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MrNumbers


Stories about: Feelings too complicated to describe, ponies

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  • 19 weeks
    Tradition

    This one's particular poignant. Singing this on January 1 is a twelve year tradition at this point.

    So fun facts
    1) Did you know you don't have to be epileptic to have seizures?
    2) and if you have a seizure lasting longer than five minutes you just straight out have a 20% chance of dying in the next thirty days, apparently

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  • 24 weeks
    Two Martyrs Fall for Each Other

    Here’s where I talk about this new story, 40,000 words long and written in just over a week. This is in no way to say it’s rushed, quite the opposite; It wouldn’t have been possible if I wasn’t so excited to put it out. I would consider A Complete Lack of Jealousy from All Involved a prologue more than a prequel, and suggested but not necessary reading. 

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    2 comments · 604 views
  • 27 weeks
    Commissions Open: An Autobiography

    Commission rates $20USD per 1,000 words. Story ideas expected between 4K-20K preferable. Just as a heads up, I’m trying to put as much of my focus as I can into original work for publication, so I might close slots quickly or be selective with the ideas I take. Does not have to be pony, but obviously I’m going to be better or more interested in either original fiction or franchises I’m familiar

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    5 comments · 598 views
  • 29 weeks
    Blinded by Delight

    My brain diagnosis ended up way funnier than "We'll name it after you". It turned out to be "We know this is theoretically possible because there was a recorded case of it happening once in 2003". It turns out that if you have bipolar disorder and ADHD and PTSD and a traumatic brain injury, you get sick in a way that should only be possible for people who have no

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  • 39 weeks
    EFNW

    I planned on making it this year but then ran into an unfortunate case of the kill-me-deads. In the moment I needed to make a call whether to cancel or not, and I knew I was dying from something but didn't know if it was going to be an easy treatment or not.

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Feb
11th
2020

Fanart and WholesomeRage updates · 11:06am Feb 11th, 2020

So, first thing's first:

Made by Autumn Rush, who is absolutely phenomenal, for Undome Tinwe to give to me. One of the nicest things I've gotten in a very long time.

Apart from that, I have three new Wholesome Rage pieces:

Productivity, about why content creators are so prone to burnout under capitalism and why it's kind of inescapable

Freelancing Websites, written by Oliver Ivory, who is an amazing author, about his experiences as a freelance writer working the commission websites. It's a really good read even if you don't have a practical reason for the advice, because I think it's a useful experience in explaining why "the freedom to make contracts", on its own, isn't really good enough.

PTSD is about my own experiences with recovering from trauma, but I also go deeper into stress and fear responses in the second half, and the four 'f's: Fight, flight, freeze and fawn, what they look like, and stuff you probably didn't realize was a stress response.

Comments ( 6 )
Majin Syeekoh
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pokes

Hi there

I always love your articles.

I only read first article, but so far I tend to agree with

I think depression just looks like laziness from the outside.

and whole rationalization of every hour we spend 'unproductively'

My own situation a bit different. I live in flat left to me after both my mother and my grandmother died, in 1996 and 2001, with mother actually disappearing in same 1996 and just officially declared dead in 2001. because I have particulary low vision i have some welfare (13 000 of rubles/monthly, with food store workers around having 22-23... ), at low end of wages, but not at lowest possible end for pensions/welfare (! as socialist-ish thinkers we tend to know even low-end wages today barely cover REAL cost of living, even before we start to make more humans ....). So, I live with my dog, and not much more.

But I feel strong need to do something about all this (I mean more global situation). In my life I spend a lot of time trying to make some anti-captivity for local dolphins work - failed hard, and come to conclusion fundamentally there is same type of psychological mechanism, preventing humans to stay and speak up/do something against installed authority (be it dolphinarium director or some political functioner).

So, me watching Crysis 2 Movie for few hours at the end of day feels like wasted day!

Reading something like this helps only partially, because I feel like reading IS consumerism, if not paired with some real-world activity .. and even making good post for now feels like rolling stone up the hill :/

I probably never will be artist, just not this type of person - at best I can try to make few 'unnatural' links between my finds (texts and people, mostly). On more artist-centered side of internet this self-impotence also feels like pressure ..:/ Hard to settle for so little knowing how bad things really are, out there in bigger world all we live in .....

I alos noticed you noticed/referenced Aragon ... IIRC he is one you specifically care about, it both lovely and sad to read this...

Also, I want to thank you MrNumbers, for "The Death of the Cubicle and the Profit Motive".

As of PTSD .. lets my {possible} PTSD NOT to escalate yours :}

Finally read the PTSD article. That's pretty much the story of my life right there; I've been through a whole lot of those unhealthy coping mechanisms, to the point where some of them got really self-destructive.

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