Oh fuck all kinds of ducks · 1:44pm Jun 23rd, 2015
My coffee maker just died.
I hear that there's going to be terror attacks and such. Either way, these next four years won't be fun. I can't leave the country because I'm going to college. Maybe I can study in South America for a while. ISIS doesn't seem to give a fuck about South America. Or everyone is just being dramatic and things really won't be that bad. We've got "My vagina nullifies all of my scandals and lies" and "I have neither a filter nor experience". We're fucked.
Fuck everything. I want to write. But I can't, not right now. This is going on for a week and four days now. I feel weak. I feel nearly constantly exhausted. Nothing else but pure and 100% relaxation can give me at least a tiny shred of happiness. The moment I touch something that can be described as "work" in one way or another, I feel how my brain starts to twist and knot itself. I get ill and feel sick. I have the desire to write, to write for Lemon Crumble and Cozy Glow and Kettle Corn and
I'm not allowed to do shit. My classmates are going out having fun every weekend. My siblings got to do more things than when they were my age. It's all because of the fucking car accident. My school has this thing called senior privilege. I don't get to enjoy it because of the accident. I can't drive with friends because I get too excited in the car. Now I don't have a fucking car. It doesn't help that I rarely get to see them. I really want to run away but if I do that I'll
Goddammit, is it September already!? Welp, so much for that summer.
Anyway, it's hard to believe its been over a year since I put 'MLP EG Forever' on hiatus. I feel like I haven't accomplished much since I started back up in January, and compared to last year, I really didn't. From January 11th to August 10th, 2017, I published 79 chapters, but this year, from January 28th to now, I've published only 23.
Knighty wanted blue....
In all seriousness, I actually like it, for the most part, but it will definitely take some time to get used to it. Only thing that bugs me is the rounded avatars and how they affect the cropping of the original picture now
I feel like a lot of people i know involved in the MLP fandom have, at some point or another, stopped watching the show itself. Doubtless they have reasons, good reasons. I think i've asked a few of them why, and they've told me; and at some point i forgot. And that's a bit of a shame, because i might have to start asking them again, tracing patterns, finding connections.