A reflection of Dust · 5:41pm Aug 27th, 2019
When I first started on this project all those years ago, I was genuinely excited. There was an idea I had to really take the ideas and tenets of the show and make it something a little bit more mature. Make the echoes and reflections of what make MLP:FIM good and kinda shake it up a little.
Well, life got in the way, as it always did. One thing led to another, and I just found it harder and harder to really enjoy writing, especially here on FimFic. A lot of my friends from back then who still kept in contact sort of know half of the reason, which has to do with the curse of writing and all that, and the other half was a chain-reaction that was started when I lost my mother to heart disease and I simply didn't have the methods to deal with it.
Now, this isn't a blog post meaning to garner sympathy so -- and I do mean this -- you don't have to comment just to say sorry or whatever. I've gotten over it, I've adjusted, and life moved on.
Throughout the last 2 years, however, I've always had one single regret.
Well, maybe regret isn't really the right word for it, per se. More like... a nagging feeling at the back of my head. Something that told me, hey. You were this close. THIS close to finishing something that you could actually be proud of. And I never did. The stigma of its performance, and the fact that, as it usually happens, the thing that one might care about the most gets a lot of unrealistic expectations in return.
I started to fear it, and started to kind of hate it, because I always felt that I had to outdo myself each chapter in order to make up for the fact that it wasn't really relatively well received. And I realise now, of course, how silly that notion is.
Over the last two years I've bounced back, and started to find the excitement in just... creation again. To do things, not only for others, but also for myself.
And for that, I've finally decided to finish one of the biggest projects I'd ever embarked on, not in length, but in meaning. I finally decided to listen to that nagging feeling, and ignore the fact that I'm never ever going to be happy with its reception, because I'm a dumb human with human faults and a stinky brain that goes to silly thoughts whenever it feels vulnerable.
But even so, all in all, I had a lot of fun writing it from start to end. I had a lot of fun finishing it, as I finally lay down the final words last night. And I'm going to try to push through to the future.
I know now, more than ever, it's going to be harder than before. A lot of people are gone now, even the few faithful readers from long ago. In the end, this is dedicated to the very few who remain. The ones who waited all these years to see an end to this. And even though it might not end the way you thought it would, I sincerely hope you can share with me this feeling I have that I finally accomplished something. No matter how small, it means a lot to me, and I hope that can be expressed through the completion of this tale.
So, thank you. Genuinely. Thank you for reading this story. Thank you for all those lovely comments you left years ago that brought a tear to my eye out of sheer gratitude, and thank you for indulging me in this stupid, stupid thing that is the most pointless thing but somehow the most important thing in my life at the same time.
So as it goes through editing, and the final touches are being made, all I can say is the same thing I've always said before. And trust me that I mean it wholeheartedly.
Thank you for reading.
Sincerely,
KR
And thank you for coming back to finish it.
I'm beyond excited to see this continue man!
Like...yaaaaay~
Really looking forward to rereading and finishing the completed story. So glad you found joy in it again.
Thank you for coming back to finish this. You've built an incredible world filled with great characters.
Regardless of how the story is ultimately received, it's awesome that you're rekindling that passion again!
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It's like an intestinal parasite
Once you've learnt it, you never forget.
Finishing stuff is GREAT!!
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Yes. It feels quite nice.
Also I'm working on 2nd draft now. Finding an editor is hard.
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If you’re hard up for help, shoot me a note—I know some guys.
(Of course, you’re probably familiar with some excellent people too; I just happen to have a list handy that I recently sent someone else.)
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If I do, I'll hit you up!
Thanks for the offer. I do know SOME people, but of course, real life kinda gets in the way sometimes and people get busy. So I've been scrambling.
In the meantime, I accidentally added 5k more words to the chapter for my 2nd draft, which is a vast, vast improvement over the first. So I think we're very near the end. After a final edit pass... well.
It'll finally be concluded.
Sort of.