I can't say I understand what you are going though but I do know what depression does to you without the help of anti- depressants.

The best medicine I can think of is just talking it out with anyone.

If you need to PM me and such I can be an open ear if you need to vent or just talk

I wish you luck, and remember its always darkest before the dawn. If you need anything at all feel free to ask.

Oh shit. I'm sorry to hear of your woes.

But look, you ARE a better writer than most, and your story is well done!

Never the less, if you need time to yourself, feel free to do so; I for one won't complain.

Dude your one of the best writers on this site. I hope you feel better

>no one was willing to wade through chapters that long and pick out typos and errors
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>Everywhere I look on this site, I see people who are better writers than me
Not everywhere, for you are a better writer than me

You sir are one of my favorite authors on here, I squee whenever I see one of your fics update, you honestly are a bright patch here on this site

I dunno, man. You're on my Top 5 of favorite writers of all time. I wish I could write half as well as you. You are one of the people I strive to be.

I totally agree with pyrox52.
You are the one make me REALLY have the fun reading fim-fictions.
I remember the first time that I read My Little Alicorn from Equestria Daily.
I did not sleep all night and eager to read the next chapter and the next chapter.
I was extremely excited about your character development.
And I found that the character LUNA was very interesting. (And I become one of the fan boys of this character)
I greatly thank you for your work.

I'm really sorry for hearing those bad things.
Best wished for you. And I hope every bad thing will be gone.
And everything goes fine.
Good luck!

The first time I read a chapter of MLA, I was hooked. It was the second or third fic I read on this site, and it has been a sort of a measuring stick for all other fics I've read. The stories that even manage to come close are few and far between. Stories that would be better? Haven't seen one yet. Kwakerjak got me into reading fanfics. YOU made me fall in love with them. The moment when I see a new chapter of BUB popping up, I literally drop everything else just to enjoy. When you fav'd one of my fics was a very happy day indeed, more important to me than that one time I got into the feature box.

I can also understand your situation a bit. I've been down that road before and even though you won't believe it now, it'll get better. I have personal experience of depression, unemployment, living with a handicap and even supporting family through difficult ailments. So if there is something I can do to help, just please, ask. I may not be the best proofer in the world, but that's one job that would be a pleasure to do.

Just hang in there, and try to have some fun. You can't help others if you don't help yourself first.

You are by far one of the better writers on this sight. I don't know who you're looking at to say that about yourself, but you really are good. I understand how depression sucks, I have it as well, but you are one of the writers on this sight that helps me get from day to day. Just looking forward to another update is enough. I may not be the best, but I'd gladly proofread anything you write. It would mean less of a wait to get to read the need chapter

There's not much I can say about your depression, except for the best of luck. I mean, things could be going worse, your sibling could've died...or out of all this you could NOT have ponies and that would just make it all horrible.

And I am very much willing to fully edit/proofread/beta-read anything you have. I would love to help and am willing anytime.

Depression blows and you are awesome. If a djinn appeared unto me and said 'would you rather not get a single blowjob for a year, or not be able to finish Bringing Up Blueblood,' I'd pick No Blowjobs, not even a contest. And I'm from England, the birds here are slags.

I'm writing you out a proper PM, but until then I'll say this: Whenever you feel down about your writing abilities, remember that E L James published a trilogy of Twilight erotic fanfiction with the serial numbers filed off, one which includes the words 'puckered love cave,' and now she sleeps on a bed made of money. Today you are a better writer than her, as you were yesterday and will be tomorrow.

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Kiddo, I know you've got the best intentions, but if you ever feel the need to tell a person with depression that 'things could be worse,' slap yourself crisply across the lips. Instead, do something good like offering to help by proofread- oh, you did that. Ah. Good. Carry on.

Edit: Also, The Moaning Crown? I'm intrigued. Will read later.

If you ever want to talk to somebody send me a message, sorry if this sound pretentious, but it usually helps.

Okay, you're secretly me from another universe, ain't ya? Because that pretty much sounded just like me.

I don't know what to say, man. I'm dealing with the same feelings, only I'm lucky enough to still have a job... Retail. It sucks, I hate it, but it pays the bills and has insurance, so... yeah.

Just remember, man, you've got a lot of readers who love your stuff. You're definitely a good writer, that's beyond all question; you've got over 500 people following you and your stories have like a 1,000 thumbs up each. You got the skills, man, ya just need the confidence.

And above all, remember to take care of yourself. You got a lot of people who want to see you better in mind and body, because we like you.

And finally, remember, Stand Up And Fight!

It may not sound like it but I truly feel for you. I cannot empathise but I can sympathise. My advice?
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Buy some weed?

Dude you are one of the best writers I have seen. Remember that.
Also remember if life is kicking you then sorting that out takes priority over the story. We will wait till you are feeling better.

It's unfortunate to hear about all the stuff you are going through at the moment, but you aren't alone in all this. There are plenty of other authors and fans gathered on this site that are always willing to lend an ear or a hand, myself included, to those that need it.

And what you said about your stories being bad? Rubbish. I loved MLA, it was a very refreshing and clever story. A lot of people obsess about typos and let it ruin the story for them, but I honestly saw very little if any, and that never changed the quality of the story for me.

If you ever need a friendly shoulder or anything, message me up if you just wanna talk. I'm always willing to take time to help people talk things out. It always feels best when you just take the time to vent and just let it all out. Pending it all end never goes well in the end.

Hopefully you can get through this rough patch, after all, you've got a huge fanbase that loves your reading, regardless of how others are just there to bag. Never doubt your abilities, for they are your greatest strength and your greatest source of joy in the darkest hour.

Worked in a shitty job for four years before losing it to BS? I KNOW THAT FEEL MAN. I would say your lucky to have gotten even those couple interviews, but lets skip the useless platitudes (especially since the business world won't) and go straight to the suggestion. Try getting a job at something like an Amazon warehouse. Amazon in particular is one of the few corporations doing well, thus it is actually hiring. The downside to a job like that would be finding time to write in, but you gotta have the moneys.

Also, I am totally willing to pre-read. Sneak peak at a chapter, and all I need do is look for errors? SWEET. Now, whether or not I would do a good (or even competent) job is debatable. (If its just correcting grammar mistakes, I think I can handle it. It's finding writing errors I totally blow at. dl.dropbox.com/u/31471793/FiMFiction/emoticons/shrug_Luna_apple.png )

Let me please add to the list of folks wishing you better. Seriously, you are a great author, one of the ones I use to inspire me to be better.

I can't say I ever had to deal with the kind of stuff you've apparently been going through, so I wont spout out any kind of ridiculous non-sense about understanding your pain. I'll just say, do what ever it is you need to do so that you can work through it all and find your fair share of happiness again. Most importantly don't feel bad about burdening any of us with this post. Reaching out to others, even faceless names on the Internet, is the most important thing of all when copping with how life just seems to keep piling on the suck.

Aw man. That sucks. I can't help with much of that, but I could try editing/prereading your new chapters. I've been somewhat tempted to list the errors in your old chapters as I read them but I was kind of lazy. I'm fairly good at spotting typos and grammar mistakes, though I'm by no means perfect. Just an offer; don't feel obligated to accept.

That sounds terrible. I'm really sorry about your brother. No one in my family has ever been in an accident, and I don't have a real job so I can't lose it, but I do know what depression is like. I know that I'm just some random person on the internet, but feel free to PM me if you want to vent.
Also, I know that all the comments say this, but you are a GREAT author. I adore all of your stories.

Yikes. Now I feel bad about everything I said in my previous two posts. Well, except for the "I rank you with CLAVDIVS CAESAR, writer of Ditzy Doo's Dismally Derpy Day" part, but that's a positive, so...

Okay, first - I'm sorry. I really am. I really need to start following blog posts so that I don't open-mouth-insert-foot the way I just have been. I would have been considerably more delicate. And I hope job hunting gets better in the near future, and I'm glad your brother is okay.

Second - you didn't drag me into a pissing match, I showed up and started one weeks after your blog post. So *I'm* the bad guy there.

Third - editors are overrated...well, no, they aren't, but really I sometimes think this fandom has too much of a fixation on turning lead into gold, as it were. Lest we forget we're all writing what amounts to pulp fiction, for fun. Certainly I think you're a better writer than I am, anyway.

Fourth -

I'm sorry for putting this up. I'm sorry for making a fool of myself.

No. Bad InsertAuthorHere. If you have depression and can't get anti-depressents, then reaching out is exactly what you should be doing. Do not apologize.

Fifth - although you probably can't answer this one - why is the "watch" button not working? I want to watch you. But it won't let me.

I honestly hope that things begin to look up for you. If there is any consolation, i am not that great of a writer either. I had tried to write a story and i was stunned and saddenned by the amount of dislike i ggot from it. But i have read your work for along time now and i must tell you that this shit is great. I myself would never be able to make anything close to this, editor or not. What you are doing here is great, i am sorry that your life is in turmoil, but you are an amazzing writer. Never forgot that.

Hey man. Sorry that your having a shit time right now and I'm sorry about your brother and your own economic situation.

You are by far one of the most talented writers on FIM Fiction.net, and, though I have never been in your shoes before, I know, by experience, that depression makes you feel like shit, and having your family members getting hurt makes the whole thing even worse.

So if you wanna talk, as talking is one of the best things to do when your depressed IMO, PM me or talk to me Steam Chat (my username is on my page)

If life is hurting you, make it hurt back. You got the guts and patience to work at a job that you abhorred for 4 years. If YOU can do that, then in my opinion you can make it through anything!

Just remember that horrible experiences always tend to make up for themselves in the end. Your brother will be alright, and if our fucked up economy is not willing to give YOU a job, then don't worry. Anarchy is ALWAYS the solution

Take care. I hope that you and your brother will get better, and I hope that this helps.

Aww come on, your stories are AMAZING!!!!! In my opinion, you are among the best. I love your creativity, and I Love All your stories!!! This Platinum Crown is at the top of my mental "MOOOARRRR!!!!!!" list. I hope life just gets better for you:

PS: have some contagious pinkies to warm your heart.

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Stole the words riht out of my motuh.

Seriously though IAH, that sucks. It's good to hear that your brother is ok but so far it must be a bad downward spiral. If there's anyway any of us can help,let us know.

Personally if it helps, I would be more than willing to help preread for BUB. Even if all it does is give you 5 extra minutes in the day, that is good enough for me.

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You're one of my favorite writers on this site, Im surprised you dont have pre readers/editors because I thought you did, you do well on your own.
Why are all your stories highly rated? Simple, you just do a damn great job at writing.
If you ever feel down and you just want to talk, we will be here.

I have personal experience with depression and KNOW just how much not fun it is. Depression is something I struggle with on a daily basis. It's part and parcel of my everyday life. Often times coming here to fimfiction is one of the many ways I distract myself FROM said depression. When I feel low I have found time and time again that reaching out and talking to someone helps more than any medicine.

I don't know all of your personal circumstances but if you ever want to talk to someone send me a message. I am always happy to lend an ear if nothing else. You should never ever feel bad for admitting that you have some sort of problem and you should never feel guilty about sharing your problems with other people ESPECIALLY people who are willing to listen and become a friend.

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Thanks, everyone. I know this isn't exactly what you come here to read, but...thank you.

Dude, stop it. Don't talk that way. You're probably one of the best and most thoughtful writers on this site. Your deep analyses of the show and its characters are brilliant and perhaps the most thorough I've ever seen. Your criticisms about specific common threads in writing are very insightful, and your story is one of my favorites on this site. Believe me when I say I have NO idea who you're talking about when you say there are a ton of other people on this site that are "so much better" than you, because as far as I've seen, you're one of the best here, resting firmly in the top tier. I can maybe... MAYBE... think of two or three that are better than you, and that's only assuming that I don't count you all on equal footing.

Look, I understand what it's like to go through a shitty time in life. Recently, I had to deal with failing grades while simultaneously my grandfather was on life support. But at least take pride in the fact that you have something here you can do, and do WELL. You're a good writer, and don't let anybody tell you different.

Everywhere I look on this site, I see people who are better writers than me

Every single comment on this page - perhaps most comments on all of your posts - is written by someone who thinks otherwise.

As for pre-reading/editing
well, several others have already spoken up, so you've got people willing to lend a hand
but I'll bet any number of your readers - including myself - would be willing to work on this
Send me a PM if you like, I'll help if I can.

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295499 If you needed help with, well anything, you could've asked. I'm sure there are several others who will agree with me. We are all here for each other. (PM me, or any of us who offer, if you want)
I feel for you, too; more than you could ever know. I also have Depression, and it's driven me to that point more than once. I've had family in court more than once, and I am empathetic, so that didn't help much either...
Talking to others about it helps some, but what you need to find is something that you don't just enjoy; it needs to be a passion. I can be anything [legal]: reading, drawing, writing, speaking, a job, volunteer work, music, anything. Just find what you like to do and do it.

Find yourself a good church to visit. If it is a church filled with God believing Christians, they should care and be willing to help.

294697 What they said.

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I'd offer my editing skills since I FINALLY seem to have time to do it but if you need spelling and grammar I'm not the guy to talk to. I do content editing and idea assistance, you appear to need neither of those things.

As for depression and life, tough it out man don't abandon ponies... They kept me from doing something extremely stupid during a REALLY rough patch myself last year.

Just remember you've got your loyal brony addicts that will love and tolerate you if you stop writing... and not in the good way.

298716 >they should care and be willing to help
Being a "God believing Christian" is irrelevant
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I know you probably won't believe me, but I know how you feel. I've been struggling with the same impairment for decades. I'm relieved to read that your brother and his friend were alright after the accident. I had three friends and family in the past two years who were not so lucky (or alive). I'm currently employed, but it's only for a four-week temp job. All the jobs I've had in the past three years have been temp jobs.

The only thing I can suggest to you is to do what I do: just take it one day at a time. Don't go out and try to find something that makes life worth living. You won't find it. Just wake up, do what you need to do in order to keep yourself alive and healthy and keep the debt collectors away from you for another day, and then go to bed and hope for a better day tomorrow. I'm not going to spray you with the standard "you have nowhere to go but up" crap that I hear all the time.

If you want my perspective on this in more detail, message me. I can probably provide a unique point-of-view on this.