.... · 3:49pm Sep 16th, 2016
I love how I blog about the dumbest things yet I've said basically nothing about how my much older future stepbrother molested me
Or how last night my dad decided to hurt my brothers to the point where they called my mum crying about how they were going to die
Or how as of right now I have no place to live where I won't get beaten or have to hear about my siblings getting beaten
I live with the sort of people that leave their kids at home all night so that they can go have sex with more groups of people, and then when they are home, they're drunk and do a terrible job of watching us
And it is so hard to go to school and be with my group of friends who are talking happily. I can't say anything. I open my mouth, and the words just won't come out. And all I want is to talk to the English teacher I had last year because he's closer to a parent than my real parents right now. He's the one who made me lunch, talked to me, checked up on how I was doing, and realized that I was suicidal when my parents had no idea anything was wrong.
I'm not a good person. I can be mean sometimes. I don't listen. I definitely don't follow rules. But I don't think I deserve this.
And it's not all about me... I forget sometimes that my brothers have it the same. The only difference is I'm old enough to remember the time back when life was actually pretty great, and that was ages ago. I wasn't even in school yet when my parents were screaming at each other, me, the pet goldfish, etc, and my dad got kicked out of the house.
I'm sorry. I'm just so fed up with everything and I just want people to see what's going on... since I can't tell anybody in real life. I'd be taken away from my family and as horrible as they are I still would miss them.
Somebody shoot me already.
If they really are as horrible as you say they are, you really shouldn't consider them true family. At all.
I will shoot you a message explaining again that I'm here if you need me.
Also, that guy below me has a point.
Panda... *hug* You're not f'ed up. Your family is. You don't deserve to feel like this.
They don't watch you at night; they don't watch you during the day. Do you have any idea how many people crave for that freedom?
Why do you want to be watched by them, anyway? Imagine that this is your life. What will you do with it? Your parents decided to stay off your path, wich is a bonus.
Aw, honey, no.... don't ever shoot yourself. Believe me, we're all here for you if you need us. And, heck, if you want someone to talk to, I'm available. I'm constantly checking Fimfiction for updates.
Talk to me please.
Honestly, you should really get away from the both of them. You and your brothers. Such people should not be looking after children.
4212531 I'm fifteen. My brothers are 13, 12, 9, and 7 and they can't even remember to feed themselves. They've ended up in the hospital multiple times from injuries sustained at my dad's house because be didn't teach them that things can be dangerous.
So no, I can't really say it's "freedom". I have to take on the role of a parent while also managing mental illness and taking care of myself and not failing school.
People envy having parents that don't get in your life sometimes, but honestly, they don't know what they're wishing for.
4212508 It's not all bad times, though... like, my dad understands me, and we share the same fascination with technology. My mum and I are both goofy and she's the type of parent that gives us ice cream for dinner. My stepmum is kinda interesting to talk to. They're not bad people at all. Everyone makes mistakes.
Have you tried to see someone about all this? A counselor, another family member, a therapist? Do you know the number for Child Protective Services? Because these people are not parents. Just because you're related by blood doesn't mean they've earned that title. You need to get yourself and your brothers out of there, by any means necessary.
4212572 Then clearly they're not as horrible as you've been making them out to be.
4212598
There's good and bad in most people.
4212572 'everyone makes mistakes'
Umm
How about no?
Beating your kids repeatedly is not a mistake.
Once? ehhh questionable. But more than once is not a mistake.
Going out and drinking amd being unable to take care of your kids? Not a mistake.
Not teaching kids to not hurt themselves? Not a mistake.
Talk to an adult about your problems, someone you can trust, and see if they can't help you find an out.
Your parents don't give a shit about you, and they're making your life worse, moving on is the best thing to do.
4212598 I've not been lying about anything. It's just when I'm venting, I don't typically discuss all the happy things in my life alongside the bad.
4212597 Thing is, not all of my brothers are blood-related to me either. And two of them don't know of any better life so they're not going to leave. And my biological brothers... well, they're best friends with the other two. They're not going to want to leave. They can't see how bad the situation is. They've grown up thinking this is all normal.
4212606
That's quite a big leap, man.
4212572 I still stand by what I said. You and your brothers still deserve better.
4212607
4212613 is right. Your brothers might not know better, but that doesn't mean there isn't anything better. You can improve their lives if you get them to understand that their lives need improvement.
4212613 How would you know that? For all you know we're all horrible people.
4212618 Let me clarify: You deserve better guidance and protection as children. Being 'horrible' doesn't exclude you.
4212607 Fair enough, Still, you have been painting quite a bleak picture of your home life for us.
4212628 My mum could offer that if maybe we were allowed to see her more.
4212612 not really, if they actually cared about you they wouldn't hurt you.
Right?
'oh. They only do it when they're drunk'
If they cared. Then they wouldn't get drunk.
4212633 Then you could push for that, provided that molester stepbrother fucks off.
4212618 life isn't about who's a bad person, it's about doing what you can do in a situation and moving on.
Everyone is a terrible person.
What separates those of us that aren't completely terrible isn't that we don't do bad things. It's that we work towards not doing bad things and we feel nad about doing bad things
4212637 They care. They're just not very good at showing it. My dad doesn't really understand how his actions affect others. If something makes him happy, then I don't think he can realize that it might make other people unhappy.
4212638 He's so nice though.
4212644 Wait, the molester is nice?
4212646 Yeah.
4212649 Hmm...that's confusing.
4212655
I refer you to my previous comment:
I do know kind of what it's like to have a fucked up family. Not... Really comfortable talking about it in a comment section though.
You can PM me if you ever need somebody to chat with. Who knows, I might be able to relate. Might. It's never certain, you know?
Older future stepbrother molested you, and is nice? I'd like an explanation of the situation, because it sounds very confusing.
4212672 That doesn't mean you can just forgive molestation on the basis that they're 'nice'.
You do not stand for this. Do you understand me? You do not stand for this. I know you're kind of scared to go because you just think that they made a little mistake, but that mistake wasn't little, it was big. And that word mistake isn't singular, it's plural. Everybody needs parents. Everybody wants to believe that their parents would never go all he way, ever really hurt them bad. But ya know what? Kid, you're in denial. I know that they birthed you, and
sortakindaloved you. But right now? The way they're treating you? It's not healthy. Even if they are your parents, they still have no excuse. Lots of people in abusive relationships say that they're fine, that they don't wanna leave. Lots of people in those relationships also say that they love the person. And I know you love your parents, but if they don't love you enough to watch you, kiss you goodnight, be there for you when there is nobody else that you need but them? And you only need them? And they won't ever come? Then call child protective services, because everybody needs someone to watch them, help them, teach them, care for you, comfort you, and never under any circumstance touch you in any way that you don't want them to.4212644 physical violence upon one's own children transcends that, if he's that oblivious he's probably a schizo or some other form of mentally ill person.
There's no excuse for that kind of thing. NONE.
4212849 listen to this guy.
He's right. Completely.
I know, I know, your biology and being raised by your parents tells you to love them and the vice versa, but sometimes emotions have to be ignored in favor of reality. I know it's hard, my girlfriend has been through something very similar to what you're
Going through, if you just take things one day at a time and fight for yourself (not literally, more through subterfuge and cold- communication based conflict) things will get better.
4212830 or any basis.
And eh, just because a person acts a certain way doesn't make them incapable of doing thigs that conflict with their usual way of doing things.
If someone did that to someone close to me I would tear them apart, quiet literally.
4212863 merci boku. Et je suis la fille.
Sry to much French class.
Thank you
band I'm. A girl
4212882
You're welcome.
I got that. :V no french class, but I'm pretty good at guessing what is being said if it's written (given enough context, and a language i am semi familiar with)
And sorry,xP i didn't no
4212888 it's okay! You're nice I'll follow you now.
4212752 He's just a nice guy. Very friendly, liked by everyone.
One day we were on a boat. It was really cold and he asked to share my blanket, so we sort of cuddled, and he ended up doing stuff to me. I was frozen. I didn't know what to do.
He's an adult. I'm a kid. And I just can't understand why he did it.
4212853 I really don't understand why people immediately see unusal behaviour as schizophrenia. He's not schizophrenic. As far as I'm aware, he has ADHD and anxiety and is just really close-minded and unaware of how his actions affect others.
4212882
*Beaucoup and *une fille
Je pense que tu as besoin de plus de la classe de français.
4212894 okays
thanksya kindlym
4212947 you mean he's good at hiding his true nature?
Yknow being rude and being disgusting are two different things..
Being unable to realize the way you affect others is part of schizo, as well as autism.
Point aside the logical part of his brain should be able to tell him hurting people is bad.
and either way it is UNACCEPTABLE.
4212947 gah
, I just got out of school! And French class! Don't start!
Also please take my advice.
And you know who else had a rep for being a nice guy? Brock Turner.
4212977
It's also part of psychopathy, and attachment disorders, and loads of other things, like ADHD.
4212982
French class is great.
4212984 it was just a rabdom guess.
I said 'or something' didn't I?
And yeah.... Must be severe.
Point aside,
it's STILL UNACCEPTABLE.
4212994
Mm. I suppose.
I just get irritated by people declaring everything is schizophrenia. In today alone I've had someone tell me I have schizophrenia, had somebody decide to write a clichéd story with a schizophrenic character, and now this.
4212998 /-/
I've met a schizophrenic, in a mental hospital (field trip, thankfully)
Was.. an interesting experience, to say the least.
I was not declaring i was merely suggesting.
4213000 You took a field trip to a mental hospital?