My lack of activity, explained. · 10:01pm Sep 28th, 2019
College, writing my stories in Docs, trouble working with Excel on my Chromebook, falling behind in my Stats class as a result, and generally feeling hopeless.
Yeah, I do kinda feel hopeless at the moment. I have many obligations to finish, but I also have an obligation to treat myself--which I instinctively think is selfish--but I nevertheless know is essential to my well-being. I feel like I don't have enough time to do everything I want or need. I haven't shaved or showered in days. I've barely eaten anything but boiled potatoes, toast, and cereal. I feel like I'm floundering in the dark. And being addicted to watching porn (that dark, evil creature) isn't helping my mind at all. I feel romantically deprived. And socially deprived. The texts I send to my friends go unanswered.
But at least my family is solid and loves me. I have a mother who loves me, which is more than I can say for others I know. I have a father that loves me. My family is happy to see me. I'm supported financially and socially. My brother is always here for me and is willing to offer me advice. My roommates think I'm the coolest of them all, even though I'm shut in my dorm for hours and hours on end. And I have you.
My gosh, you! How awesome is it to have so many followers who genuinely care about me? I never dreamed of being so anonymously well-respected. I never really expressed my thanks because I don't know how to articulate in words just how much all of you mean to me.
So yeah, I actually feel a bit better. Even if you haven't read the reason why I registered on the site, my pride and joy, A Rather Large Adventure (which I'm tagging in this blog) I'm so happy for all of you. I hope I'm as inspiring to you all as you are to me.
*hugs and nuzzles*
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Aww! Little Wuna's so cuuuute!
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*smiles* If nothing else, I can always count on you for a snuggle, Four.
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heeee. *snuggles*
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Luna is Best Pony. She'll always be my favorite, even after she retires from the throne.
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You're likely going through something tough, so I hope you get better as well.
I understand how you feel, I have my own issues and I definitely know what it is like to be socially deprived given my extreme levels of social anxiety. Keep up the good fight, fight the monster you mentioned and try and spend time with those who care about you. I am no counselor or anything but I'd say you should count your blessings and be happy you have them. Many people don't and would love to be in your situation.
“Each human heart is born with a bell of prayer within it. When calm winds and clear skies prevail, the bell falls silent. But oh, how the bell chimes and prayer rings forth when the winds of affliction stir and the skies pour down the rain! Know that affliction is not all bad: affliction teaches us to pray.”
- Paraphrased Quote of Wilhelm II von Preußen
Stand strong, my friend. For he who is rooted in Christ is safe, for Christ is unshakable.
Peace be with you.