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Luna Aeterna Solutae


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  • 204 weeks
    The meaning

    Luna Aeterna Solutae.
    Aeterna is the feminine form of the declension adjective Aeternus, meaning eternal, abiding, or perpetual.
    Solutae is the feminine plural form of Solutus, meaning unbound or free, mostly specifically in the form of being released from bindings.
    "The ever-free moon", or perpetually in a state of change or release.

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  • 206 weeks
    its been like a year and a half

    and im still upset about villain exchange program
    losing that badly- to some of the absolutely shittiest entries, who committed sins my entry was called out for to a far greater degree really fucked with me

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  • 226 weeks
    Reminder that love is a lie and friendship isn't real.

    That is all.

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  • 261 weeks
    Harmony is...

    Harmony is 5AM inspiration and me SCREAMING at the side of poor Krickis' sleeping head like some kind of nerd instead of sleeping.
    Harmony is feeling bad, unwanted, excluding and... support flowing out. People I've never spoken to, people I want to speak to more, people I wish I could be friends with!

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  • 262 weeks
    Beginning of the End.

    During my prewriting navel gazing this blog had numerous titles and the body changed a lot. It'll probably feel a little bit sloppy.

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Oct
28th
2018

apropos of nothing · 1:54am Oct 28th, 2018

Comments ( 20 )
TDR

4959081
this answers nothing.

Mmmm why were you writing?
Fabs......
likes......
Maybe acceptance...
Let me tell you something about it
If these were the reasons, you didn't even get any chance from the beginning

As author you write because there is a wonderful, enigmatic, epic, chaotic, even lewd Part of your mind were a world is held
You write because you envision that world and you want to see it coming to be

The mind is not a place to a good story to be
And Us the readers are at best lucky to see a glimpse of those places

As a writer train yourself, be better, change, your style, practice, accept the positive criticism and evolve that is how you became better at writing

But as an author always and forever write for yourself because that was the point of writing

End a story just because is not well received is betraying that part of your mind were those world's are born
It is betraying yourself

You are not bad. You are doing a good job with The Untrotted Path let you work shine!

...I don't really know what's going on, but I hope you're alright. Sounds like you're not feeling alright, but I hope things improve.

I like your story, and I like you too.

4959081
YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!! If you were a failure, then you wouldn’t be able to upload on this site!

We all agreed that your story was one of the strongest on the conceptual level. The biggest problem we had was that we wanted more. And this was just the collected, subjective opinions of three people on the Internet who barely knew what they were doing. This is far from the best foundation on which to build your sense of self-worth.

It's too soon to call it quits just yet. The story has potential, and you have potential.

The story started off strong and well-written. The downfall was the sheer speed at which things changed. It was a controversial gamble, something which polarises people. That doesn't make someone a bad author.

Could improvements be made? Yes. Could the aftermath (from what I've heard) have been handled better? Probably. However from what I've seen from proofreading the next chapter it's going in a good direction, so take a step back if you feel you need to, but don't give up just yet.

Neither the story, nor you, are doomed. Just different. In other words, an Untrotted Path

I make no apologies for that pun

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i write because the numbers go up and it makes me feel good
4959148
amateurish at best
4959156
im not
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nobody likes a failure
4959171
yes i am
4959215
of the winners i read two because i didnt get around to tartarus island
mooby world had sloppy pacing, riddled with errors, and bad characterization but i guess a decent premise
smile had awful characterization, incredibly sloppy pacing, no real plot... i could go on. it wasnt terrible but it wasnt good by any means and definitely didn't deserve the win. cherry cola should have won, i had no hopes of even placing because im an amateur at best and i suck but failure still hurts a lot, especially when the ones that didnt fail didnt deserve to succeed.

its funny in a painful way that i got dinged for being "telly" in the last third and the introduction of a framing device was met with hostility
when the winning story is full stop all tell no show
4959219
im just tired of it

I don't hate you.
I don't think you are a bad writer.
I don't think you are stupid, untalented, an amateur or as you put it a failure.

I don't even think you are a troll or asshole by choice. You've left behind nice comments before. Hell, you even said some nice things about my stories before any contest business.

You wrote about some of your problems before in your profile and recently you suffered hardship from that hurricane as you wrote in that previous blog. Noone can blame you if you are hurting.

But you have to see within yourself. That lashing out at others isn't the way to go. That lashing out at yourself isn't the way either.

Learning to take criticism is as important of a skill as crossing T's and dotting I's. Whenever I write stories and I show my friend / editor, more often than not he is going to say something about it I am not going to agree with. We fight, we have a tug of war. But every time the story is stronger for it and I am always thankful, even though the next time I show him something we go through the same process all over again. I bet you a million bucks that even the best writers on the website do this. I bet you Stephen King or Neil Gaimen or Brandson Sanderson or any other top tier writer does this.

You are always going to get a response that you won't agree with. Maybe it'll be from some rando nobody. Maybe it'll be from a fan, maybe it'll be from someone you admire. Or maybe it'll be an actual troll trying to get under your skin. You are still going to get them, even if you write the best. Even if you could somehow magically write the literal best story ever. You are still going to get downs you are still going to get that one guy. Sometimes they are right, sometimes they are not, but when you treat every response as an attack you are cutting yourself off from valuable advice. It's only going to get worse the more popularity you get.

Imagine if things were different. If you won first place in that contest and we all wrote glowing reviews singing you nothing but praises. And in the middle of everyone saying congrats to each other you have that one person come in and say “What. RPT won? Their story was dreck!” Be honest. How would you have replied to that?

We are all lovers of magical friendship ponies, nobody on here wants to see you fail. You had several hundred people upvote your stories and even now you got people trying to reach out and help. If you gathered them all up they'd fill up an auditorium and they are all active fans of what you write. That's something concrete you can be proud of and means more than where you placed in a contest. If you stopped writing a lot of people will be sad. Myself included, because giving up on something you love is a tremendous waste.

I hope you find some time to center yourself. Maybe you'll see everything I wrote and think on it. Maybe you are rolling your eyes thinking how full of shit I am. I took an hour of my day to write it and I write it because I care enough about you that I want to see you do better.

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And in the middle of everyone saying congrats to each other you have that one person come in and say “What. RPT won? Their story was dreck!” Be honest. How would you have replied to that?

"I know, right? But My Little Dashie has like 13,000 upvotes, so some people just don't have good taste in stories and will like anything."

You wrote about some of your problems before in your profile and recently you suffered hardship from that hurricane as you wrote in that previous blog. Noone can blame you if you are hurting.

My "problems" don't really bother me. They bother other people. I've lived with my particular case of DID for twenty years, and it's only gotten worse in the last seven. I was only diagnosed schizophrenic seven years ago, as it's not a diagnosis they make for children or teenagers.
As for the difficulties presented by Florence... I've lived like / struggled with the same thing for the last 5-6 years. It's just life to me and only bothers me a little.

The last month I've been driving myself fucking crazy with the Villain Exchange Program. Because of how fucking neurotic I was about it, everyone now hates me.

Sometimes they are right, sometimes they are not, but when you treat every response as an attack you are cutting yourself off from valuable advice. It's only going to get worse the more popularity you get.

Most of the time they are wrong. I can see it because I have the shape of the story and this time I can't say why they're wrong or how it'll click together later. I haven't... actually gotten much valuable advice, aside from Ambion's thoughts on Tales of Fillydelphia.

Whenever I write stories and I show my friend / editor, more often than not he is going to say something about it I am not going to agree with. We fight, we have a tug of war. But every time the story is stronger for it and I am always thankful, even though the next time I show him something we go through the same process all over again.

I don't have that luxury. My only option is to fire it off and wait for it to be butchered by people who don't get it.

Comment posted by blairmen deleted Oct 28th, 2018

so what happend? Admittedly I generally don't prowl beyond my comfort zones on this site but I guess there was a contest based off the links you gave. don't know what it was for so I can't really say much but I know what losing feels like. I generally give my self a week to deal then try and get back into things.


4959235
I could not have said it better myself. look no one here wants to see you go. their will always be jerks and detractors. lord knows I have had to deal with them but you know what, your a lot braver then me. You at least had the confidence to write. mean while I'm to terrified of people telling me that my writing is garbage to even do that. I know I have no moral high horse to stand on to tell you to keep at it when I have never even tried, but please keep going. there are a lot of people who truly love your work and appreciate you. dont let a couple assholes ruin everything for you. No matter what we are still here.
4959240
I don't hate you. the people here and now don't hate you. I wish I could help. I wish I could make them all stop but I can't. no one can these days. but you can't let them destroy you because then they get what they want. and if you left our world would be a little less bright.


looking back on this it reads more like I'm trying to talk a person out of suicide but I hope it still helps.

edit: I deleted my own post because I accidentally posted a partially written version of this.

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Yeah... well... good luck, I suppose. I'm afraid I'm not sure what else to say to help. I don't hate you, though.

I enjoy your story. Never saw you for anything but a good writer. I would like to encourage you to continue.

Why waste time moping when you could be writing. I have no idea who you are and no desire to connect with you as a person. But when you write, for a brief moment #fastreader I get to experience a world you created. And that's interesting. And it has value to me. And as far as I am concerned it justifies my decision not to blow up what you puny earthlings refer to as the "moon".

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