i don't feel like i have the energy to explain everything that's going on right now.

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hey all

sorry for reaching out for human contact and then, like... not responding to those offers for contact. truth be told i feel like a bit of a fraud/sham: i asked for people to be kind and contact us, and then got too scared to respond. partly i don't want to dump my problems on these poor innocent people. partly i am just stupid i guess.

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(hopefully)

now that we are attempting to settle into life as a disenfranchised creative type, it occurs to us we are lonely a lot and could use some people to talk to. until therapy becomes freely and publicly available, we'll probably have too much of our personal life to share, but we're starting to take in stride that this applies to most people. maybe therapy is only so recommended because so many people have so many problems.

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first, that's a metaphor. i am not dead, and i am feeling surprisingly non-suicidal, so take that as you will.

over the last few days i reached out to what i hope are all my commissioners, offering them full refunds on their purchases. i won't share any more details about that here, other than to say it's something that i can't really afford but am hoping to sort out through various means.

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as of the writing of this post, i will have been sort of settled in my new place for about a month—a month since i've gotten my own room with something proper to sleep on, anyway.

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we are unsure how to respond.

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it is getting really difficult atm

we moved our PC into our new bedroom today, and when we got it there, it wouldn't boot up anymore. we reseated cables and cards, all the fans are spinning, everything seems powered, but the thing won't boot. it seems to be a physical problem with the power button the case.

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maybe. possibly. at an outside chance.

ahem.

so it turns out PayPal has not completely left me to go fuck myself. they say that if i can provide enough government issued documentation that proves who i am, i might be able to unlock my account.

obviously, i'll be attempting to do that. however, there is a problem in the meanwhile; without my PayPal account functioning, i can't manage payment for my work in any reasonable fashion.

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hello. we have been in limbo for the past four days. we can't get our stuff out of storage. we can't go into town to get our errands done. we can't get our PayPal situation resolved, and the message we got from PayPal support makes us think our account is going to be locked.

what happens to the donations people sent if that occurs? do they just get eaten up? is there anything we can do to unfuck our lives at this point or should we just give up?

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