen of drugs. That's how I spent a lot of my time now. Wasted. Doesn't really help with the pain much, but makes it a bit more tolerable. All of my drugs cost over 5 grand a month. That's what it takes to keep me going. I'm in somewhat better shape because of all of it, and there's a few bright

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  • 61 weeks
    Cyborgification is potentially a-go

    Finally found a doctor that didn't run screaming upon seeing my spine images and xrays. The team is coming together. Met with the neurosurgeon the other day, and he thinks I am an ideal candidate for augmentation. The transition is happening, I think. I still have to pass a psych evaluation and other steps, but I am closer now than ever. First I'll have the trial run; they'll sink electrodes into

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  • 90 weeks
    Today, life changes forever.


    It's been a long, long road to get to this point. A big thank you to everyone who has been with me during this journey.

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  • 90 weeks
    Big changes are happening


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  • 114 weeks
    I suppose it is time for an update

    Been meaning to this, and I've become the King of Pro-Crasty Nation. I kept wanting to report, but there was nothing to report, no good news at all, so I just... didn't. Sorry. Went a bit silent on my end. It just sorta happened.

    I finally got a lawyer willing to take up my case. After that, things started happening.

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May
12th
2014

Princess Luna's Suicide Solutions · 12:46am May 12th, 2014

Seriously thinking about just cancelling it. Or maybe even deleting it entirely.

Some of the reaction has left a really bad taste in my mouth. Some of the replies are just plain ignorant, puerile, and even uncivil. People fail to understand very simple basic concepts, and trying to explain those concepts to people just causes the "I'm young and I am awesome and I KNOW EVERYTHING" crowd to piss and moan, because they can't handle an adult mature worldview that challenges what they think they know.

I'm really bothered with this.

I wanted to disturb people. I wanted to horrify people. I did that. I did what I set out to do.

I just wish I had done it to mature people capable of rational civilised discussion and not people who go ZOMG! I totally skullfuck Luna if she try to that my OC over the top all powerful imaginary personality!

It is just annoying... Anybody understand what I am saying?

Might have been something beautiful.

I'm sorry, I'll shut up now. But some of the replies have really just bummed me out and made me not want to write today, which is bad for me. I need to write.

Anyway, canceled or not, expect a hiatus or something. I'm so sickened by this whole thing that I have no desire to continue the story right now.

Comments ( 76 )

People are assholes. Don't let them get to you.

Don't let the haters get to you man. The fic is amazing and power through!

Hopefully the positive voices will drown out the negative ones in your ears.

If it must go, it must.... :ajsleepy:

If it stays, it stays. :pinkiesmile:

I am sorry to hear that,

I must say that this story actually is making me think and in a way, it is a nice different take, I feel that a part of it is that maybe the folks are not fully understanding that in reality Equestria is different that say the only other place with a monarcy that americans seem to think about. England.

Still, I am just saying that sometimes, well one small peice of Advice, do not let others dictate your thoughts and ideas. If anything having folks say that or being riled up, it is them reacting to being horrified, and etc.

Where as my own reactions... uh... well, I am a little worried but, why not try it. And I liked reading it, I love reading different stories. I really do like reading different things. Because, if everyone had the same headcannon and thoughts, then it would be a very boring world.

I also like the idea your headcanon of just what power the Co-Rulers of Equestria have. So, good job and congrats.

Please consider this as well as a review for your story up to chapter two as well. I just got sidetracked and ended up writing it here instead.

Still, if you wish to listen to my advice, keep going. Stand up and take the courage to take this story further. I do like the idea of reading this to the conclusion.

Also, please take a look at the thumbs up and thumbs down.

Over a hundred to one difference? At least it looks like it to me. Heck you have less thumbs down then I have seen on some of the better stories, it is just that some folks are a little vocal when they dislike something, instead keep an eye on your ups and downs. Based on that, you have a fan base to keep going.

Fuck dem.

there is only one thing to do: send me after the haters. I will make them pay and smash their horrid thought processes with my unquestionable reasoning and random comments that make sense on a discord level (or below)

Emtu #7 · May 12th, 2014 · · 2 ·

2102590
Seconding this sentiment. Fuck the haters.

Don't understand why people go hating on a story. I can see where some people would get a pissy, but its just a story.:facehoof:

I sort of wanted this to be 1984ish, with ponies.

The only crime I could think of that would really get the attention of the Princesses would be suicide. I mean, I really thought about this. They are Goddesses. Throwing your life away is an insult to them.

From there, the story developed. In a weird terrifying sort of way.

Please don't. This is the first time I saw a fanfiction like this being done and you should let the hater get in the way of it.

2102604 Or cleverly insult them.

2102604 I third, buck those mofoos (draw out second 'o' [heh rhyme])

2102622 yeah more or less, see first post on this page by me
ehh you can have it but I get to make the puns okie?

2102627 I can live with that.

2102642 good, good feel the cleverness feel it rise within you
wtf did I just type?

Disturbed? Horrified? Not here. Please tell me I'm not part of the problem, but "from the opposite direction", so to speak...

2102648 Something that sounded a bit weird but was meant to sound mmeaningful.

2102666 thank you you are now promoted to sensemaker

I dunno.

I suppose I had an unrealistic desire for maturity when approaching a thoughtful subject.

Or at least reasonable response.

I guess you're correct, I'll just let it go and not make this same mistake twice. :ajbemused:

JBL

not people who go ZOMG! I totally skullfuck Luna if she try to that my OC over the top all powerful imaginary personality!

As twisted as it is, I'm still curious to see where the story's going to end up. Morbid curiosity, I guess.:rainbowlaugh:

2102671 Yeah, but then again, what's the fun in making sense?

2102678 CHEERS KUDZUHAIKU, CHEERS

2102692 fun who said anything about fun that's your job

I very much enjoyed this story and hope you will keep going.

If you must, then you must. I was really looking forward to the next chapter though

2102711 and you are obvious *bows*

2102696

They're everywhere. :flutterrage:

2102678 if you use a thoughtful subject, people will think. The ones that don't think will be typing :P
In all seriousness though, you shouldn't stop writing a story simply because you are getting some hate for it. If you use a subject that can be discussed thoroughly, and you are on the internet, chances are you are gonna get some of everything. Some hate, some maturity, some everything. If you feel that bad about it though, nobody is gonna stop you, and nobody (who matters) will be angry at you for it.

2102714 Well, do YOU use memes in casual conversations?

2102608 If it's supposed to be weird and creepy, you should play that up. People went into this expecting something fuzzy and warm about Luna saving someone's life. It almost holds that tone until we hit stuff like altering Cutie Marks and Nocty's continual non-entity, geas-bearing status in this weird dom/sub relationship he and Luna have going on.

2102718

I had unrealistic expectations I guess because of The Chase. I mean, there has been wonderful exchanges there, meaningful stuff, and it has been mostly mature and good natured.

I suppose this caught me off guard.

2102731 I can see where that train of thought would have come from. At the same time, the subject matter is different, and the comments reflect that. The chase breeds discussion about issues of perspective, but none of the perspectives immediately apparent are very dark. This on the other hand has a dark side, and i guess that was reflected in the comments. Delicate subjects are stuff where issues start appearing, in those matters it is much more easy to anger someone, or at least it leaves an area open for hostile responses.

2102755 amazing 10/10 very inspiring and well thought out (the comment

Okay, look. Humanity is one of the stupidest, idiotic, immature, violent, stereotypical races to ever exist. It's the only reason we survived. You're lucky to have been blessed with the gift of being able to understand humanity is an ass. And, of course, great writing ability. If they hate because they don't like the story, or because it wasn't what they had in mind, then they can **** off.:pinkiehappy: You should just keep on writing, because you can. If they want a story to fit their preferences, then they can write it themselves. Have a better day, my friend.:moustache:

2102755

You are correct of course, and sanity restoring as well.

I've decided to stop reading the comments altogether for a while. I'll probably miss some important and good stuff, but, meh. :pinkiesad2:

Nah don't cancel it people are stupid, one of Bronywriters stories had the same problem.People are just doing it cause they think its funny or they don't understand that its just a story.

2102808 you realize in saying that you just pissed of a great many people and probably caused a very large rift in the multiverse that either pinkie or discord or dr.who has to repair right
try to keep the wall shattering revelations at a max of three
MIdnight Muse

2102815 I am happy my comment was of use. If you don't read the comments though, how are you supposed to see my beautifully crafted and well thought out comments. :scootangel:

2102836 Yup. That's what I'm here for!:pinkiehappy:

NOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I'm sorry! I regret everything, bad I said! The story is bloody BRILLIANT! I beg on my fucking hands and knees that you don't scrap it. PHULEEEEEEEEEES!!!

Actually, I am writing right now. And finding my self channeled into Graves, the donkey. Very odd. And cathartic.

I got around to reading the story after seeing this post (I have a very large backlog). I think it's interesting if flawed, and I'd like to see more of it.

I have more specific comments, but I'll post them on the story itself later.

It is, in the end, your story, so do what you will. I can only say that I very much like the thought exercise of Princess Luna watching ponies and dealing with their negative, circular thinking that can lead to suicide. I'm surprised at the negative reactions to this story, given that many fans of the show talk about how it lifted them from depression.

Throwing your life away is an insult to them.

is how I feel about life, and the choice of suicide. Life is a gift, and it is not mine to decide the ending. Please do continue. I'm curious to see the further adventures of Noctilucent at the orphanage.

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