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darf


pony-writer/pornographer looking for work. old stories undeleted. i'm sorry. Patreon here

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  • 7 weeks
    boo

    hello

    we are thinking about potentially taking on a small commission.

    please contact us if you are interested.

    thank you.

    <3

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  • 21 weeks
    darf is really tired and needs somewhere to live

    i don't feel like i have the energy to explain everything that's going on right now.

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  • 24 weeks
    my b

    hey all

    sorry for reaching out for human contact and then, like... not responding to those offers for contact. truth be told i feel like a bit of a fraud/sham: i asked for people to be kind and contact us, and then got too scared to respond. partly i don't want to dump my problems on these poor innocent people. partly i am just stupid i guess.

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  • 27 weeks
    darf makes friends

    (hopefully)

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  • 29 weeks
    the darf is dead (long live the darf)

    first, that's a metaphor. i am not dead, and i am feeling surprisingly non-suicidal, so take that as you will.

    over the last few days i reached out to what i hope are all my commissioners, offering them full refunds on their purchases. i won't share any more details about that here, other than to say it's something that i can't really afford but am hoping to sort out through various means.

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Jun
14th
2021

my b · 6:46pm June 14th

hey all

sorry for reaching out for human contact and then, like... not responding to those offers for contact. truth be told i feel like a bit of a fraud/sham: i asked for people to be kind and contact us, and then got too scared to respond. partly i don't want to dump my problems on these poor innocent people. partly i am just stupid i guess.

we will try to respond to everyone who was nice and reached out over the next few days. right now we are mostly working on our music and trying not to die. we wanted also to say thank you to everyone who is still supporting us through our Patreon, even though we're essentially not doing anything to earn it. it's our hope/dream that we could transform into some kind of music production page in the future, letting people see the projects we're working on as we do them. over the past few months we've put together 5+ songs in various states of 'finished', and we will probably upload them and share with the world at large at some point.

also, while we won't name them here unless they ask us to specifically, we would like to thank someone very close to us who has been around to help us get through these tough times. theoretically all times are tough, but this person is making us feel a little bit like there is a light at the end of the tunnel that is not an on-coming train. thank you very much for this person.

we will still be on the site from time to time. if you feel like supporting us, ko-fi donations are still greatly appreciated, and all current proceeds go to basic necessities like food and our various chemical addictions. in particular we are trying to ween ourselves off energy drinks, but it's easier said than done. they just taste so good...

thank you everyone, and hope to talk to you again soon~

Comments ( 2 )
Feech #1 · June 14th · · ·

trying not to die.

This is a good goal.

Reaching out is difficult, and it's understandable to not want to "saddle others" with your problems. If someone responds, though, it's a safe bet they're willing to "be saddled" to some degree or another. And, when multiple people reach out, that means the load is distributed; no one person "bears the burden." You build a resilient support network that's resistant to complications, such as being unable to reach someone, and better able to help, as a little from many is much easier than a lot from few. And, while I don't agree with the viewpoint, an argument could be made that distributing yourself among many is treating the few around you right now better as you "ease your burden" on them.

I don't think it is saddling yourself upon others or being a burden, for what it's worth. You reach out and people respond. It's a mutual, or at least consensual, relationship. And you are more than the troubles you carry. And there are more to others than the relief they bring—we all have our troubles. We're all in our own pits and we're trying to climb out of. Some are in deeper than others. But you can't help someone in a pit higher than yours until you let them help you get up and stand beside them. Then, you can work together to climb out of pits, and help others climb out of their pits, and still be helped by those above you. A chain is formed where people, hand in hand, can descend into the lowest pits and scale the highest. Then, you'll soon find the metaphor of the weakest link in a chain does not apply to humans; we can temper and strengthen our links with compassion and aid.

It's good that you reached out. It'll be better when you extend your hand once again to the people who reached out in kind. Nothing I've said is new, and I doubt any of it makes a difference to the mind—we can be perfectly aware of what we logically should do, yet still be unable to act on it. Maybe someday, though—hopefully soon—you'll overpower the mind, extend your hand, hold on tight, and climb.

Also, keep composing music. I love hearing new stuff.

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