"Well, this isn't working," everything says.
… That's not accurate. Everything doesn't actually speak. More like, one moment I'm lost in the dark void of nothingness, and the next, my consciousness is smothered in a warm white gestalt of every possible sensation in every possible combination. Logically, you'd think the net effect of that would be a billion billion ideas screaming in opposition and canceling out against their counterpoints, but as I bathe in the glow of the universe, I become aware of an … organization to it. A single unified purpose toward which every component of existence strives and which every level of perception and identity and understanding reflects. And right now, that harmony is a sense of painful wrongness.
Allow me the latitude of a finite interpretation of the ineffable. I can't talk about everything; our words are too small. But if there were a way to conversationalize that dissonance — if I had to constrain it to something comprehensible by a pony, with only one phrase in one language — then at least "Well, this isn't working" would be sufficiently close to give you all the wrong ideas for all the right reasons.
I groan and sit up. (Again: metaphor. I'm not separate from the everything. I don't have a body to groan or sit up with. But this conversation gets fractal if I try to dig into it at a deeper level than that.) My mind is a haze. "What's going on?"
Everything points. I open my eyes to look —
— And it all rushes in. I slam my eyes shut again, but it's too late; I can't unsee it. The suspicion I didn't remember. The trap I cooperated with. Celestia's betrayal. Luna's dark magic. My mind ripped apart in their search for answers —
Realization builds up inside me like a sickness. How could they? How could they! I thrash desperately around, trying to dislodge the cancer of that knowledge and failing, alone and used and broken, and that's when everything reaches out and wraps me in the soothing harmony of a hug.
"It's alright, Twilight," everything says.
No … Harmony says. That's where I've felt this feeling before: the unity of the Elements. Except that was five friends and I, electrons whirling in a single atom's orbit, and now I'm surrounded by every possible friend in every possible combination. All of existence was created for this very moment, to let me know that it's alright, Twilight, that it proceeds according to some greater plan, and that in my trials I'm never alone.
I cry in Harmony's embrace for a heartbeat, a minute, a millennium. I cry until I no longer need to cry, and then lie in everything's warm embrace with my tears spent.
Finally, there's nothing to do but open my eyes again. When comprehension seeps back through me, the wrongness of what they did lingers, but the pain is tiny and abstract. How could it be otherwise? It's a single drop in a boundless ocean of sensation.
I drink it all in.
I can see all of time and space from here. The grand sweep of it is so magnificent that "magnificent" is as inadequate to describe it as a string of numbers is to describe the ratio of a circle to its radius; I could spend an eternity in contemplation of it and never fully hold within myself the totality of its perfection. But amid the vast sweep of actualities occupying the vaster sweep of possibilities, there's one tiny little speck that's glaringly out of place. I focus in.
"Huh," I say. "Luna killed me."
I, Twilight Sparkle, am dead. Not "got reset again" — I have ceased existence. One of Equestria's goddesses unleashed into my tiny little mortal mind enough power to make one of the archons of the universe flinch — but the Nightmare wasn't actually there to soak up the blow. There was such immense damage that it sent feedback exploding out of the loop in which it occurred and into the spell that maintained me from timeline to timeline. The me that was looping — and there is a looping-me, I note, who is distinct from pre-loop Twilight — was obliterated.
As I watch that unintentional act of finality, it begins to fragment and spread. I'm dead, so the spell resets everything to the start of a new loop and re-inserts all of the various players. But when it tries to add me, I'm dead. The spell resets everything to the start of a new loop and re-inserts all of the various players. But when it tries to add me, I'm dead … and so on, ad infinitum. Every single iteration strains and warps and forks our timeline, spawning off a whole new future which instantly locks up, unresolved and unresolvable.
My jaw drops as the realization hits. We have caused literally infinite damage to spacetime.
"That's not all," Harmony says, and gestures.
I pull back my perception slightly and refocus. The unfolding damage I'm seeing is half of a fork that splits off from the moment of the blast. The other half blossoms out into a similar ugly-looking mess — but its timelines are living things, unrolling themselves and thrashing around in possibility-space like an army of seeking tentacles. One by one, inevitably, each one ends with the flash of a sudden discontinuity as the time spell steals away a looper's experiences, terminates all the loopers, and severs and abandons the timeline. Many of those disconnected futures are vaporized in the light of the exploding Elements of Harmony and return to the nothingness whence they came — but others linger on, abandoned and hopeless, spiraling into chaos.
"What changed here?" I ask.
"These are the futures where I intervene to save you and the timeline continues," Harmony says. "As I must, because there is no other hope of ultimate repair."
"I'm not so sure these branches are better," I murmur. "Time looping leaves all those failed futures behind after we reset?"
"No, disabling the Elements of Harmony does that." Harmony frowns. "You and Celestia both were once Bearers. You knew better."
"But they were trying to kill us!" I protest, as if yet another ill-timed reset mattered to the universe. That's a non-starter; I swallow and try again. "We just needed more time to learn a way to save Equestria … hold on. I 'was once' a Bearer?"
Harmony shakes its heads sadly. "After a thousand years without a champion, I had such hopes. But you have given yourself over to a different master."
My blood runs cold. "NO! It was a mistake," I plead, throwing myself at Harmony's hooves. "Everything good in my life has come from you. Looping has brought me nothing but misery. Please give me a second chance."
"Of course," Harmony says, with infinite love and forgiveness. "Stop looping."
"I've already tried! But unless I start my time loop, Equestria is doomed. The instant it's saved —"
Harmony shakes its head. "You misunderstand. Stop looping. Yourself, her, Chrysalis, and the others who would be drawn into this. I cannot unmake your failure of a timeline if its destruction merely spawns another copy with all the same problems."
I'm struck speechless.
"Why do you hesitate?"
I swallow. "Unmake? You … you think the solution is for us to not exist at all?"
"Twilight," Harmony whispers, "listen." My perception shifts, and I behold the thrashings of our timeline as a whole. It screams like a wounded animal as the tentacles of living futures blindly flail outward through possibility — as the loop spell severs its heads and new ones spring up in hydra-like replacement. There's a shuddering, silent sibilance from the other half, where the paradox timelines are swelling out like a cancerous growth. I clap my forehooves to my ears. It's my earlier pain, multiplied by every pony to suffer from our mistakes, multiplied by every failed loop in which they relive it, exponentiated by the anguish of spacetime itself.
The scale of my perception is nudged outward. The rest of existence is singing in unison. Its voices rise and soar, mingling in a grand chord that sounds through my bones, flooding through me and sweeping me away. Its beauty is so exquisite that it is all I can do to fall mute to my knees, humbled at the gift of having shared it for even a moment.
Harmony doesn't hate me — doesn't hate us — couldn't hate us. Harmony wants only the best for everypony. It doesn't understand how I could cling to my miserable existence of enmity and struggle and torment — not when giving up and letting go means that someday, some sublime version of me would get to live in that boundless unity, never once able to even conceive of my tortures.
The arc of the universe evolves toward perfection — but to get there, the failures have to be uprooted, the ground cleared for healthier seed. It's all so clear here. "Show me," I whisper. "Show me what I have to do."
And Harmony does. There's a convoluted potential timeline where I reconcile with Celestia and she helps me halt the invasion at great but acceptable cost. Just the right words with just the right inflection at just the right time spark her doubts about our prospects, and some impossibly brilliant sleight of hoof brings me to Chrysalis' side in a guise she trusts to plant similar uncertainty. With both of their hopes of a clean victory in ruins, I propose a third way. After weeks of intricate negotiation, they tentatively agree to stop looping so they can open diplomatic relations. We all gather, and a joint ritual ends everypony's time spell. The instant we're powerless to reset away from fate, I directly channel the light of Harmony, and everything dissolves away.
It's the best thing ever. I'll get to destroy the world for a good cause.
My head goes light for a moment as Harmony sears every detail of that future into my memories with supernatural clarity. Within the blink of an eye, it's more real than the life I've lived. It is The One Loop, the true loop of which all others are mere shadows. Any deviation from it I'll be able to sense in an instant and steer it back toward its proper end.
All that remains is to live through it. Just once. Then it's all over.
I'm ready.
Harmony hugs me. "You are a good pony, Twilight Sparkle." The approval of the universe fills me with an indescribable joy. "And now we must part ways again … but only for a little while. Be strong."
"I will," I say, and close my eyes, hoping to hear the song of Harmony one last time before it all fades away.
I do, of course. Harmony loves me. Harmony loves.
"Forgive them," the words go. "Bring peace."
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"Twilight?" Celestia says in the hazy, painful darkness.
"I, uh, don't think that worked," Spike says.
"No," Luna whispers. "No …"
"Wait!" Spike says. "I think she just twitched."
I open my eyes. They're huddled around me. Luna's wearing a familiar black circlet, and she's been crying. "Nnnnh," I grunt as the light of the Arcane Storage Vaults basement stabs my pupils and the force of a thousand headaches explodes inside my brain.
Luna gasps. "Twilight! I …" But her words seize in her throat as her jaw begins trembling. She buries her muzzle in my chest and sobs, the tension draining out of her body.
I try sitting up. Instead, my body twitches spastically. The purple of Spike's scales goes donut-scented, and the world separates into its component squares and circles. Circles are cold and squares are hot. I'm lying on square bricks. I start sweating. I'm burning up.
"Lie still, Twilight," Celestia says. "You're hurt."
"The Elements of Harmony sort of exploded," Spike interjects. The room is dark with smoke, and the shelf where they had been sitting is little more than a charred mess. "You got glowy and screamed and then they went all bzzow and saved you."
"Luna's been repairing your mental damage for the past several hours, and she's convinced she … well." Celestia puts a hoof on my shoulder. "I want to hear your side of the story. How did you die last loop?"
I finally manage to connect the automatic rise and fall of my chest with the part of my brain that's struggling to assemble words out of breath and throat and tongue. "Fargeløse grønne ideer sove rasende," I say urgently.
Celestia nods, staring into my eyes. "Luna," she mutters out of the side of her mouth, "I don't think you're quite finished."
Luna gulps for breath and wipes her tears away with a hoof-edge. "U-understood," she says. She sits up and her horn flares into light.
My vision fuzzes. The circles and the squares clash.
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"Well, that sure didn't work."
My eyes creak open. Two migraines are at war, firing artillery shells at each other over the scorched fields of my brain. I have full motor control back, though! When I try to sit up, all the right muscles respond, and colors no longer have a taste.
That should be enough. Harmony gave me a job to do.
Celestia's staring at me in stony silence. Her face has got an odd aquamarine tint, which means the ward's still around the evocation circle. "Look ever upward," I say, because that's how The One Loop starts. The ward promptly responds by dropping away.
Surprise and suspicion clash on Celestia's muzzle for a moment before her mask of neutrality slams back down. "I see you're feeling better. Delta-2 T-25 C-11. How did you know the trigger?"
I fight to stay focused on The One Loop. The words stumble out. "You told me. Whitetail."
Her demeanor softens in an instant. Was that a code word? "Oh! Twilight … I'm so sorry," she says. "I'm sure I apologized last loop, but it bears repeating. Will you catch me up on what we discussed before you reset, so we can talk about what I can do to make this better?"
I climb to my hooves. She's saying everything she should be saying, but it's more difficult to follow The One Loop than it should be. Every time I play through the script, it bursts open a fresh mini-migraine. My head feels like it's swelling like a balloon. "There's … no time now, there's a … war to … wuh. Wuh. Wiiiih."
"Win?" Spike asks.
"Win! Yes."
"Twilight," Luna says, "are you alright?"
I clench my teeth. "Yes," I lie, because it'll take me off-script the least. "Spike, this is … super argent. Go to Ruby's and get … me matching earrings. Luna, get a Night Guard vomlumteer for a suicide machine, we need the, the … Smooze released in the northquest warter —"
"What?" Celestia and Luna chorus.
"Uh, what's a super argent?" Spike says.
"Needs to be … down quiggley! Chop chop!" I shoo him toward the door.
Celestia and Luna glance at each other, then look back at me. "Trust me," I say earnestly through the pounding in my temples. "Good flan. Smooze."
"Twilight," Celestia says hesitantly, "of course I trust you if I told you that code — but destroying Canterlot won't stop the invasion, and you seem a bit, er, discombobulated."
"No. It meggs perfect sense. We … can't destroy the … cindy, which is why all … the gourds find in arf."
Spike pokes his head back through the doorway. "What are the earrings supposed to match?"
I close my eyes and press a hoof to my temple. "I don't know! Each under!" What's their problem? None of these questions are on script.
"You mean … 'guards'?" Celestia says. She's staring at me with worried eyes. "Guards … fight it … off?"
"YES!" I shout. The throbbing in my head surges, like a dam overtopping, and something wet spills from my nose. "Gourds!"
Celestia's eyes widen. "Twilight!?"
Oh, good. The migraine's finally receding, replaced with a warm, comforting floatiness. I let out a breath and absently wipe my muzzle with the back of my forehoof. Then I freeze as I'm pulling my leg back away.
The last thing I see as the floor rises up to meet me is blood on my pastern.
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"Well, that sure didn't work."
The twin migraines are back. "We … have a priblem," I say, sitting up. Gravity goes weirdly sideways and I faceplant. "Ow."
Celestia glances uncertainly over at her sister, then arches one eyebrow at me, her face still a stony mask. I try again. "Princess. Priblem. Priblem, princess."
"Delta-2, T-25 C-11," Celestia says. "Do you … have any messages for me, Twilight?"
"T numbers." I stagger to my hooves. I can't feel one leg. "Priblem. Runa bloke my blain."
Luna gasps. "What?"
"I know. I meant —"
"She brasted my blain and … the pear-figged loop is there! But I'm blaining to dead! Figs it figs it OW!" I say as I stagger muzzle-first into the ward, which unloads a face full of pain at me and flings me back into the center of the evocation circle.
That's not so bad, though. It makes the migraine go warm and floaty again. The floor by my nose is oddly wet as I let my eyes drift closed.
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Luna looms over my prone form in the featureless expanse of my mind. My heart stops for a moment — not again — until I see her expression. Her eyes are red and raw, her muzzle tight with worry.
I sit up. There's no pain. I feel fully lucid, without the nagging wrongness that gripped me last time we were here. "Um," I say, "hi?"
"Twilight," she whispers, "I am so, so sorry." She reaches out a hoof, but hesitates before touching me. "I have had to take some … rather unorthodox measures to stabilize you. How do you feel?"
"Different." I think. "My head doesn't want to explode any more."
She exhales, and a bit of the tension sags out of her shoulders. "We shall speak of my repairs when you awake. But first, I must fall upon your mercy and beg of you a boon."
"Uh." Forgiveness is one thing, but a favor? Still, she did fix me, and that's worth hearing her out. "Go ahead."
"Some of your damage … was mine own hornwork. In a previous loop I used the Circlet of Mind upon you, and in the process …" Her voice grows faint. "I attacked you, Twilight, and were it not for the intervention of the Elements of Harmony, I would have ended you. It was this sort of disaster which I feared when we banned mind-manipulating magic, and locked the Circlet away, so long ago."
I blink. I remember our fight, but … "You're not looping. If that was a previous loop, how do you know about it?"
"From your memories of the attack. I glanced at them to ascertain the source of the damage. I was losing my temper, and you attempted to flee me, and then I … I sensed the Nightmare …" She swallows. "I could not bear to watch, but the damage to your psyche bore my energy signature, and the rest is clear enough."
It clicks: Luna thinks she relapsed. I fidget uncomfortably. Is that why she fixed my brain? Is false guilt the only thing between me and another deadly interrogation? "Uh … yeah," I stall. "So what's the favor?"
"You are looping. I am not. I will forget my failure soon, and with it, any hope of preventing a recurrence." She looks away, her muzzle sunken in excruciating misery. "I have no right to ask after what I have done, and it is magic no less forbidden than that which caused the damage … but I beg you, Twilight, allow me to borrow a portion of your memory. I must record my knowledge of my guilt, so that in future loops you may share it with me if you fear I am in danger of again losing my way."
And just like that, I'm handed a free ticket to the express train out of Questionsburg. No more worries about The One Loop getting sabotaged by bizarre suspicions or threats of renewed interrogation.
All I have to do is leave at lie o'clock.
I shouldn't feel bad about that. Technically her guilt is accurate, right? Luna did blow my mind up while interrogating me, and based on what Harmony showed me, I was an innocent victim. What's the harm in letting her get the facts correct in the wrong context? Letting her blame herself for a Nightmare rampage isn't really a lie.
Not — a simmering thought boils up to the surface of my mind — like giving Celestia that unearned codeword was.
Now there's an uncomfortable thought. Harmony started my perfect loop by having me lie to Celestia's face about something she never told me in a loop that couldn't have occurred — since I don't remember it, and based on her reaction, neither did she. But surely, if there's any way to tell between a necessary and unnecessary evil, Harmony could do it … right? Lying to Luna here might be avoidable, but Harmony wouldn't have had me lie to Celestia if there were any way around it.
Wait. Doesn't that logically imply The One Loop would be impossible if I told the truth?
That can't be right. I know that the oblivion of The One Loop is the correct path; my visit with Harmony made that all too clear. But I can't wrap my mind around the idea that Harmony's goal requires a lie. Honesty is one of the Elements!
Are they broken? Am I still broken, and misremembering? Is this some sort of test?
Luna interrupts my thoughts. "Twilight?" she says, lower jaw beginning to quiver. "Please. I will not force you, but I am begging."
I gaze into her eyes. Once upon a time, her voice echoes, I convinced myself that something very, very wrong was necessary. I was correct … and it remains the greatest regret of my life.
So many lies … so many regrets. No wonder Harmony gave up on us. The most merciful path is to end this by any means possible … isn't it? On the other hoof, Harmony went against the Elements' own nature, and asked me to do the same. How can that be right?
My mind is chasing itself in loops. I need to make a decision.
Forgive them, Harmony said. Bring peace.
… I'm going to regret this, I just know it.
"Luna …" I rest a hoof on her shoulder, and swallow through a dry throat. "You weren't the Nightmare."
She stares at me blankly. Then her eyes widen.
"Neither was I," I add hurriedly. "That's why the Elements protected me. I … I think … it wasn't your fault. It was a big misunderstanding. There were too many impossible things happening, and I was pretending to be what you told me I had to be, and we were both too afraid to think it through."
"Twilight," she says, visibly struggling for words.
"Please look at the memories you flinched from. You attacked what you saw as the Nightmare because you wanted to save me. You were wrong, but I won't have on my conscience you blaming yourself for turning evil." I grab her other shoulder with my other forehoof and stare intensely into her eyes. "No more lies. A … very big thing … is at stake right now, and I've realized that before I do it I have to know that the truth will lead me there. If you want to fix this, we need to both start with the truth."
Luna nods. She takes a long breath, then I see a reflection of shifting light and dark on her eyeballs as she stares silently into me. Finally, she closes her eyes. "Thank you for your honesty," she says faintly, "but I fear the truth speaks no better of me. I coerced you into believing the foulest of lies about yourself, and then destroyed you for complying."
"Alright. Then … why?"
"It is a long story, which you deserve in full once we awaken. Briefly, the Crystal Empire is the grave of an ancient secret whose unearthing signals the end of our world. When Celestia learned you had knowledge buried with that secret, we could no longer trust your intent. After all, Celestia and I first sent you there — sent Twilight there — to …" She stops and presses her hoof to the bridge of her muzzle. "No. You are Twilight Sparkle, of that I am now convinced. The protection of the Elements is proof enough. Yet, as you do not remember Twilight Sparkle's memories, you clearly cannot be. It is all greatly confusing."
"I think," I say slowly, "where all this is leading is that I am not your Twilight Sparkle."
"Impossible."
I've heard that word way too often lately. "Yet here I am."
"Indeed. All proofs to the contrary, here you are."
I clear my throat. "The scientific method tells us that an observed impossible result is evidence of a faulty model. I've been — we've been — rushing through this in the hope we wouldn't have to think about the impossibilities until after the looping was over. Look where that led us. It's long past time to question our assumptions."
Luna nods. "We must include Celestia in that conversation. One last question before we do." She takes a long breath. "Will you honor my request?"
"You, uh, weren't the Nightmare. We established that."
"It dulls the edge of my failure not a whit. I erred, with dark magic banned for good reason, and it nearly cost you everything. I could not bear the thought of a recurrence."
Now that we're no longer talking about stamping a lie into my brain, it would be insane to say no to improved information exchange. In fact, this could open up a whole new world of possibilities. "Please, do it. And teach me the spell while you're at it."
She shakes her head firmly. "Thank you. However, I cannot send you down the path which drove Starswirl to madness. I would not dare cast it again myself were the circumstances not so urgent."
"I haven't been able to have a conversation both sides remember since I cast the loop spell. I'll take that risk."
"I am painfully aware of the difficulties of looping. I am sorry. There are lines which must not be crossed."
I sigh. "Fine … for now. We've got too many other pressing things to talk about, but this conversation isn't over."
"Look at the damage I have already done by thinking evil justified. My answer will not change."
"We'll see."
"Be that as it may … thank you, again." She reaches forward with bent leg to brush her pastern to mine. "You have taken my failure much better than I had any right to expect."
"It's alright." I shrug. "We screwed up so bad it wrapped around to right again. I ought to thank you, really."
Her ears flatten. "Please do not jest about that."
"I'm serious. The Elements of Harmony are going to want a word with you, but for my own part, I have real hope for this mess for the first time in a long while." I step forward and curl my neck to hers. "No hard feelings."
Luna tenses at my touch. I feel her swallow. Then, tentatively at first, she returns the hug. I curl a hoof around her withers. She chokes back a sob, then lets one out, and soon she is sagging into my embrace, letting her emotions drain away. I close my eyes, silently holding her, feeling the warmth of her body as we share a moment of forgiveness and redemption.
I was wrong. I didn't regret that at all.
Why not just move next week's update to the 2nd of April?
You lied! This chapter came out on Wednesday! At 12:30 a.m.!
I was so disappointed when there was no update on Tuesday.
Maybe it's just time zones? I live on the east coast.
Anyway, now I feel empty and sad due to lack of action. Sure, a really important turning point for Twilight's character and the story was made, but nothing cool happened!
Seriously though, this story is amazing.
How extremely convoluted.
*blinks*
A nice chapter though.
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I'm writing as fast as I can. There was a lot about these revelations that I had to get exactly right. It feels like my whole last month has been editing.
Oh man, this chapter is fantastic. We got crazy metaphysics, we got stuff getting horribly ruined, we got a protagonist whose goal is the destruction of literally everything.... I love it when works of fiction do this sort of thing. All it needs now is some postmodernism.
Aww, drats. Didn't win either contest.
And hell if the plot didn't go all wibbly wobbly this chapter. Moreso than usual.
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Dying for reals and then causing literally infinite damage to spacetime isn't cool enough? I guess I need to up my game.
Re posting time: Sorry, I had hoped to finish editing last night and post during the day, but a three-hour 1 am power outage forced me to babysit the generator at our office, wiped out my night, and has thrown my sleep schedule for the week into chaos. I'm on American Pacific time and am pretty reliably posting on Tuesday afternoon/evening, so maybe to readjust everyone's expectations I should say "Wednesday" and keep posting Tuesday night?
...huh. Infinite damage to spacetime.
I honestly didn't expect that. Though it makes a lot of sense. Good thing the Elements were there to stop it, to give everything another chance to exist...
I needed this tonight. Thank you.
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It's okay. When your Author's Note mentioned a blackout, I kinda figured that's what happened. You're the one who's dolling out the awesome story, and as long as it keeps updating I'll stalk it.
And yes, a revelation about the threads of time unraveling, and the un-empathetic elements of harmony is cool, but I read Hard Reset's sequels, and I already knew about those things.
Oh well, at least I enjoyed my math nonsense.
That won't be awkward at all.
I can't stop imagining what happens when you make a 3D model collapse on itself indefinetly.
It transforms into a roiling ball of jagged edges, infinitly shifting and adding more layers.
Then the computer crashes.
Wait, the mismatched parentheses thing was the secret? I thought that was just a style thing, with the numbers having some kind of significance. Huh.
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Luna you got some splainin to do.
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Called it! Nightmare Theory FTW! Retyping that post was worth it.
I still can't believe I found that easter egg on accident. I thought it was a legitimate error/typo in the equation!
Nice job breaking the universe, Luna!
So, we're pulling together the entire original Hard Reset trilogy into this one story then? I am ok with this. Also, it's nice to see that Twilight's finally starting to figure out something I hope the rest of us already figured out a long time ago.
You magnificent bastard. I'm keeping that loop. That's a good loop.
While I'm here,
For some reason, this sounds like one of the most horrifying things I've ever heard. Being stuck in a timeloop that resets before you have the chance to reset. It entirely undermines the point of being in your own timeloop. It has to be up there with one of the worst situations to ever find yourself in, not that you ever would in the severe cases, such as this one.
Oh well, good thing Twilight wasn't on the receiving end of that particular fate, but was rather just an outside observer of it. At least she has something going her way.
Now I'd imagine that we have to deal with the "we must submit to the powers that be" arc for the next 3 chapters or so. Unless she comes to her senses next chapter now that her "blain" is no longer "bloken". Letting an all powerful being erase you, and your universe from existence due to a perfection fetish is unacceptable if you ask me.
Really, as long as that situation from A Stitch in Time doesn't come up, our heros of HR2 can just keep looping to Fight Fate. I mean, this timeline has the advantage of learning about the intentions of "Harmony" while they still have Timeloopers in play, and plenty of them at that. It raises the question: Why was there a timeline past the conclusion of HR1? With no more timeloopers present in that timeline, why didn't "Harmony" just outright destroy that timeline?
I think I need to re-read HL1 and the TLT.
Also, it seems like we're spoiler tagging everything now. This is the first I've seen on this fic since I've started paying close attention to the comments.
Now I just checked the Authors note for whatever reason.
Well shit, here I thought it was a typo. You're good.
Screw it, it's 4 AM, I'm posting this now before I throw this all away, or spend another 2 hours editing my comments.
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I think everyone's spoiler-tagging comments this chapter just because I started a trend. :trollestia;. (In general, we're over a thousand comments in; if someone's read this far before actually reading the story, they deserve everything they see.)
More significant replies tomorrow.
I understand less and less about this story, and that's carrot.
Well, that sure went sideways.
For a bit there I thought that our looping!Twilight had been erased, and that current!Twilight gained her memories through Harmony's interference. Turns out that's not the case.
Hopefully Twi being more honest than Harmony will help her realise that this pear-figged loop (hee!) plan isn't for the best. Unless it actually is, and it's only my personal desire to exist and have ever existed that's colouring my perception... the cessation of a low-infinite number of universes to save the very idea of existence from destruction? Also; Twi gets off on big booms. So.
Good to see that they're finally discussing the butterfly impossibility. And maybe now they can compare notes and see what the oldest change is. Luna will have to convince Celestia that Twilight's on their side though. And not to forget that the elements physical forms still need to be paradoxed into existence, which requires time travel rather than time looping. Unless our Unknown had something to do with it. It kind of... it kind of sounds like Sombra or whoever might have been Harmony's servant too... or I'm just tired and that'd be fun.
At any rate that open parentheses is related to hijinks somewhen. Did Starswirl fall to a different academic based affliction? Were he and Luna together? If in HR1 Luna fell not long after Starswirl, and we know she was looping around about the rebellion, just what did the new HR2 Starswirl create? Also; was he as much of a jerk?
Seems like these are the same amoral Elements of Harmony from the original stories. I blame the Elements of Harmony for causing Celestia and Chrysalis to become time loopers at the start of this story. Heck, I wouldn't be surprised if the EoH are responsible for time looping to be possible at all.
I am so fucking lost with all this. I may have to jump ship if things dot get broken down Barney-style.
aww, canceling updates on my birthday? I've become fond of april fools chapters!
They feel like a silly gift to me. The best kind of gift.
Anyways, go, rebuild the buffer. Just be sure not to overfill it, we don't want a stack overflow, eh? Computer jokes.
Well, it seems Luna's freakout has done a bit more damage than I would have thought. If not for that, ironically, I think things may have gone a little more differently... or perhaps not. As Luna said, Twilight took their failure "much better than they had any right to expect". If not for Twilight's trepidation at using unearned knowledge and realizing the hypocrisy of Harmony, I doubt she would have hesitated to turn against them.
The "Please, do it." is a bit vague on Twilight's part. Was she referring to the mind spell (i.e. risking the recurrence)?
Also, so many references to earlier generations of MLP.
Well by some miracle, I have not lost my sanity while reading this. I will call that an achievement.
Also is that the third story from Hard Reset leaking in with Harmony? That's cool.
Hm... What happened in Delta-2, T-25, C-10? Is that the loop we start in on, the one with the cold circles and hot squares? The one where Luna already knew the damage done to Twilight was due to her? Because if it was, then why is Twilight back in the warding circle at Delta-2, T-25, C-11, with Celestia ready to go through the mind probe again?
They really do have a priblem though.
Also the forgiveness of Luna felt a tad too quick, because really, what she actually did was worse than if she regressed into Nightmare Moon. In that case, it would've been that darkness that caused her actions, she'd be somewhat distanced from them, even if she did fail in keeping it out, she's not directing its moves.
Instead, she, of her own accord, compromised Twilight's mind, induced a state of impairment in her, and then made suggestions without thinking their consequences through, and reacted to the situation that she herself has caused. There might not have been actual malice behind it, but each step was done by her, from utilizing the mind magic in the first place, to the damage done.
Ya might want to adjust that "some" to an "all" in there, Princess.
4137624 Anything specific? I think I've got a solid handle on what's been going on, and would be glad to answer what I believe to be the case.
"Fargeløse grønne ideer sove rasende,"
Huh, exiting lurker mode because that jolted me rather suddenly out of the story.
Are you simply having fun with nonsense, or with your fondness of easter eggs, is this foreshadowing? Grønne ideer could hint to changelings, and sove rasende could be a description of the elements, or possible the unknown looper?
Honestly, this is going to bug me, and this story gives me enough headaches as it is, can't stop loving it though.
Infinite damage, the pen & paper roleplayer's dream. Sadly, as is often the case, the reality is much worse than the fantasy.
I have to wonder about Harmony. We know much about it from the original trilogy, and it seems like the entity should've been able to patch up Twilight's brain without any difficulties. That it didn't, even to facilitate the One Loop to Rule Them All and in Utopia Bind Them, is very odd. Either I'm wrong, Harmony couldn't be bothered to do much with a flawed creature, or the mystery looper affected something truly primordial.
In any case, a few more hints of what happened with the Crystal Empire and an allusion to Star Swirl add to the subtle indications of whatever's going on. Now that Twilight can brain good again, I look forward to her balancing rebellion against and service to Harmony. And what it thinks of that.
...oh, wait, should I have been spoiling stuff? Am I cool now?
4136906 I like your Nightmare Theory. It's a dreamstate explanation similar to the "Twilight is Twilight Looping" shorthand that I did a few chapters ago, right here: 4071080
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Okay, so in that dream... Whatever, she learned from "Harmony," who I can only assume will end up being the other looper, that... What? Her constant looping is killing the universe? And I honestly have no idea what happened last chapter. I get what Luna was TRYING to do—discover if Twi was really her—but beyond that, I have no idea what she did to her in the mind probe thingy.
4137908 Heh, alright, easy enough!
Harmony is actually Harmony, that is it is the collective embodiment of the elements of harmony. It's working for a "perfect" future, and any reality deemed not on course for perfection gets a reset via the shiny wall of death when the elements go boom.
Unfortunately for it there are now two scoops of loopers in the cereal bowl of reality, so they keep undoing the attempted destruction. In essence it is the reverse, the loops are keeping things from being destroyed. Here Harmony is telling Twilight what to do in order to get the loopers to stop, and, err, fix the situation, but harmony and perfection aren't synonyms for good, merely often correlating partners, and we see Twilight already starting to notice some loose threads.
As for what happened in Twi's head, basically Luna magically roofied her so that she'd not resist the examination, and it made Twilight very susceptible to suggestion, so when Twi asked Luna "who am I?" Luna guessed Nightmare, and Twilight took it as a instruction.
Then Luna tried to kill the Nightmare, and accidentally nearly erased Twi from reality itself.
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Okay. So...
Right now, we are in a loop where both Spike and Luna know what's going on, though they dot remember any new loops from when? When Twi entered the circle?
Chrysalis has manipulated the loops so that the rest of the girls can not be saved. The only way to save them is to fix this whole mess? Or are they fucked?
Bon Bon is a changeling who wants to overthrow Chrysalis because she's gone mad, tryin to invade Canterlot.
Twilight, Celestia, and Chrysalis are all looping. Celestia has hanged her anchor point every day for the past 1,000 years, but Chrysalis can change hers, too? And we don't know how she got the looping spell? Also, Celestia has changed Twilight's anchor point now, right? Can Twilight do that, too?
Stopping the elements from exploding is no longer the key to stopping the loops. So, is there NO way to stop the loops? What is the endstate goal now?
Woohoo! Honorable mention!
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That's still my headcanon for this fic
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I know what you mean, seriously - A Watchful Eye has taken nearly 2 months. Though that's partially from lack of time, I think it's mainly the 'must be just right in order to function at all' problem we both face.
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Chrysalis can't rehang her anchor point. Hers is just further back.
Temporal Walls of Text are my favorite Walls of Text.
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Spike isn't looping, has never looped, and I'm going to assume, will never loop. Luna on the other hand, used to loop in the past, but to my knowledge, hasn't looped in over a thousand years for some reason, no doubt related to Nightmare Moon, her banishment to the moon, and/or the use of the Elements of Harmony on her during her return back in s01e02.
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The mane6 (sans Twilight) are, as of the last few (40 or so) loops, cannot be saved. Whatever Chrysalis did, she's found a way to make it impossible for Twilight/Celestia to do anything about it, for now at least. Whether or not anything can be done about that is unknown.
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I think you've got the wrong changeling? You might be thinking of Rarity (Crooked Fang). I don't remember Bon Bon being anything more than a powerful adversary for Twilight, but I could be mistaken.
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It's unknown how Chrysalis obtained the loop spell, true. If I understand correctly, by recasting the timeloop spell, any timelooper can reset their anchor point, however doing so cannot help you, as you can't send the anchor back in time. It's like making a backup of your computer in which you can only have one backup. If your backup is a week old, and you want a file that you deleted a month ago, you just can't do anything about that. You can go ahead and make another backup, but all you're doing is loosing anything that you deleted between your last backup and now[1].
If Chrysalis's anchor is a week ago, she has significantly more time to prepare for invasions and whatnot than the rest of the known loopers[2]. Though, one advantage would be to make it so you don't go insane by experiencing the same part of a loop every single time for the past 1000 loops or so. Though Doing so screws up your ability to adapt to what your rival timeloopers do.
The way I see it, you would need to use Time travel (because we need more weird time shit) to go back in time, and THEN set your anchor point, in order for it to be truly advantageous.
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The goal in HR2 was never to stop the loops, at least not yet. Even in HR1, it took a while for that to become an actual goal because without the loops, and without the Elements exploding; Canterlot would be in ruins, Chrysalis would have control of Equestria, and there wouldn't be a world worth living in. Only once "The Perfect Run" was known, and obtainable did stopping the timeloops become a priority in HR1.
Last I checked, the goal of HR2 had been to knock Chrysalis out of HER loop, which gives Celestia and Twilight the advantage they need to pull off the HR2 version of a "Perfect Run". Then getting Twilight out of HER loop might have become another goal, but really, Celestia has been looping for millennia, and since Twilight will (probably) become an Alicorn some day, she might as well pick up the habit herself.
Of course, somewhere along the line, our protagonists have to stand back, and question who the hell the Mystery Looper is, Whether or not Harmony is to be trusted, what happens to pre-loop Twilight when she is replaced by (HR1) looping Twilight, and a whole bunch of things. The past few chapters has started to cover this bit.
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[1] - Yeah, that almost sounds backwards @ deleting files by doing a backup, but Time is weird.
[2] - This raises an interesting question, whenever Chrysalis loops back, wouldn't Celestia go through about 6 anchor points? Wouldn't the Celestia from The day Twilight starts looping find herself about a week in the past? Something to keep in mind I guess. If I got the times right, Twilight definitely did, since in HR1, her loop started in the afternoon or so, but I believe her loop tends to start in the morning in HR2. However, it was suggested that the spell HR1!Twilight used, is different from the one that all the other loopers from HR2 are using, so this ability may only apply to Twilight.
My thoughts on Harmony's actions:
Harmony did give Twilight a second chance, and she's well on her way to succeeding at it by not following it's instructions which tell her to ignore Harmony's own virtues. Which isn't to say that Harmony might not prefer that Twilight follow it's script, if only to resolve the main issue with less damage in the interim, and as has been pointed out, Harmony != Good. But Twilight asked for a second chance, and so it granted one, knowing that it could still lead to an ultimate resolution.
The only reason I would doubt this is because Twilight specifically asked herself, 'is this a test?', and whenever a character asks that, it's almost always not a test. I suppose it's also possible that the whole encounter with Harmony was a bloken blain-induced hallucination, and that there're other explanations for how Twilight survived. But a singular god-like entity representing Harmony itself directly interfering in these events from outside of timespace would be a neat and tidy answer to a lot of questions that have been asked throughout this story so far, so hallucinations don't seem likely. Except... maybe it would be too neat and tidy. Maybe...
[Edit] Also, I really hope we get to see the promised conversation with all three of them. This seems like the end of the arc, and that conversation seems like it'd be part of the arc, so I get the feeling the conversation is just going to get timeskipped for the sake of getting to 'teh actionz' faster.
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Spike doesn't know what's going on at all - he isn't looping. The first loop we see in the latest chapter, where Spike talks about the elements is because it happened in that very loop, and since Twilight remembers it, no one else does. Luna isn't looping at all at the moment, and she only knows of what happened there from reading Twilight's memory. She can still cast the loop spell, but part of her banishment as Nightmare Moon means that she can't adjust her anchor point from the moment of the banishment, so she'd have to live through the millennium on the moon first, and that'd kinda be hell.
They also don't remember any loops at all, to the both of them, things start from Celestia's anchor point, and move on from there, although we can presume that Luna has a way of verifying that someone else is looping, as she seems well versed in the magic.
Chrysalis has manipulated the loops so that Twilight can not save the girls. They are still alive at the moment Celestia resets however, so she can act to save them once the rest of the equation is figured out.
I think you do mean the Changeling!Rarity who is the one that woudn't mind stopping Chrysalis. She is also the same changeling who became Azalea in Eakin's trilogy.
You can change your anchor point forward, but not backwards, and you can only have one. So Celestia and Chrysalis are at an impasse with their anchor points at the moment, as presumably neither one can prevent the other from casting the loop spell. Twilight isn't the same as her non-looping version, so it's hard to say. In theory she could change her anchor point, but as there's the inevitable big badda boom, she has nowhere to move it forward to.
The current goal is to stop Chrysalis (and in doing so stop the elements from exploding), and the loops are a means to that end, so it's a bit the reverse. Twilight is stuck looping, because she doesn't know how to terminate her loop spell, but she also has no reason to want to do that until they can stop the invasion. Well she might, but she has her sense of duty to keep her in the loops. Celestia can presumably terminate looping whenever she wants to, but has no real reason to do so, as she's been using them continuously since the Nightmare Moon incident.
Harmony wants the loops ended so it can "fix" the universe, and Twilight is currently on that path. Either way they can't deal with that until they get the key to ending the invasion, which the "perfect loop" that Twi has in her noggin now might be the key to. If you trust Harmony anyway.
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I love you both. Seriously, I'm bookmarking those comments so I can get re-caught up next chapter. Thanks!
4138353 Heh glad to help! It helps me organize my thoughts as I read the story to do a summary like that too, and I enjoy untangling balls of timey-wimey thread, so if I have a bit of string that seems relatively straightened out, I'm happy to share.
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Oh, wait, I get it now. The physical Elements of Harmony is itself (using the singular because that's easier here) the mysterious third time looper. It's been looping back to whenever in an attempt to create a perfect Equestria now for quite a large number of loops, but it can't loop back as easily as Twilight and Celestia can. To loop, the EoH has to kill itself, but that involves them exploding which is a lengthy process that Celestia has been preventing since this story started. Meanwhile we know that the EoH are completely immoral so how much of what it showed and said to Twilight that is a complete lie we can't really know.
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But why would Harmony bother looping? It's never shown any hesitance to discard an insufficiently harmonic species and start anew.
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Let's see... From over here:
...buuuuut we know that the EoH is itself created in Equestria through some kind of time paradox. What if "wipe the final remnants of this world away" doesn't mean physically flatten the world but instead getting rid of all the errant time-lines of Equestria that are floating around? If the EoH never looped or did any other time-shenanigans then it would only have one try at each species, but time looping means it gets to try 'fine-tuning' stuff to make it more harmonious.
stop raping my brain please
anyways nice chapter, glad we are past that arc. my brain hurt